Spending Christmas Together

Song: Spending Christmas Together

Artist: Mat & Savanna Shaw

Had a great night celebrating the Christmas season with my family! The night was fun; we ate good food, listened to festive music, played fun games and decorated gingerbread houses. But now, here alone at the end of the night...I feel sad. I miss how Christmas used to be. When siblings teamed up for gingerbread house competitions...not spouses, partners and me and my dad. I miss getting ready for bed with my sisters, chatting and giggling into the early hours of the morning. I miss hearing my brothers sneak out of their rooms to play video games late into the night. I miss how things used to be. Everything is different now. It's hard to see it change. I can't see change as a good thing and I know I need to, I should. I'm grateful I still can celebrate Christmas with most of my family still but...it's just not the same. I miss the Christmases of my past, spent with ALL of my family. Together. Just us. It will never be that way again. 

I shouldn't be sad after the FUN day I had! But I can't help the way I feel. I wish I could, I want to be happy and peaceful as I drift off to sleep but I'm stuck here in my sadness and bitterness. I'm so selfish. I'm sorry. The song is sweet...even if it makes me mourn for my past. I miss my sister and her kids, my brothers who won't be home for Christmas, my grandpa and grandma and most of all, my sweet puppy. 💔

"Everything is different. But nothing has changed...do you really remember how it used to be? Sitting under the Christmas tree..."

"The songs I play are still the same, but look how much has changed. The smells, the cold, the mistletoe, every year they all remain. But you don't, you don't."

"Somewhere in my memory, Christmas joys all around me. Living in my memory, all of the music, all of the magic, all of the family home here with me."

"I'm praying for one wish to come true...for one more Christmas with you."

MERRY SPENDING CHRISTMAS TOGETHER WITH MY FAMILY! 

FOR ONE OF THE LAST "NORMAL" TIMES 😢

EVEN THOUGH IT'S STILL NOT THAT NORMAL