Music is my Therapy

Song: HAPPY Artist: NF This song hit me so  personally the first time I heard it and I have been obsessively listening to it ever since. I couldn't help but relate to the chorus after having just experienced such similar thoughts not a week before. "I don't think I'm capable of being truly happy." I remember thinking those words to myself as I sat in a beautiful place, surrounded by people I love. It broke my heart. 💔 The thumbnail of this video, with that little girls sad face, hurts to see because I see so much of myself in her. I haven't been able to listen to this song all the way through without getting choked up and emotional.  I finally opened up to my parents about the depression and sadness I've been feeling. Like the girl does at the end of the video, when she shows up at her mom's house, it's a first step. I wish I could have shared this song with them but I don't know how they would take it. It would probably make them feel sad. I...

Song: What A Wonderful World Artist: Louie Armstrong HAPPY EARTH DAY ! ! 🌎🌹🌻⛅🌈 I don't know why I wanted to post a song in honor of today's silly little holiday, but it's been a tradition the past two years ( If Ever - 2021   & Earth Song - 2022 ) and I decided to keep it going 😜 The weather has been whack around these parts all week but it's definitely starting to feel more and more like spring and that's exciting! I hope with the warmer weather, I'll start feeling better emotionally and mentally. Maybe. There's a lot of stressful things I need to get figured out, including just trying to get out of this horrible depression I've been feeling stuck in.  I'm going to try to get myself to go outside today and enjoy some fresh air, rain or sunshine, I've been cooped up indoors for too long. I always have loved being outdoors and I live in a beautiful area. This was the first song that came to mind when I thought "What's a good ...

TODAY IS THE DAY I'VE BEEN LIVING FOR!!!  🎉💙👊 SOOOOO EXCITED to FINALLY be listening to and reacting to NF'S NEW ALBUM HOPE!!!   This came out last Friday, two days after I snagged tickets to see him LIVE on tour this summer!! Since I was out of town on vacation with my family, I decided to wait and listen to the album, top to bottom, start to finish when I had uninterrupted time to myself so I could dissect every lyric, sound, vibe and feeling and most likely shed a few tears. AND THAT DAY HAS FINALLY COME!! STARTING NOW!!  LET'S GOOOOOOOO!!!   👊🙌🙏✊🔥 I'm weirdly nervous...IDK why! 😅  HOPE - SEE MY REACTION HERE! This song still goes so hard and gets me in the feels  every single time !  Especially the ending! 🔥😭👊 I'm still battling FEAR and his voice is loudest in my head ( "You'll never evolve... We are not enough... You don't have the heart, you don't have the strength, y ou don't have the will, you don't have the faith...

Song(s): He Is Risen &  This Is the Christ Artist(s): Nashville Tribute Band & Calee Reed Easter Sunday, He Is Risen Read and Ponder: Matthew 28 , Mark 16 , Luke 24 , John 20 , 1 Corinthians 15:20–22 , 3 Nephi 11 First Presidency Easter Message What feelings do you experience when you think about Jesus Christ’s Resurrection? - Gratitude. Peace. Joy! After having lost so many dear ones within the past two years, and knowing this will continue throughout my life, it makes me ponder upon the miracle and JOY of the Resurrection more deeply! I am so grateful that Christ "took upon Him death, that He might loose the bands of death." That I will see and live with my loved ones again someday. "O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory?" ( 1 Corinthians 15:55 ).  "Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God; and that believing ye might have life through his name." ( John 20: 31 ). Because of Jesus Christ, I have new life. Because of Jesus Ch...

Song: Because He Lives (Amen) Artist: Matt Maher The Tomb Read and Ponder: John 14:15–16, 26–27 , Matthew 27:55–61 , D&C 138 When has Jesus helped you find comfort during difficult times? - When I lost my sweet dog. When I lost both my grandparents. When I was afraid of doing something I knew I couldn't handle and He provided another way for me to get through it. When my siblings left on missions. He comforts me all of the time, whether I recognize it or not. It can be in the form of a great song, the sun shining, getting a good nights rest, having a good conversation or just feeling content. He truly gives me strength when I feel I have nothing left. I am trying to acknowledge that more fully and thank Him for it more regularly.   Additional songs for this sacred Easter Weekend. Wide Awake This song doesn't necessarily correlate with a specific verse of scripture but I think it is so beautiful. It's from the perspective of Peter after Christ's death. I'm sur...

Song: Lord, I Need You Artist: Matt Maher Good Friday, The Crucifixion Read and Ponder: Matthew 27:1-61 Jesus Christ is the ultimate example of forgiveness. How can you be more forgiving of yourself and the other people in your life? - Wow. This is a loaded question. The best way to find the courage and strength to forgive someone who has wronged me is to remember the teachings of the Savior when He commanded us to forgive our enemies. "Wherefore, I say unto you, that ye ought to forgive one another; for he that forgiveth not his brother his trespasses standeth condemned before the Lord; for there remaineth in him the greater sin... I, the Lord, will forgive whom I will forgive, but of you it is required to forgive all men."  ( D&C 64:9-10 ). It's a hard thing to do, but knowing I want to follow Him makes it a little easier, knowing that all the injustice and unfairness of this life will be swallowed up in His mercy and be made right. Forgiving myself ...for some r...

Song: Son of Suffering Artist: Bethel Music & David Funk feat. Matt Redman His Sacrifice Begins Read and Ponder: Matthew 26 , Luke 22:14–20, 39-54 Jesus instituted the sacrament so we would always remember Him and His sacrifice. How can you honor and remember Him daily? - By keeping Him in my thoughts and allowing His influence and exemplary life guide and direct my thoughts and actions. To live in such a way that would please him. To begin each day and end each night with prayer. To focus on gratitude and acknowledging His tender love, guidance and goodness in my life each and every day. To worthily partake of the sacrament each week, with a repentant and humble heart. To make the sacrament a priority in my life. My song choice for today, this Holy Thursday that commemorates the suffering of the Savior in the garden of Gethsemane, is a true worship song in praise of Christ and His atoning sacrifice on my behalf. I will never fully comprehend what He alone had to endure in that s...

I JUST GOT TICKETS FOR NF: HOPE TOUR!!!   🔥😭🙌🎉🤍 Yeah, he's clearly affected me 😭👊💪🙌🤍 His tickets were EXTRELMLEY reasonably priced so I was able to get tickets on the FLOOR!! 👊  THIS IS GOING TO BE SO EPIC!!! I'M SO EXCITED!! 😭😝🙌🎉 I'm trying not to feel too guilty that my brother, the original NF fan and reason I even know who this man is, will not be able to go...😰😭 I don't even want to tell him because I don't want him to feel bad.  I'm also a little nervous about going to a RAP concert, hahahaha. I know I won't be able to "sing a long"... at best I'll be able to shout out a couple words and phrases here and there. The vibe is going to be super different from anything I've been to before but I'm STOKED! His music is powerful and it will be cool to see other big NF stans who feel as passionately about his music as I do! 🤍 Can't wait to meet some of my OUTCAST FAM this summer!!  Ever since I first listened to...

Song: Run to the Father Artist: Matt Maher  The Greatest Commandments & Continued Teaching Read & Ponder: John 15:9–12 , Matthew 24 - 25   How does your love of God help you to love and serve other people? - By remembering this scripture: "When ye are in the service of your fellow beings ye are only in the service of your God." ( Mosiah 2:17 ). By remembering that Christ commands us to love and serve others, since when we do, we are really serving Him ( Matthew 25:31-46 ). Because I want to treat people the way I would want to be treated by others. And by the way I want people to treat (and help) my family and loved ones when they are in need. Serving others brings me closer to God and my Savior, which is somewhere I want to be. This song has been on repeat in my mind for days! I love it so much. The message is where I'm currently at. I need the constant, loving, guiding influence of my Savior and Father every second of every day. Especially now. I feel so sad...