Music is my Therapy

Song: When She Loved Me Artist: Sarah McLachan , Toy Story 2   I meant to keep posting a song until the end of the month but, FAIL. Oh well. And sorry to come back at you on this last day of November being all depressing and moody and sad but that's just how I'm feeling today. I feel sad. I'm exhausted. I don't want to be depressed and sad anymore. I want to stop missing people who I know don't even miss me or care or think about me. It breaks my heart to know that. It makes me angry with myself for being so obsessive and sad about these people. Who I love and miss. Who I know I won't get to see again and there's nothing I can do about it. I have no more excuses. I want to back to last year. I want to go back to happier and better times. I want to know that they still love me and need me. But I can't. I'm so angry and heartbroken all at the same time and it's STUPID!!! I DON'T WANT TO FEEL LIKE THIS ANYMORE BUT I CAN'T HELP IT!!

Song: Holiday Artist: Madonna Hahaha, fun song to jam to during the "HOLIDAYS!" And that's what I'm having so much fun doing right now! Celebrating the holidays with my family! I wish this time of year could last ALL year long! Feeling happy and thankful right now :) "Holiday! Celebrate!" Holiday Celebrate Holiday Celebrate If we took a holiday Took some time to celebrate Just one day out of life It would be, it would be so nice Everybody spread the word We're gonna have a celebration All across the world In every nation It's time for the good times Forget about the bad times, oh yeah One day to come together To release the pressure We need a holiday Holiday Celebrate Holiday Celebrate You can turn this world around And bring back all of those happy days Put your troubles down It's time to celebrate Let love shine And we will find A way to come together And make

Song: Coat of Many Colors Artist: Dolly Parton   HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!   I love this holiday and I am feeling so grateful for all of the many, many blessings I have! Family, my dog, children, the holidays, my home, food, freedom, tender mercies, my faith and religion, music....the list could go on for days! I hope everyone has had as beautiful and memorable of a holiday as I have. I feel so blessed.   This song is the perfect song for today, a day to remember what we have to be thankful for, even if it's not a lot. I have a beautiful, illustrated book with the words to this song. It has always held a special place in my heart. It was also my grandma's favorite song :) I'd actually never heard the song itself before but I've listened to it a couple of times this year. It is such a sweet story. It makes me cry. We should be grateful for our blessings. We should be grateful for what we do have and not try to compare ourselves or our material t

Song: Angels Among Us Artist: Alabama    I love this beautiful song and feel it is perfect for this time of year. I truly hope and pray that I have angels watching over and helping me and my loved ones. I'd like to believe I do. I know I've met "angels" through some of the friendships I have had in my life. The lyrics really touch my heart and even make me tear up. Especially the chorus: "I believe there are, angels among us. Sent down to us, from somewhere up above. They come to you and me, in our darkest hours. To show us how to live, to teach us how to give, to guide us with the light of love ."     I was walking home from school, on a cold winter day Took a shortcut through the woods, and I lost my way It was getting late, and I was scared and alone But then a kind old man, took my hand, and led me home Mama couldn't see him, oh but he was standing there And I knew in my heart, he was the answer to my prayers Oh I believe there

Song: Whatever You Imagine Artist: Wendy Moten, From The Pagemaster   Preface.....       Hahaha. This song is from a movie any 90's kid will recognize and one that I haven't seen in years! For some reason, this song came to my mind a couple of days ago so I looked it up on the youtubes and listened to it. I was overcome with a wave of nostalgia! Oh my goodness, take me back to my childhood, PLEASE!! I also paid a little closer attention to the words. They are really sweet. When I was a kid, I had a a HUGE imagination! If I didn't have anyone to play with, I could lose myself in my own imaginary world and make up stories and games and be entertained for hours. I have always loved books and reading (maybe that's why I enjoyed this movie so much!) and I truly believe that is where a big part of my imagination came from. I loved creating a world that I could be anything I wanted to be. I loved being a hero or an Indian princess or a witch/w

Song: Play That Song Artist: Train   HAPPY WEEK OF THANKSGIVING!!!   The count-down is ON ! Thanksgiving is just a few short days away! I can't believe it! This month has literally flown by! I have chosen this song for today because I just recently heard it for the first time two days ago on the radio with my sister and we both immediately liked it! Haha. I love songs that have a memory attached to them. I have a lot of songs that come about like this and I love it! It just makes me even happier while I listen because I can think of the memory that is associated with the song. I love music! I'm grateful for music.     Play that song The one that makes me go all night long The one that makes me think of you That's all you gotta do Hey Mister DJ when you gonna spin it My baby's favorite record She been waiting for a minute She invited all her friends And I'm buying all the rounds And they're all dolled up DJ please don't let me dow

Song: El Shaddai Artist: Amy Grant   Happy Sabbath! I love this song and it's beautiful message. I love my Savior and I am feeling especially grateful for Him and His matchless life. I am grateful for His unfathomable love and atoning sacrifice in my behalf.   "We will praise and lift you high, El Shaddai"     El-Shaddai, El-Shaddai  El-Elyon na Adonai  Age to age, You're still the same By the power of the name El-Shaddai, El-Shaddai Erkamka na Adonai  We will praise and lift You high El-Shaddai Through Your love And through the ram You saved the son Of Abraham Through the power Of Your hand Turned the sea Into dry land To the outcast On her knees You were the God Who really sees And by Your might You set Your children free El-Shaddai, El-Shaddai  El-Elyon na Adonai  Age to age, You're still the same By the power of the name El-Shaddai, El-Shaddai Erkamka na Adonai  We will praise and

HAPPY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SWEET MOTHER!!!   Happiest of birthdays to my sweet, loving, beautiful mom! I am so grateful for the wonderful and beautiful angel of a mother she has always been for me in my life. I love her so much and I hope she felt that as we gathered around her and served and loved and celebrated her life with her! I love you mom!!   Song: Mother, I Love You Artist: Primary Children's Songbook   I love this sweet, tender and beautiful song. The words are so perfect and simple. Dedicated to my mom on her special day. Because I love her. And these words are a beautiful and sweet reprsentation of the feelings I have for my mother in my heart.   Mother, I love you; mother, I do. Father in Heaven has sent me to you. When I am near you, I love to hear you Singing so softly that you love me too.   Mother, I love you; mother, I do. I want to help you because I love you. I want to mind you; I want to find you Happy and smiling because I

Song: Grown-Up Christmas List Artist: Peter and Evynn Hollens   This song made me cry!! Peter and Evynn did such a beautiful job with this rendition! Watching the sweet music video and listening to the words of this song touched my heart and brought tears to my eyes. In a world that seems so consumed with hate and violence right now (especially after I heard about a stabbing that happened at a local high school this past week) this song brought peace and comfort to my sad and fearful heart. I am so grateful for this tender message and beautiful video. I hope that during this holiday season I can find opportunities to serve and make the world a little bit happier. I love, love, love this song!!     Do you remember me? I sat upon your knee I wrote to you With childhood fantasies Well, I'm all grown up now And still need help somehow I'm not a child But my heart still can dream So here's my lifelong wish My grown up christmas li

HAPPY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE OLDEST BROTHER OF THE BEST BAND OF BROTHERS EVER, ISAAC HANSON!!! Isaac is truly such a gentlemen and over-all wonderful man! I have really come to love and appreciate Isaac and his valuable role and contribution to the band. Isaac is such a sweetheart and really loves his brothers, you can just tell! He is so nice, I just want to meet him! He doesn't seem like someone who would be intimidating or "too cool" to meet, he just seems so genuinely kind and friendly! I would love to meet him someday! I have really appreciated Isaac's amazing  Grace Unknown Podcast Series   this year. He is such a inspiration speaker! I love his honesty and his views on life. I agree whole-heartedly with the ones I have heard so far and can't wait to continue to listen to more (they'll be back after Thanksgiving!!). Isaac is just an amazing person and someone I look up to and admire and am grateful for! I love you Ike! One of my favorite Is

Song: Hallelujah Artist: Pentatonix I've been trying to hold off and wait to post this song come December 1st but I just can't wait any longer! And to be honest, it's been really hard for me to come up with songs for this challenge since I have been listening to a lot of Christmas music already but I don't want to post any of it yet! Today my local radio station finally started playing Christmas music (it usually starts the day after Halloween but that wasn't the case this year.....typical since I was in the mood for Christmas music a lot sooner this year than I am most years) so I listened to that a lot today. I'm just so excited!! Also, I found it totally appropriate considering it SNOWED for the first time this holidays season!!! AHHH!! And it was A LOT of snow!! So exciting!! Anyway, this song is GORGEOUS ! As usual PTX slays! They're arrangements are always so perfect, it baffles my mind! They know how to balance every one's voices so

Song: Love Somebody to Know Artist: Hanson   I'm throwin' it back to my boys, HANSON!! Still love these guys, don't you worry! This song is so adorable and catchy! I hope to experience this feeling someday....because as the song says, " You've got to love somebody to know ." I want to know!!     Conversations from 4 o clock till 9, Confrontation she'll never compromise, My new religion, Is written in this song, I disbelieve it, But I can't believe it's wrong. I can't explain what she does to me, You've got to love somebody to know, I can't explain how she sets me free, You've got to love somebody to know. Bubblicious is what she likes to chew, Andy Warhol gave her a point of view, She reveals me every lonely night, I can' believe it so just believe its right. I can't explain what she does to me, You've got to love somebody to know, I can't explain how sh

Song: Take Flight Artist: Mindy Gledhill   Very similar to my song choice for yesterday but again, I'm just feeling really emotional and grateful for the people in my life who have helped raise me. Who have loved me just because I'm me. And because I'm theirs. And I'm special to them. And that feels so good! I'm especially feeling grateful for my sweet grandmother who has so much love for me. I feel it every time I see her (which isn't often enough!). I'm just so thankful for these wonderful people I have in my life! And this song is so sweet and all about that unconditional love of a parent and the love that is felt, needed and reciprocated from the child. It's very tender.     I can't be held too tightly My spirit quivers like a kite But when you love me without strings I take flight I want to burn more brightly Than all the shooting stars at night And when you wish the best for me I take flight And with

Song: Little Red Bike Artist: Mindy Gledhill    This song makes me want to cry!! It just makes me think of growing up and moving on and moving away. So, why would I post a song that makes me feel sad during my grateful for music challenge? Because as emotional as this song makes me, it does make me feel grateful as well. It makes me think of my parents. It makes me think of their love for me. How much they have helped me my entire life and how they are continuing to always help me. They are always there for me. But I've reached that point in my life where they can't always do everything for me, they've had to let go a little bit. I'm sure that's hard for them. Especially when they see me struggling as much as I am. But even though they've let go a little bit, they're still there, running behind me, ready to help pick me up when I fall down. They believe in me. They know I am capable of succeeding. Since the time they helped me learn to ride my

Song: I Heard Him Come Artist: Joshua Seumalu   I just love this beautiful song about the goodness and love of my Savior. Since the first time I heard this song, it has stuck with me. It reminds me of God's love, grace and power. Everything He did, He did for me. He did for you. He did for us. I love Him. I'm grateful for Him and for His sacrifice on my behalf.   I heard him come I saw his very face I wondered who Would come into this place Where dead men walk And where the dying talk Of life before The curse upon them came. He looked on me; He must have felt my gaze He came toward me, Through the crowded maze, And I a leper in shame, hid my head Till someone said, Jesus is his name And he said, Nations fall behind him The rivers crawl to find him. Mountains move Just to let him through. Come and never leave him Just let your heart believe him. And never let his light go Never let your love grow dim He fed a tho

Song: I'm A Survivor Artist: Destiny's Child   Sorry for missing yesterday, but I was busy doing something really difficult and draining. All I can say is that....I'm grateful that "I'M A SURVIVOR!" It was hard. It was challenging. I'm exhausted!!! But, I SURVIVED! And I'm sooooooo GRATEFUL! I'm sooooo HAPPY to be DONE!!! This song came to my mind as I've thought about the challenging weekend I had and I thought it was the perfect (and kind of silly) song choice for today and for what I just went through!     Now that you're out of my life I'm so much better You thought that I'd be weak without you But I'm stronger You thought that I'd be broke without you But I'm richer You thought that I'd be sad without you I laugh harder You thought I wouldn't grow without you Now I'm wiser Though that I'd be helpless without you But I'm smarter You thought

Song: With My Own Two Hands Artist: Jack Johnson feat. Ben Harper   I LOVE this song! I think it is so sweet yet powerful! We really can make the world a better place and make a difference in our own lives, communites and country by using our "own two hands!" We can! We are Americans! Our history is one of perseverence, hard work and determination! Never giving up! We are all so different, unique and diverse and we can use those differences as strengths. Let's use our hands for good! Let's use our hands to serve those around us. To lift up hands that fall down in despair. To give an encouraging squeeze when life is hard. Let's change the world with goodness, kindness and LOVE. Let's follow the example of an innocent child. Think of children, what are they like? Sweet, forgiving, non-judgemental, willing to believe, love and accept. Children are powerful examples for us. We need to do this for them. We need to learn from them .    

Song: Broken Yet Holding On Artist: Roni Tran   My siblings found this song on youtube and we have been obsessed with it for a while! I have no idea where it comes from or who this artist it is (although we think he's Finnish) and why it's not available for purchase on itunes! But it's a really pretty song. And I feel like it could sum up my life pretty well. I have felt more broken this year than ever before. I have felt more disappointment, sorrow, anguish, anxiety, fear and dread this year alone than at any other point and time in my life! But, I refuse to give in. To the depression that can seem overwhelming at times. I refuse to give up. I'm still holding on. And I'm still fighting. For peace, joy, happiness and a better life! I'm thankful for that.     I can see you walking out, I'm not tryna believe it There's no way that this can be for real, I'm dreaming I can see the water in your eyes, you don't have to

Song: Hands Artist: Jewel   I chose this song today because I feel like, with the election and all of the drama and turmoil and hate it has brought, we need to remember that we can choose how we will react. How we will treat those around us who may have different opinions or beliefs. We need to help one another. We need to use our strengths, talents and abilities to be the best people we can be and to help lift others to their potential. To stand up for what we believe to be right. I love the message of this song and I hope that no matter what happens, we will choose love. We will choose kindness. Peace. Service. Friendship. Let's use our hands to lift up, build up and support one another! We must  stay united and believe in the good of our nation! God bless the USA!   "In the end....only kindness matters....we are God's eyes....God's hands."   If I could tell the world just one thing It would be that we're all OK A

Song: Pure Imagination (From, Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory ) Artist: Josh Groban   This song is from Josh Groban's album, Stages and it is so beautiful! This song makes me feel like a child again. It is dreamlike and makes me feel like I can do and be anything I want to be! It makes me want to believe in my dreams! It makes me want to create and be artistic and different and unique. And of course, Josh Groban is flawless and it is just simply a breathtaking rendition.     Come with me And you'll be In a world of pure imagination Take a look And you'll see Into your imagination We'll begin With a spin Traveling in The world of my creation What we'll see Will defy Explanation If you want to view paradise Simply look around and view it Anything you want to, do it Want to change the world? There's nothing to it There is no Life I know To compare with pure i

*I was busy Saturday, so I've got to do a make-up!   SATURDAY   Song: If I Ever Fall In Love Artist: Pentatonix feat. Jason Derulo   Confession: I've been listening to a lot of Christmas music already! I've just been so excited and ready for it, I can't help myself! But I'm not going to post any Christmas music....yet. So this song came to mind as I tried to think of something (other than a Christmas song!) to post. I just really enjoy it! And Jason Derulo is INSANE! I had no idea he could sing that high!     The very first time that I saw your brown eyes Your lips said "Hello" and I said "Hi" I knew right then you were the one But I was caught up in physical attraction But to my satisfaction Baby, you were more than just a face And if I ever (Ever fall) In love again (Again) I will be sure that the lady is a friend And if I ever (Ever fall) In love so true (So true) I will be s

Song: December Song Artist: Peter Hollens   Peter Hollens Christmas album, A Hollens Family Christmas , is out and I'm so excited!! I can;t wait to start listening to it. I'm also really excited because for the next several Fridays (leading up to Christmas) Peter is releasing a new music video to one of his Christmas songs off the albums! Today's was December Song and I thought it would be OK to post a Christmas song this early on because....well, it's not really strictly "Christmas" sounding....it's a song more about the spirit of Christmas and how we should always keep it with us. It's about being peaceful and kind in our interactions with one another. It's a perfect song for this time of year with all of the excitement of the holidays just beginning to happen. I love the message of this song, it's beautiful! Enjoy!!     In December We give our gifts Wishing well to our world

Song: Broadway Artist: Goo Goo Dolls   And I'm....back at it again with the Goo Goo Dolls ;) A couple weeks ago when I was having a really bad day, I purchased two Goo Goo Doll albums, one of those being Greatest Hits: Volume 1 . I have not regreted this impulsive, emotional purchase for one second. This album was on repeat for days. This was a "new" song for me and I immediatley felt a connection to the song. Even though what the lyrics are saying don't exactly describe me or my situation/feelings there was just something.... there. I honestly don't know how to describe it but I just felt a need and desire to listen to this song over and over again. Sometimes the connection you make with a song don't always make sense, but that's what makes music so powerful. You can really feel it sometimes, more than anything else.       Broadway's dark tonight A little bit weaker than you used to be Broadway's dark to