Music is my Therapy

Song: Last Good-Bye Artist: Peter Hollens Today, I gave my "last good-bye" so to speak. Everyone has left. Everyone is beginning a new phase in their life. Everyone that is, except me. But I hope to. I hope to at least try. I hope to embrace new opportunities. I hope to have courage like my brother . I hope to find that the"greatest adventure" truly does lie ahead. That good things will come when I walk by faith. This song is beautiful. Even if it does make me a little sad. Good-byes are never easy or fun. But, as I have found, quite inevitable. I've had to say a lot of "good-byes" and "see you laters" lately. I feel drained. And lonely. But I'll try to keep my head up. I love all of Peter Hollens "Middle-Earth" aka Lord of the Rings and Hobbit covers. I've been listening to them a lot lately. Something about these songs just seem to be so fitting and appropriate for my life right now. I also just marathoned the Lor

Song: The Greatest Adventure Artist: Glenn Yarbrough From, The Hobbit My brother is gone. He has embarked on a two-year long church service mission . I'm not going to see my cute brother's face or talk and laugh with him for two whole years. For two whole years he's not going to be here teasing me, annoying me, making me laugh, talking with me, driving with me, nothing. He will be out serving God's children. I'm so proud of him for choosing to do this but at the same time my heart breaks to let him go. I've been crying every day since Sunday. Today, hard as it was, wasn't as bad as I had been dreading. The Lord comforted me in my time of sadness. His spirit testified to my hear that my brother was doing what was right and was where he needs to be at this time. I hope to follow his example and take courage, as he has, and move forward in faith. And trust. This song is from an old 1977 cartoon adaptation of The Hobbit . And if you ask me, this version is

Song: Change Artist: Jack Johnson This song is 100. This song describes my emotions and feelings and attitude about life flawlessly. I can't help but feel overwhelmed and sad and upset about all of the crazy HUGE changes me and my family are going through. And the worst part is .... I know it's not going to slow down or stop. Things are going to keep changing. And it seems like it's happening faster and faster. The only thing not changing is ME. And I'm embarrassed and ashamed. Because I need to change. Even though I hate it with a passion. But I hate where I am and who I am even more. "Just when you were getting used to this place .... you were getting used to the changes, well the change won't leave you alone ." - This line has been going through my mind a lot lately. Just when you were getting used to this place You were getting used to these bones You were getting used to the changes Well the change won't leave you alone You fin

Song: Gone Too Soon Artist: Michael Jackson I feel devastated!! I had to say good bye to some people that I didn't think I would have to for a while. Some people I have come to love and absolutely adore! People I was planning on spending a lot of my time with. I found out TODAY that I would never see them again! It has really broken my heart. It came out of nowhere. It happened so fast. They've "gone too soon." My heart is breaking. I already miss them more than I can begin to express. They changed my life forever!! Like A Comet Blazing 'Cross The Evening Sky Gone Too Soon Like A Rainbow Fading In The Twinkling Of An Eye Gone Too Soon Shiny And Sparkly And Splendidly Bright Here One Day Gone One Night Like The Loss Of Sunlight On A Cloudy Afternoon Gone Too Soon Like A Castle Built Upon A Sandy Beach Gone Too Soon Like A Perfect Flower That Is Just Beyond Your Reach Gone Too Soon Born To Amuse, To Inspire, To Delight

Song: Monster Artist: Imagine Dragons I. HATE. MY. LIFE.  I. HATE. MYSELF. THIS PROBLEM LIES IN ME. Ever since I could remember, Everything inside of me, Just wanted to fit in (oh, oh, oh, oh) I was never one for pretenders, Everything I tried to be, Just wouldn't settle in (oh, oh, oh, oh) If I told you what I was, Would you turn your back on me? And if I seem dangerous, Would you be scared? I get the feeling just because Everything I touch isn't dark enough That this problem lies in me I'm only a man with a candle to guide me, I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me. A monster, a monster, I've turned into a monster, A monster, a monster, And it keeps getting stronger. Can I clear my conscience If I'm different from the rest? Do I have to run and hide? (oh, oh, oh, oh) I never said that I want this, This burden came to me, And it's made its home inside (oh, oh, oh, oh) If I told you what I was, Wo