NF JOURNEY: OUTRO & INTRO III

Song(s): Outro & Intro III

Artist: NF

Therapy Session was ALLLLL the feelzzz 🔥😭💔👊✊🙌🖤 That album was very appropriately named...I felt like I was sitting in on Nate's therapy session while experiencing my own at the same time. 

Let's move on to 2017's Perception. 

Outro

I was very confused to see that the LAST song on the Perception album is the FIRST song you're suppose to listen to/watch on "the journey." I guess Outro had been released as a single before the album came out. Now that I've watched it, it COMPLETLY makes sense! This video is super cool as it calls back to all of the previous videos and songs we've heard and seen up to this point -hence the recommendation to watch/listen to everything in order - I'm getting excited to see what's to come...!!

I'm dedicated, the definition of dedication

Wrote this whole record while I was levitating

Sittin' in my room with the pen and paper, I'm innovative

They've been afraid of me since I was a second grader

I'm the kid on the playground momma told you to never play with

There's levels of music - and I'm in the elevator

Going up to the top floor, look how we elevated

But you don't know the brand by now, you better get educated

Take both of my arms, rip 'em out of sockets and seperate 'em

Forgive me, yeah, I know I get animated

Don't matter, I still write a better record than yours without a hesitation  😂 Cocky Nate!

Never been more motivated

Just look at all the minds I've opened and penetrated

See, I am the voice of all these kids that think things but never say 'em

That's why they come to my shows wearing the NF hoodies and hats low like we're carrying weapons

Put the controllers away, it's game over

I promise I'm way colder

The fans keep saying that they're hungry for new music, well that's pretty convenient because I just made a plate for 'em

And now I'm hearing none of y'all are saying

I just sit at the keys feeling the music

Got me thinking I'm Beethoven

The game needs a makeover

If you've been waiting, the wait's over

You ain't notice, y'all about to witness a takeover, I'm home!

Yeah, they waiting on me to match that

The emotion I had in the last one

But if I don't, they gonna tell me that I'm losing my passion

If I do am I repeating my actions?

Yeah, look, "How Could You Leave Us" is massive  ❗❗

There ain't nothing I can write that'll match that

My biggest fear writing this record wasn't putting out trash

It was disappointing myself and the fanbase

Now I want you to picture me

I'm in a hotel rapping, crying on the floor of the bathroom

Staring in the mirror, my room, hand shaking playing "How Could You Leave Us" through the speakers on my iPhone  💔😭

Trying to figure out if I'ma always feel the way that I feel

Or maybe someday I can learn to be happy

Or maybe I can't be, 'cause if the music ain't emotional enough are they gonna call me a has-been?

Pain's always been the root of my music

If I cut it off, how am I supposed to keep growing

If I let it go, won't my whole career be in ruins?

That's when I realized this whole conversation is stupid

I never cared to impress people that don't even know me

I just write what I feel, somehow it started a movement

Trying to enjoy a career but I don't know how to do it

When I spend all of time my being afraid I'ma lose it

But then I figured out the reason they follow me

The reason the why these fans surrounding me

It's not 'cause I'm a "Rap God"  😲 Eminem song reference to call out the comparisons! Whoo!

I don't need you people to bow to me

All they ever did was doubted me, now everyone's proud of me

Acknowledge me or not, you ain't ignoring the following

I'm just teaching 'em something they couldn't learn in they colleges

This is for the kids feeling like they live at the bottom and every day of they lives looks like it's darker than Halloween

Yeah, you ain't alone out there, look around you—we got a lot of fans in here  🔥👊 YES!

Couple hundred thousand, that's what we did last year

Listen to Intro 3, trying to kill my fear

They'll get that in a minute  🤯 THIS IS WHY YOU LISTEN TO THE OUTRO FIRST!! I'M SO EXCITED!

We about to shatter the critics

I am a savage admit it

A lot of baggage I live in

That's why the passion is different

Really don't care if they get it

We're only three records in it, and this is just the beginning

I'm home!  🔥💪💥

Real music...

Intro III

SOMEHOW THAT "OUTRO" LED PERFECTLY INTO THIS "INTRO!!" I KNOW, IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE BUT IT DOES! I NEED TO BE SURE TO ADD IT THAT WAY ON MY PLAYLIST!! THAT WAS ELECTRIC! ONTO THE INTRO, LET'S GO, LET'S GO!!

HO-LY. 🤯😲 This was the most INTENSE, CREEPY, CREATIVE THING I HAVE EVER HEARD!! WHAT THE ACTUAL HECK!? THIS IS GENIUS ON SO MANY LEVELS!! I'M SORRY BUT I CAN'T STOP SCREAMING!! THIS WAS INSAAAAAANNNNEE!!!! 😱🔥

I can't believe there isn't a music video for this!! That would have been SOOO incredibly creepy but amazing at the same time! Remember these spit-fire freaking CRAZY RELATABLE lines from Mansion: "Fear came to my house years ago I let 'em in, maybe that's the problem 'cause I've been dealing with this ever since. I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did. He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in. Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can. 'Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors. Is that me or the fear talking? I don't know anymore." 

Well, guess who just showed up in Intro III? Yeah. IT'S FEAR. A battle of wills between freaking Nate and Fear!! And it's EPIC! I am FREEZING from the amount of chills and goosebumps I get when listening to this back-and-forth exchange. UGH! THIS IS SO GOOD I'M HOLLERING!!! His acting is PHENOMONAL! The subtle but profound difference in his voice and tone when he's portraying "Fear" compared to "real Nate" is awesome! And that final section is just...so... GAAAAHHH!! 🔥 I am deceased! 💀 I can't get over how freaking good this is! THERE ARE NO WORDS! I'm truly speechless!! 

[Fear:]

What, are you scared of me? That's embarrassing

If it wasn't for me, you would've never wrote Therapy

I've been here for you, but how come you're never there for me?

It's a little bit twisted, but I miss when you and I had scary dreams

(Nate: I don't really wanna talk about it)

Well, that's too bad now, Nate, shut up

Now where were we?

Way back in the day when

You and I had it all mapped out in the basement

Cryin' in your room like a baby

("I wish mom was here")

We all do so we wouldn't have to hear about it  ❗❗🤯💔 NOT COOL! 😭

Every single record you don't really wanna change me

Yeah, I'm the one that made this happen

Do you really wanna get rid of your main attraction?

Let's pack our bags and go back to Gladwin now

Yeah, it's time for the third record

And you know I got the content

I don't wanna make you nervous

But it ain't like it used to be

We got a lotta people watchin'

You told me that you don't want me in your life, that's pretty hard to digest

And I told you I'd leave when we die

And we ain't died yet

Therapy Session was beautiful, Nate, but I'm wonderin' what's comin' next

Yeah, get that stupid hat off of your head when I'm talkin' to you, you hear what I said?

You don't like the prison I built you?

Yeah, you wanna know what the funny thing is?

You keep on talkin' to me like a stranger, but we've been together since you were a kid  😱😭

Took us from a no-name

Told you everything was okay

Now you tryna cut me out of it like I ain't never been a part of it

I am the heart of it, I made this whole thing

Yeah, I put us on the dope stage

You must have no brain

What's the point of having guns if you can't aim?

What's the point of having blood with no veins?

What's the point of having love with no pain?

What I'm sayin' is, me without you doesn't make any sense

I know I'm intense and controlling, but you need to learn how to cope with it

That's just the way that it is

If you didn't want me to live in your house, you shouldn't have let me move in

It's comfortable in here and I like it, I got my own room and everything

It don't get better than this

You say you wanna own your life, then wake up and take your own advice  ❗❗

You just mad 'cause you know I'm right

Yeah, I'm flattered you put me in Mansion, but you should've told 'em right

Hold your hands on the coldest nights

You didn't tell 'em 'bout the times you and I used to hold the mic

I mean, what are you, outta your mind?

'Cause both of us will be, come on, let's go outside

Is this what you wanted?

Both of us out in the open? Let's do it then

I mean, why are you doin' this?

I know that you're mad, but I'm not in the mood for this

We got a record to drop

So why you actin' like I'm not a part of it?

(Nate: And where is my shovel at?)

Prolly out back where it always is

You can't get rid of all of me

I'm the reason why

(Nate: Nah, shut up, I don't wanna hear another sentence)

Hey, I'm NF

"Is it me or the fear talkin'?"

Ha, What a dumb question

Yeah, it's real music 'til the day we die, right? (Nate: Yeah) Ain't that the slogan, Nathan?

(Nate: Thought I told you to keep your mouth shut)

I mean, so what? You know I never listen

Let me guess

We gon' dig a hole, kill the track, and prolly put a beat in it  ❗❗🤯 INTRO I CALLBACK

Rap about it for like three minutes

Ayy, that's pretty deep, isn't it?

Wait a minute, you don't really think for a second that you're puttin' me in this?

(Nate: No, of course not, just a lil' deeper then we'll go inside and we can stop diggin')

Woo

You had me scared for a second, I thought we were diggin' my grave

[Nathan:]

We did, what, you don't like bein' afraid?

Here's a dose of your own medicine

What, you don't like how it tastes?

My therapist told me don't bury my issues, but I'ma be honest, man, I'm feelin' great

I think it's only right we go back to where you were created

I wrote a song for Johnny without you, but he ain't gon' like it, let's see how he takes it

He prolly don't even remember us, does he?

I wish I was burying anger, but both of us know I'ma need him for that song

He still lives in the basement

Almost done, shoulda done this a year ago

I don't know why I waited

You know how I get it, I put everything off in my personal life, you hear what I'm sayin'?

That was a joke

Yeah, it's hilarious, ain't it?

You'll spend the rest of your life in my backyard or back of my mind, depends how you see it

Put the shovel away, time to go back in the house now, you'll be out in a week

Tellin' me you want your room back, that's funny, what, you ain't got nowhere to sleep?

I'ma just look out the window and laugh at you, this is crazy to me

'Cause I thought you had me in prison this whole time, but I'm the one holdin' the keys  🔥🔥

THIS ENTIRE LAST SECTION HITS SO FREAKING HARD FOR ME!! 🔥😭🙌 YOU GO NATHAN!! 👊 I'm so inspired by this song for some reason. I can't find the words to explain how passionately I feel about it. I'm going to need time. I'll just end with this: Fear is Satan. Fear doesn't care about you at all. It wants you to be miserable. It wants you to stay stuck and ashamed forever. It wants to control you. And that is what Satan wants. I am truly so impressed by this work of art and the perspective taken in this "song." Wow. Like I said, I have so many thoughts but no words. I relate so much to this entire thing... I'm feeling so inspired by Nathan to go bury my fear. He's so inspiring to me. For real.

Wait, I have more. This battle between "Fear" and "Nate" made me think of a wonderful book called The Book Thief. The entire story is narrated by "Death." I always thought that was such an interesting and unique perspective. And now I hear THIS!! 💥 Some people are on another level and Nate is FROM ANOTHER PLANET I TELL YOU!! I'M SHAKING!! I'll be listening to this over and over again but inserting myself in Nate's place.