Music is my Therapy

Song: Use Me Up Artist: Hanson   This song, my interpretation of it, is about someone who just needs to feel. Something. Anything. They just want to be loved, even if they know they will get hurt in the end. I really like this song and it's been going through my mind all day. I feel like I can really relate. I don't have any kind of relationships outside my family at all. No friendships and definitely no romantic relationships. I want to though. I desire those kinds of relationships. So this song has definitely been appropriate for my life as of right now.       Somebody let me down Somebody show me love I wouldn't care much either way I'd rather the sticks and stones Than dragging the ball and chain Of "what if the world won't take me." Even if the hole should crack Even if the blood flows red Nothing could be worse than numb So please, use me up I just want anyone To use me up 'Cause no one ever does Use me up I've

Song: Weird Artist: Hanson This song is like, the theme song of my life right now! I have social anxiety . Social anxiety is AWFUL and only those who have it can truly understand. Basically, fear controls my life! I hate it! I have battled SA as long as I can remember. It makes the simplest of tasks, like just going to the grocery store, hard. This song describes the way I feel in social situations perfectly. Isn't it weird. Isn't it strange. Even though we're just two strangers on this runaway train We're both trying to find a place in the sun We've lived in the shadows , but doesn't everyone Isn't it strange how we all feel a little bit weird sometimes Isn't it hard. Standing in the rain. You're on the verge of going crazy and your heart's in pain No one can hear though you're screaming so loud You feel all alone in a faceless crowd Isn't it strange how we all get a little bit weird sometimes. Sitting on the side waiti

Song: Fire on the Mountain Artist: Hanson This song has been on my mind for quite some time. The lyrics really make you think. It's very symbolic. I really like it and have so much respect for Hanson. These guys are REAL musicians. I'm so sick of radio crap. Hanson any day every day! We sit secure in time-honored traditions made Never wondering where or when the sickle may come If we don't seek our knowledge to be greater men When the rain starts falling gonna drown before we get our feet wet We build our ivory towers to protect us from the flood A fleet of vessels made of wood so they won't rust But can we see the bottom of the bottle when we start to drink? There's fire on the mountain fire and it's coming our way Can we pick the pieces up We're mending Babylon Tryin' to right the wrong Can we pick the pieces up Live learn life love die dust gone There's fire on the mountain Can we pick the pieces up We're mending Baby

I exercised today! I walked/jogged (mostly walked) on the treadmill for about 45 minutes! I was pretty exhausted by the time I was finished but I'm just proud that I actually DID something. My eating choices have been pretty decent too. For my pre-work out breakfast I had two poached eggs (they didn't turn out perfectly but much better than the last time I tried making them) with tomatoes and green peppers, a little bit of salt and pepper and hot sauce :) Then for my post-work out snack I had a strawberry-banana smoothie. 1 cup ice, 1 cup strawberries, one small banana, 1 cup almond milk and one container of Yoplait strawberry yogurt. It was pretty tasty! I ran my hardest and fastest to the amazing song "Fired Up" by the amazing Hanson Brothers! I love these boys a little too much. But their music is what keeps me going. When I'm so tired I want to just quit, their music is what gives me the strength to finish strong. I ran through the WHOLE song and I was ju

Came across this amazing video. Very inspiring and so very, very true. I can't seem to stop thinking about this topic. It's such a huge issue. I wish it would all STOP! Here's an article that goes along with this video. Incredible. I LOVE President Uchtdorf! Amazing, inspired man. Truly a man of God.

To go with my "Be Kind" post. Song: You Are Loved Artist: Josh Groban Don't give up It's just the weight of the world When your heart's heavy I...I will lift it for you Don't give up Because you want to be heard If silence keeps you I...I will break it for you Everybody wants to be understood Well I can hear you Everybody wants to be loved Don't give up Because you are loved Don't give up It's just the hurt that you hide When you're lost inside I...I will be there to find you Don't give up Because you want to burn bright If darkness blinds you I...I will shine to guide you Everybody wants to be understood Well I can hear you Everybody wants to be loved Don't give up Because you are loved You are loved Don't give up It's just the weight of the world Don't give up Every one needs to be heard You are loved

I heard a testimony at church today that really touched my heart. This young girl who is only 12 years old got up to bear her testimony. She began talking about how she is having a very hard time in school right now. She is teased and made fun of "for the most randomest of things." It's been really hard on her and you could tell. She talked about how grateful she is for her best friend (another darling girl in my ward) for always being there for her and just being her friend . She also talked about how much she loved and appreciated her family. As she spoke, she was crying. It was hard to hold back the tears listening to her and seeing her break down. I could feel her pain. It's hard for me not to tear up typing this right now. It's not right. Why do people feel it's ok to make fun of others? To put others down. To make someone feel bad about things they can not change. This girl is very tall for her age with glasses and braces. The perfect victim. She also

This song could basically describe my life right now. I am a timid and shy little mouse who spends the majority of my life locked away safe inside my bedroom. It makes for quite a lonely and boring life. I so long for adventure and fun and relationships! I'm working on getting there. Slowly but surely. Love this fun little song! Gives me a boost of energy and optimism. Song: Nothing Ever Happens Artist: Rachel Platten She dreams of where she's never been  * (Me like every day of my life!) A story starts where it should end She keeps a bible close And folds the pages down she needs the most Her faded walls are closing in So in her head she leaves again  *(I basically live in my head) They've painted ceilings blue and green And brilliant colors she's never seen But nothing ever happens if you stay in your room Nothing ever happens if you leave the party too soon Never be a winner if you're not in the game And nothing ever happens if you always pla