Music is my Therapy

Song: In My Life Artist: The Beatles Aw man! I aged out of February! 😭 Too bad this couldn't have been a leap year. But this song is "my 29 on the invisible 29th day" song for February.  It's dedicated to my dog. And my grandma. I miss them both terribly. 💔 😭💔 Forever my angel! There are places I'll remember All my life though some have changed Some forever, not for better Some have gone and some remain All these places have their moments With lovers and friends I still can recall Some are dead and some are living In my life I've loved them all But of all these friends and lovers There is no one compares with you And these memories lose their meaning When I think of love as something new Though I know I'll never lose affection For people and things that went before I know I'll often stop and think about them In my life I love you more Though I know I'll never lose affection For people and things that went before I know I'll often stop and

Song: Never Let Go Artist: Hanson Today was my grandmother's funeral. It was sweet, heartfelt and tender. Full of love and admiration for a once in a lifetime kind of woman. Truly an elect lady. It's still difficult to let her go and to even believe she is really gone. Seeing her lifeless body lying in the casket at the viewing was difficult for me. I couldn't look at her for very long. Her spirit was gone. She didn't look the same. I'll always remember her with a big, warm smile and feel her hands on my face as she whispered how much she loved me. I will miss that. And her. Every day. 💔 So many times throughout the day the thought "I can't believe I'll never see her again" has crossed my mind. Usually thinking that brings me to tears. But today, I felt peace. I felt the peace of knowing I will see her again . And she will be perfect and whole, no longer struggling to move and walk. It is a reunion I anxiously look forward to. I am grateful for t

Song(s): Joker & The Queen AND Love In Slow Motion Artist: Ed Sheeran I know I haven't done my annual Month of Love Songs challenge this year. I haven't been up to it. It's been a hard week . BUT , I do have to acknowledge Valentine's Day and share my two most favorite love songs of the season. These gorgeous songs are from Ed Sheeran's newest album and they are so beautiful and heartfelt and make me melt inside! 💓💕💗 Joker & The Queen has a music box feel to it; it's so delicate and soft. Starts off with a few notes on the piano and then the guitar and strings come in and it takes the song to another level! It's like floating on clouds ⛅ with rose petals 🌹 falling all around and candles burning 🕯 . It's so romantic and beautiful and if you can't tell, I'm in love with it!! My favorite! I also love the metaphor of the cards ( "You could fall for a thousand KINGS and HEARTS that could give you a DIAMOND ring .... when I FO

Song: Child At Heart Artist: Taylor Hanson The Hanson Brothers are total BEASTS!! They literally never stop creating music and I am here 👏 for 👏 it!! Being a Fanson is exciting! There's always something to look forward to!  They have a *NEW* album coming out in May called Red, Green, Blue and what's super cool about this "concept" album, is it's basically three EP's in an album format where each brother has essentially a SOLO album/EP! This is something totally new for Hanson and I'm intrigued and can't wait to hear what each brother has come up with! Similarly to ATW they are releasing one new single from each "album" for the next three months (February - Red , March - Green & April - Blue ) until the album drops in May! This month is Red which is TAYLOR'S! Also, I like what they did here! Red dropped in February which has Valentine's Day, Green is dropping it's single in March which has St. Patrick's Day an

Song: Umbrella ☔ Artist: Rihanna  Daily Holiday Thursday, February 10, 2022: Umbrella Day ☔ How else do you celebrate "Umbrella Day" when there is no rain or snow outside? With this song! Uh-huh, uh-huh (Yeah, Rihanna) Uh-huh, uh-huh (Good Girl Gone Bad) Uh-huh, uh-huh (Take three, action) Uh-huh, uh-huh (Hov) No clouds in my stones Let it rain, I hydroplane in the bank Coming down with the Dow Jones When the clouds come, we gone, we Roc-A-Fella We fly higher than weather, in G5's or better You know me (You know me) In anticipation for precipitation, stack chips for the rainy day Jay—Rain Man is back With Little Miss Sunshine, Rihanna, where you at? You have my heart And we'll never be worlds apart Maybe in magazines But you'll still be my star Baby, 'cause in the dark You can't see shiny cars And that's when you need me there With you, I'll always share Because When the sun shine, we shine together Told you I'll be here forever Said I'

My amazing, beautiful, strong, wonderful, sweet Grandma passed away right before midnight last night. It's still hard for me wrap my mind around this. It all happened so fast .  I feel numb. And sad. And angry. And guilty. And just really depressed. I know this was what was best. She was ready. Her body was spent. She lived 93 really wonderful years. She deserves to rest now. But it's still so, so hard.  Guilt seems to be a dominant emotion for me when it comes to loss. I should have spent more time with her. I should have called her more. It kills me that she will never meet my future husband and children. Why couldn't I have gotten my life together so she could have seen me fulfilled and happy!? I can't let myself be consumed by the guilt and regret. I did see her often. I did have some wonderful and special times with her. I did the best I could. Of course, I could have done more but I can't dwell on that.  One of my last visits with her was so sweet and special.