Music is my Therapy

Song: Dear Fear Artist: Mat & Savanna Shaw Wow. What a way to spend New Years Eve. I've been alone for the past two days straight, locked away in my room aka my depression, guzzling down junk food and spending waaaaay too much time looking at my screen. Both of my parents are sick and all of my other siblings have lives; friends, relationships, work, mission, family, etc. This is the way I'm ringing in the new year? Alone? Sick from eating so much chocolate? Seems fitting. I guess it's better than last year where I had to fifth wheel my parents and sister and her BF. Everyone kissing all around me as I stood there solitary and alone, my eyes glued to the TV watching other people kiss and celebrate.  I want to start the New Year right but I feel so disgusting, sad and lonely. I don't feel motivated or happy. I feel numb. I feel angry. And sad. And exhausted. If this is all my life will amount to, babysitting other peoples kids and being the leftover child, I don

I had to share my "Apple Music Replay" because it's too funny/fitting for the year I had 😂  You listened to 30,284 minutes of music. Top Artists  1,023 total artists 1. NF (4,723 minutes) 2. Michael Jackson (1,382) 3. Pentatonix (1,267) 4. Josh Groban (1,200) 5. Hanson (1,015) 6. Jack Johnson (990) 7. Taylor Swift (956) 8. The Goo Goo Dolls (931) 9. Ed Sheeran (684) 10. Mat & Savanna Shaw (638) 11. The Jacksons (610) 12. Matt Maher (322) 13. Jackson 5 (317) 14. Matthew Morrison (255) 15. Sidewalk Prophets (245) Top Songs  3,263 total songs 1. HOPE - NF (81 plays) 2. HAPPY - NF (65 plays) 3. Face It - NF  (53 plays) 4. Wake Up - NF (45 plays) 5. MISTAKE - NF (44 plays) 6. WHY - NF (44 plays) 7. PANDEMONIUM - NF (43 plays) 8. Life Goes On - Ed Sheeran (41 plays) 9. I'll Keep On (feat. Jeremiah Carlson) - NF (38 plays) 10. CLOUDS - NF (36 plays) 11. No Excuses - NF (33 plays) 12. Human Nature - MJ, the Musical (33 plays) 13. You Can't Win - MJ, the Musical (33

Song(s): At Christmas & Spending Christmas Together Artist(s): Hanson & Mat & Savanna Shaw MERRY CHRISTMAS 2023 ! ! ! 🎄🎅🤶🎁🍪🌟 I had such a sweet, fun, entertaining, memorable day (with the exception of snow 😫 No "white Christmas" for me this year 😔)! So grateful I got this last "somewhat normal" Christmas with my family before everything changes next year...things have been changing for a while now but still. Next year it's going to be another BIG change. And who knows how many more will occur along the way. Hopefully there will be a change for myself too. We shall see what the new year brings. I'm feeling a little sad ending this special day. Last night was so much fun as my non-married siblings gathered together in my bedroom and talked and laughed and listened to Christmas music by the light of my Christmas tree until midnight, Christmas day! I loved it so much!! 💓 I know how special that was and that it most likely will never ha

Song: A Christmas Eve Song, Merry Christmas (To the One I Used to Know) & Little Toy Trains Artist: Peter Breinholt, Kelly Clarkson & Pentatonix  I'm literally in SHOCK that it's CHRISTMAS EVE ! ! 🤯 It doesn't even feel like we had a December! How can it be CHRISTMAS DAY tomorrow!?!  I've got three songs to share tonight. I hope you enjoy them all, there seems to be a song here to fit every mood and feeling you may be experiencing on this very special night! A Christmas Eve Song Honestly...I don't really know this song. I went by the title, haha. I think I listened to it once and thought it sounded nice for tonight. I don't know. I'm excited to give it another listen and hope it fills me with feelings of anticipation and magic as I go to sleep and hopefully awake to a beautiful white Christmas day!! 🤞🙏 No lyrics available Merry Christmas (To the One I Used to Know) This song is for anyone feeling a little sad this Christmas. I actually cri

Song(s): Far, Far Away on Judea's Plains & Once in Royal David's City Artists: Tabernacle Choir & Orchestra at Temple Square Feeling a little...weird about some news I received today. It's nothing serious or scary. Well, it's kinda serious but not in a "bad way." Not really. I mean, selfishly it is. More sad than bad. Anyway, I've just been thrown a loop but I'm trying not to let it bother me right now and enjoy celebrating one more "normal" Christmas...even tho even that's not feeling super normal right now.  Choosing songs to help me focus on the Savior because I'm starting to get overwhelmed and upset. No matter what happens, this part of Christmas will never change.  Far, far away on Judea’s plains, Shepherds of old heard the joyous strains: Glory to God, Glory to God, Glory to God in the highest; Peace on earth, goodwill to men; Peace on earth, goodwill to men! Sweet are these strains of redeeming love, Message of mercy

Song: Love Is Christmas Artist: Mat & Savanna Shaw My posts will probably be short and sweet, like this song, these next few days as I focus on spending time with family celebrating the holidays. The lyrics of this song are meaningful and relatable to how I feel about my family and Christmas. 💗 Grateful for the fun party we had tonight, enjoying one anotehr's company, eating good food, playing games and decorating cookies. Especially grateful for my sweet mother who worked for days to plan and prepare such a memorable evening. She embodies the Spirit of Christmas through her desire to have her family all together and the selfless service she provides. I am so blessed. 🙏 I don’t care if the house is packed, Or the strings of light are broken. I don’t care if the gifts are wrapped, Or there’s nothing here to open. Love is not a toy, and no paper will conceal it. Love is simply joy that I’m home. I don’t care if the carpet's stained; we've got food upon our table. I do

Song: He Shall Reign Forevermore Artist: Matt Maher Not gonna lie, it's late and I need to get a song up and this is one option I had saved so I'm goin' with it! Nothin' fancy, no story behind why or how I discovered the song or what it means to me. I just thought it was a cool song with a good message, especially for Christmas and it's Matt Maher. All good enough reasons for me!  In the bleak midwinter, all creation grown For a world in darkness, frozen like a stone Light is breaking, in a stable for a throne If I were a wise man, I would travel far If I were a shepherd, I would do my part Poor as I am, I will give to Him my heart And He shall reign forevermore, forevermore And He shall reign forevermore, forevermore Unto us a child is born The king of kings, the lord of lords And He shall reign forevermore, forevermore Here within the manger lies The one who builds the starry skies This baby born for sacrifice Christ, our Messiah To our hopes and to our fears Th

Song: Every Year Artist: Hound + The Fox  I'm not actually feeling down and sad at the moment. But I discovered this song this year and I think it's beautiful. I can relate to the lyrics deeply and the times I have been feeling down and sad this month, I have gone and listened to this song. It's weird how comforting "sad songs" like this can be. The lyrics make you cry but it's cathartic. Reminds me of this quote I recently read from President Russell M. Nelson: "Christmas is a time for families, time of joy, a time of love and cheer. For many of us, it is also a time of tears. Tender recollections come of loved ones who were a vital part of Christmases past. The older I get, the greater are the memories of those who now live on the other side of the veil. I never apologize for those tears. A good cry at Christmastime is a sacred symbol of love. " 💕  *Lyrics in video* MERRY CHRISTMAS ! !

Song(s): A Christmas Kiss & I Hope It Snows Artist(s): Janet Devlin  &   Naomi Ashley These songs are straight randomness and cheese but I kinda love them! 😁😂 The first song, A Christmas Kiss, was from an old video editing app my sister had that she would make hilarious music videos with and she did one to this song years ago. I randomly thought of it the other day and looked it up. I found the song and decided I had to share for nostalgias sake! I would also, ya know, love a Christmas kiss someday in my life...🤞 💋🎄😘 The second song is one I just recently heard and echo the sentiments... I HOPE IT SNOWS FOR CHRISTMAS!! 🙏 ❄ ⛄🎄 We've had an unusually annoying warm December which...I appreciate but also hate at the same time ya know? Like, it's Christmas time! I want cold weather so I can wear my sweaters and come inside cold enough to drink some hot cocoa. We haven't had snow since the first part of the month and it makes me sad. I really want snow for Chris

Song: Christmas Holiday  Artist: Andy Williams Pretty sure I heard this song for the first time just this year! I thought it was so joyful and fun it immediately was added to my Christmas Playlist 😊 This song is dedicated to the fun festivities my family and I will be enjoying tonight as we look at Christmas lights, watch live ice sculpting (!), drink hot cocoa and take in the ambiance of the season! So looking forward to all the fun as we celebrate our Christmas Holiday together!! Hear the bells ringing Their ting-a-ling sound. See the fresh snow, It's white on the ground. Hang up the stockings and Let's have a holiday, today. Bring out the holly, we mustn't delay! 'Cause all of our friends will be stopping today. Warm the hot chocolate And bring out the marshmallow tray. This year, we shall know a wonderful Christmas And the glow of candlelight Let's have a fling! I'll give you my present, a wedding ring! Hear me sing. Turkey's a-cookin' and candy ca

Song: You're A Mean One, Mr. Grinch Artists: Jim Carrey & Lindsey Sterling feat. Sabrina Carpenter I've shared this song on this day twice over the years, but the song itself three times in total ( original animated version in 2016 , Tyler the Creator's version in 2018 and of course PTX's fabulous version in 2019 ). Figured I should include a few more of my favorite covers/versions of one of my favorite Christmas stories/characters/movies! Enjoy! Jim Carrey From the ICONIC 2000's film adaptation! Jim Carrey was amazing in this role and I still love the movie to this day! 💚 With this coat and this hat, I'll look just like Saint Nick Ho, ho, ho You're a mean one, Mr. Grinch You really are a heel You're as cuddly as a cactus And as charming as an eel, Mr. Grinch You're a bad banana with a greasy black peel Just face the music, you're a monster, Mr. Grinch, yes, you are Your heart's an empty hole Your brain is full of spiders You'

Song:  Mary Did You Know? Artist: Tommee Profitt feat. Jordan Smith When I saw this pop up on my youtube feed I knew I HAD to give it a listen because a) it's a beautiful song and b) Tommee Profitt. Who's Tommee Proffit you ask? Well, he's  just the producer and good friend of the one and only NF himself! So, since I can't really post an NF song during Christmas time...he just doesn't have any that fit the vibes, haha, this is the next best thing, right!? 😉😂 I'm such a nerd! I've only listened to part of it as of now but so far, it's GORGEOUS!! Also, side-note but...Tommee sort of looks like NF, lol. He's skinny and lanky, dressed in all black and wearing a hat (he's the guy at the piano)! No wonder their friends and work so well together! 🤣 Another side-note, Jordan Smith's voice is INCREDIBLE!!! 😍 So much feeling and power!!  Mary did you know that your baby boy Would one day walk on water? Mary did you know that your baby boy Wou

Song: Silent Night Medley (LIVE - 2017) Artist: Hanson I'm feeling very uninspired and can't think of what to share...which is odd considering I've been listening to quite a bit of Christmas music lately. I decided to dig up this LIVE video I found on youtube a few years ago of a "grown-up" handsome Hanson 😉 singing their ICONIC Silent Night Medley and it is freaking STUNNING y'all! Live Hanson is life. 😍 They are way too good. And this medley is fantastic! Give the original a listen when you have the chance!  O holy night the stars are brightly shining This is the night of our dear Savior's birth Long lay the world in sin and error pining Till He appeared and his soul felt its worth At thrill of hope, the weary soul rejoices For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn Fall on your knees O hear the angels' voices O night divine O night when Christ was born Silent night, holy night All is calm, all is bright Round yon virgin mother and child Hol

Song: The Twelve Days of Christmas  Artist: Bing Crosby & The Andrew Sisters It just didn't feel right to not post this song today! It has become somewhat of a tradition over the years to share this song on this day, beginning back in 2019 with the Muppets! 😂 Enjoy!! Let the count down to Christmas commence (and try not to panic and stress about how swiftly it's approaching! 😅)!  On the first day of Christmas, my true love sent to me A partridge in a pear tree On the second day of Christmas, my true love sent to me Two turtledoves And a partridge in a pear tree On the third day of Christmas, my true love sent to me Three French hens Two turtledoves And a partridge in a pear tree On the fourth day of Christmas, my true love sent to me Four calling birds Three French hens Two turtledoves And a partridge in a pear tree On the fifth day of Christmas, my true love sent to me Five gold rings (Five golden rings) Four calling birds Three French hens Two turtledoves And a partri

Song: New Axe Artist: Jack Johnson Random song, but it's actually so good! It came up on my shuffle today and I really liked it and decided I should share it as my daily song. The chorus means more to me this year...😔💔 Also, is anyone else panicking and freaking out that Christmas is in less than two weeks!? I don't have any of my shopping done and I feel like I haven't been able to do anything to enjoy the holiday!! I've spent so much time being lazy and selfish and in hiding because I feel so miserable and depressed. It's been hard for me to get into the Christmas spirit this year and it sucks. I feel like every year is getting worse since 2021...the first Christmas I spent without my dog. And then last year I lost two grandparents and was jealous of my sister spending Christmas with a boyfriend while I was alone, again . I just can't seem to feel happy or feel the magic of Christmas anymore and it makes me so sad. I feel like I'm getting too old and m

Song: Who's Gonna Hear Their Wish? Artist: Goo Goo Dolls A *BRAND NEW* Christmas song from the Googs!! 🎉 Let's give this a LIVE first time listen/reaction shall we....? I love doing these 😁 This was the message Johnny shared via "X" when they first put out the song: "The lyrics for "Who's Gonna Hear Their Wish?" are a reminder to myself and everyone not to forget the people who aren’t as lucky as most of us. This time of year is so busy,   full of shopping and partying, I just hope we can all take a little time to reach out and help the people, especially the kids who need it. It’ll make your holiday happier." 🥺💓😭 I LOVE HIM SM!! I can already tell the lyrics are going to be super beautiful and tender... LIVE REACTION: Wasn't expecting this song to be so...upbeat, haha. "My heart is heavy and I'm on my knees, c an't change the world if I can't change me." 😭💓 Wow! That was powerful!! I wasn't sure I was

Song: Sleigh Ride Artist: The Ronettes This song will always be a classic for so many reasons...especially the additional version I included below 😂 #IYKYK Just hear those sleigh bells jingling, ring tingle tingling too (Ring-a-ling-a ding-dong-ding!) Come on, it's lovely weather for a sleigh ride together with you (Ring-a-ling-a ding-dong-ding!) Outside the snow is falling and friends are calling "Yoo hoo!" (Ring-a-ling-a ding-dong-ding!) Come on, it's lovely weather for a sleigh ride together with you (Ring-a-ling-a ding-dong-ding!) (Ring-a-ling-a ding-dong-ding!) (Ring-a-ling-a ding-dong-ding!) (Ring-a-ling-a ding-dong-ding!) Our cheeks are nice and rosy and comfy and cozy are we (Ring-a-ling-a ding-dong-ding!) Were snuggled up together like two birds of a feather would be (Ring-a-ling-a ding-dong-ding!) Let's take the road before us and sing a chorus or two (Ring-a-ling-a ding-dong-ding!) Come on, it's lovely weather for a sleigh ride together with you (