I did a thing...
I just applied for a job!
I really doubt I'll get it since my resume is pretty dang pathetic and I don't have any experience in the field, but here's to positive thinking! ๐ค๐ค My cover letter was pretty good....I think.
I was so nervous to submit. This is my first time ever submitting an official resume and applying for really any job. All of my other "jobs" came by word of mouth and people just immediately hired me on the spot. I feel super insecure about my inexperience with working a real job at almost 30 years old but it is what it is. I have no one to blame but myself.
The job I applied for is a remote/work from home position that I would really love, at least for the time being. I just need to start making money or I'm gonna be screwed! I'm starting to low-key panic. I would love to have a job that allowed me to travel. Unfortunately, I just found out after the fact that they're technically not hiring yet so it may be a while before I hear back. So I'm going to have to keep looking in the mean time.
Anyway, I was really struggling to submit my application. I was feeling super insecure and already doubting myself. I just don't believe that I'm capable of anything. I shut down under pressure and I place a lot of pressure on myself. I listened to the below "playlist" of encouraging, pump me up, believe in myself songs before clicking send. I'll be coming back many times to give these songs another listen as I try to move forward in Operation: Get A Job! I hope someone else finds the same inspiration in these songs as I do ๐
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But the power's in believing so give yourself a chance .... all you need is the will to want it and a little self-esteem .... KEEP THE FAITH! Don't let nobody turn you round, you gotta know when it's good to go to get your dreams up off the ground. Keep the faith, baby, yea, because it's just a matter of time; before your confidence will win out .... Believe in yourself no matter what it's gon' take. You can be a winner but you got to keep the faith! .... Any road that you take will get you there, if you only try .... Go for what you want don't let 'em get in your way you can be a winner but you got to keep the faith! .... Better stand up and act like you wanna do right don't play the fool for the rest of your life! Work on it brother and you'll make it someday; go for what you want and don't forget the faith! Look at yourself
and what you doin' right now; stand back a minute just to check yourself out. Straighten out your life and how you're livin' each day. Get yourself together 'cause you got to KEEP THE FAITH! .... Straighten out yourself and get your mind on track. Dust off your butt and get your self-respect back! You've known me long enough to know that I don't play; take it like you want it but YOU GOT TO KEEP THE FAITH!๐
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We're all on the ground, just crying out. Somebody save me please. I won't sit around just thinking about, the troubles that tomorrow brings yeah! I'M DYING TO BE ALIVE, yeah! I'm dying to be alive, yeah! Lets not go through our lives. Without just dying to be alive! .... The people you've touched, the way you've touched them, I hope they've touched you too .... Another day gone, a day closer to fate. Soon we'll find it's a little too late .... The things you see, the way you see them will never be seen again. To go through life, livin' on luck, bettin' ten thousand to ten, yeah. Mistakes I've made in this life can't even see why I win. But the thing that's strange is you only live once and never look back again! .... And we all come, tumbling down. No matter how strong, we all return to the ground. When the day's gone, I'll say "why did I wait?" Can't just leave your life to fate. Gotta turn it 'round before it's too late.๐
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Struggle is the price you pay .... Throw me a line so I can anchor my pain .... The fabric is about to fray .... Maybe you could take a look at yourself lately .... Things keep coming and I keep wondering, I start feeling the walls close in. Things keep coming and I keep stumbling, I start feeling I'm strong enough to break! Oh, I start feeling I'M STRONG ENOUGH TO BREAK! .... Nothing ever seems to change oh, nothing ever seems to change. We just play like broken records in a deaf man's charade .... Carry on just a pawn and the same old song, I'm still holding on๐
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It's hard just making it by but I'm tired of toeing the line .... Well, I HOPE IT COMES NOW and I HOPE IT COMES SOON! Now, I think it's about time I stopped waiting for you. Well, I hope it comes now and I hope it comes soon! Well, I think it's about time, feels like a change is coming! ..... Are you satisfied? Getting by with just enough or are you ready to start trying? .... Feels like a change is gonna come (feels like change is coming). Feels like a change is gonna come (feels like change is coming). And I HOPE a change is gonna come (feels like change is coming)!๐
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If I wait for summer to begin I may never begin myself. If we look to another for our dreams they may never become our own .... There’s a story every girl will share and a journey every boy must take. Sing it if you know it, scream it if you feel it. There’s nothing standing in your way, follow along with me, SCREAM AND BE FREE! ..... If you’re always living for tomorrow you’re gonna miss right now. If we’re only looking in the mirror we’ll never see ourselves๐
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I've paid my dues yeah, I've done my time .... You know that there's NO REST, FOR THE WEARY! Brother don't waste my time 'cause I've already made up my mind! There's no rest, for the weary! Yesterday was just fine but the future's all I've got time for! .... I'm a wide-eyed fool for the first temptation. I'll give up guarantees, for a good vibration. I'm a rich blasphemer and a poor man's saint. 'Cause my feet can't move to where my heart just ain't .... Yesterday was just fine but the future's all I've got time for!๐
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I don't want to take it to the same routine, I want to see the sights unseen, I want the extraordinary. Everybody's waking to the same clock but I could never be another chip off the block .... 'Cause I was BORN to DO something no one's ever done, no one's ever done before! I was BORN to GO somewhere no one's ever gone, no one's ever gone before! I was BORN to BE someone no one's ever been, no one's ever been before, oh! .... I'll shock the world when you least expect it. Everybody's betting on the big guy but don't underestimate the sting of the butterfly, oh! ..... There's a road out in front of me nobody can see, I'm paving it as I go. Gonna take it wherever it leads 'cause I want to be someone no one has been before!๐
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Don't give in to the decay .... Reach out, reaching to the top, been blocked, but you won't stop .... You've got to be FEARLESS! But you can be so much more. You could be bold, breaking the mold, you are what you let yourself be told! You could be FEARLESS! .... You are the start to the fire. Giving more than is required .... You won't be overturned, you can't be overcome. Blood sweat and tears is all you brought and you're giving all you've got ..... You can be brave, breaking the chains you are what you let yourself become. You can be FEARLESS!๐
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You can just breathe. You are no mistake. Though you're feeling strange, just give your heart away. Like you're not afraid to face another day. Though you're feeling far, you can chase a star. Like a child at heart .... You've been careful with your secrets. And you've been faithful but your regress. You've been holding just to feel safe again. You've been hurting. You've been hiding. I've been failing though, I've been trying!๐
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The fear that you might fail is like venom in your blood. Any moment you might freeze but the voices in your head scream DON'T LET ME DOWN! Your moment is now! Right on the verge of the rest of your life all you can hear is the sound of everything that you've been through that's led you to now. They can't take you down! Your moment is now! .... You can't let the world consume you, spit you out and tear you up .... It's not a question of whether you're ready, only of what you'll allow. Everything in your life, it has brought you to now .... No one can stop you until you decide that you're done .... Your moment is now! And YOU won't let ME down!๐
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Feeling like a hero, but I can't fly. No, you never crash if you don't try .... Never gonna live if you're too scared to die .... Gonna disconnect from the hard wire. Time to raise a flag for the cease fire. Staring down the hole inside me, looking in the mirror, making peace with the enemy .... I'M SO ALIVE, I'M SO ALIVE, I'M SO ALIVE! You can make it on a wish if you want to. You can make it on a wish if you want to .... Get up, get up, get out and get done! For the first time I feel like someone. Breaking down the walls in my own mind. Keeping my faith for the bad times. Get up, get up, stand like a champion. Take it to the world, gonna sing it like an anthem! .... Never gonna live if you're too scared to die.๐
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