Music is my Therapy

Song: I'll Keep On Artist: NF feat. Jeremiah Carlson It's ONLY appropriate that I end March with more NF! He has defined my entire month and set me on my own " Search " for " HOPE ." Also, I just found out that  TODAY, March 30th is none other than the man, the myth, the legend himself, NATHAN FEUERSTEIN'S birthday! 🥳🎉 How fitting!  OK, onto the song... I had a very restless night that turned into a very anxious and paranoid morning. I've been a bag of emotions all day; anger, fear, stress, disappointment, anxious, annoyed, you name it! I felt so disappointed with myself after throwing my "anxiety-induced" temper-tantrum this morning. It's exhausting to live like this day after day. To live with so much...negativity. I try to think more positively and focus on the good but I don't feel strong enough. I give into the fear and anger and the frustration so easily. I don't feel like I'm in control of my own thoughts and f

Song: MOTTO Artist: NF NF dropped another single not long ago and this is my first time hearing it/watching the video! Note: This is NOT related to the " NF JOURNEY " it's just new music! Hahahaha!! 😆 OK...I see what he's doing here. NF is SAVAGE! He really doesn't care about "celebrity" culture or Hollywood at all and is letting it be known ( "Hollywood, Hollywood, hope Nate doesn't go Hollywood."   I don't think we need to worry about that ever again after this!). I think the song is good on it's own, definitely unique and different from anything I've heard from him before, but it's SO MUCH BETTER with the video! Nate is so over the top here and I LOVE it! Looks like he's having a ball! We love to see happy Nate! 😍 And watching this BTS video makes me even happier! He seems so at ease and confident with himself. It's inspiring. Also, this is the most "pop" sounding song I've ever heard from

Song: HOPE Artist: NF I'VE MADE IT!!! HOPE !! THE FINAL STOP (SO FAR) ON THE NF JOURNEY!!! I CANNOT WAIT!! 😭🙌 As you may know, if you've been following my journey going on this "NF Journey" then you will know I've actually already heard this song before, but I HAVE NOT seen the video yet. I'm so glad I waited because I just KNOW there's going to be so many connections and callbacks to past videos and songs and moments from along this journey that will be shown. So happy I took my brothers advice and waited to watch until I really "got to know him." The song hit an emotional nerve for me when I first listened to it so I can only imagine what the video will do to me! 😭😭 I have not allowed myself to go back and listen to this song since the beginning of March when I first started down this rabbit hole (which is almost exactly one month ago to the day! ). I do feel like I cheated a little bit by hearing this song before going back and list

This talk hit me as hard as an NF song! 👊😂 Yeah, I'm a STAN , judge me! A STAN of NF, Michelle D. Craig , Russell M. Nelson , and  (most importantly) Jesus!  This talk hit me like a ton of bricks and seems to be yet another slap in my face to WAKE UP and CHANGE . Take action ( "these words are only words until they actions" ). Seek help. Seek God and put him first ( " If you got questions or you need advice, then talk to God  'cause He's the only one that listens even when you think He isn't " ).  Michelle D. Craig literally has BARZZZZ ! 🔥💓 I probably only noticed because I've been listening to NF all month long but...he could write a song based on this woman's sermon!  EXCERPTS: When your faith, your family, or your future are challenged— when you wonder why life is so hard when you are doing your best to live the gospel—remember that the Lord told us to expect troubles. Troubles are part of the plan and do not mean you’ve been aban

Song: LOST Artist: NF feat. Hopsin I have NO idea what to expect from this video or song...after CLOUDS , I'm prepared for anything! I have full confidence in NF's ability to bring it no matter what, he can do any style he wants. He's proven that he can be trusted time and time again. He always hits the nail on the head!! Going off the title, I think this song might fall under his more hard-hitting and "sad" songs but we'll see...you never know with NF! Also, this is the title that we saw Nate writing at the end of  PAID MY DUES ! I love the connections! I'm going to do something a little different with this song today. I usually always listen to the song while following along with the lyrics and then watch the video but I'm going to jump straight to the video first and then go look at the lyrics...we'll see how it goes! 5 SECONDS IN AND ...I already gotta point some things out! The opening made me jump a little, haha. THAT WAS COOL! I see we

Song: Clouds ⛅ Artist: NF The final album before HOPE !  I only remember listening to one song off this mixtape when it was first released...and it was a WILD one!! 😳🤯 It's technically not part of the "Journey" so we'll see if I get around to sharing it. I haven't heard the title track until now so let's GOOOOOOO!! 😲💣💥😱🤯😂✊👊🔥🔥 WHAT IN THE WORLD!? HE'S DONE IT AGAIN! 👊🔥 ANOTHER ABSOLUTE BANGER!! NF IS UNHINGED!! AND I LOVE IT!! 😂 THAT WAS SO INSANE IN THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE! Let's just highlight reel this song/video because there's so much I want to say!! HIGHLIGHTS I love that the first verse is basically an "introduction" to his new project, like I haven't forgotten about y'all! Clouds was released in 2021, so a year into the pandemic and as he says: "Hanging on to songs this long is daunting." So he was probably working on new music, COVID happened, now he's like "I've had these songs si

Song: Paid My Dues Artist: NF Wow...what a week it's been. After a mentally draining and awful day yesterday, I had an equally draining and difficult night (not only for emotional reasons but because my cold decided to get 10x's worse). Now I think I may have a mild case of pink eye...😒 I'm congested to the point that I can only breathe through my mouth and the taste of food is muted, I can't seem to stop coughing, my voice sounds nasty and now my eye is red and gunky. Yay. On the bright side, I can spend a lot of the day listening to more NF! 🎉  On to one of the FINAL songs on the journey...so far. He does have a * BRAND NEW * album dropping in EXACTLY TWO WEEKS from today! The "journey" will continue...hopefully for years to come! THIS SONG IS 🔥🔥 And also a much needed change of pace from yesterdays ...I think this is the fastest I've heard him rap yet! I can't keep up, he's going a mile a minute! 😵 There's a really interesting st