Music is my Therapy

Song(s): Face It & HOPE Artist: NF Since I've really officially "aged out" of February forever....here's my make believe "30 on the "30th" theme song(s). Whoooo! These songs are freaking BARZ and are exactly , one hundred, million percent ME! 👊🔥😭🙌 Where I currently am ( Face It ) and where I HOPE to be ( HOPE ).  Face It This. This song right here is exactly what I'm going through. It's what I'm always going through. I don't know how to get through life and live each day. I don't know how to be normal and happy and successful and OK.  "Yes I know that I'm the only person that can change me.  Maybe, that's why I ain't changing, t hat's why I ain't changing.  I got too much on my mind I guess I don't know how to face it."  🔥   Yeah, I ain't sleeping lately I ain't sleeping lately Yes I know that I'm the only person that can change me Maybe, that's why I ain't changing T...

Song:   If You Want Love Artist:   NF It's the final day of  Love Month.  I'm getting bored with it. It's just making me more depressed and I'm over it. Sorry to be such a downer...but it's just been one of those days...such a stressful morning followed from a stressful day...followed from a stressful life.  This song is the "theme song" of my current, non-existent "love life." It's the hard cold facts of my lonely, loveless reality. I need the slap in the face. I need the shove to help me change. I've been listening to a lot of NF the past couple of days. I don't know why I've been sleeping on him for so long and I haven't given his music more love and acknowledgment on my blog, this man speaks the TRUTH. His lyrics resonate to my soul. I appreciate any music that speaks on mental health. Month of NF coming in March. I have a lot of demons I need to try to let go of. His music hits on a different level. It's good to know...

Song: Can't Sleep Love Artist: Pentatonix I was a little flabbergasted when I realized that I've never shared this ICONIC original song from the ICONIC , first- EVER acapella group to receive a Hollywood Walk of Fame star just a week ago,  PENTATONIX! 🤩⭐👏 CONGRATS PTX!! Y'all totally deserve it! (Now if only HANSON received the RESPECT they DESERVE and get one too I will be completely satisfied. But until then...😤) This was one of PTX's first original hits (clear back from 2015! 🤯) and I've been a big fan of it for years! Such a fun throwback! Wow! I can't believe it's been so long... " look how far we've come ." Feelin' so proud of this group who's music has been such a big part of my life and inspired me for so long 🥰 Tell me am I going crazy? Tell me have I lost my mind? Am I just afraid of lovin'? Or am I not the lovin' kind? Kissin' in the moonlight Movies on a late night Gettin' old I've been there...

Song: She's Always A Woman Artist(s): Billie Joel and Josh Groban To be fair, I heard Josh's version of this song first so that's why it's another same-song-different-artist-double-up-post today 😁 Both of which feature Josh 😍 My most featured artist this Love Month. Either version is excellent. She can kill with a smile She can wound with her eyes She can ruin your faith with her casual lies And she only reveals what she wants you to see She hides like a child But she's always a woman to me She can lead you to love She can take you or leave you She can ask for the truth But she'll never believe And she'll take what you give her as long as it's free Yeah, she steals like a thief But she's always a woman to me Oh, she takes care of herself She can wait if she wants She's ahead of her time Oh, and she never gives out And she never gives in She just changes her mind She will promise you more Than the Garden of Eden Then she'll carelessly cut...

Song(s): Loving You & One More Chance Artist: Michael Jackson  &   The Jacksons You didn't think I'd forget about Mike this month did you? Never! And I'll prove it to you by sharing not one but TWO songs today!  First up, is a super fun song from the posthumus released album Xscape. I've loved this track for years. It's such a lovey-dovey, I only wanna be with you type love song that is as nauseating as it is romantic and sweet hahaha 😂😍 Hello, August moon, where are the stars of the night? You promised me too soon 'cause it's been cloudy all night And the weatherman said, if you're not well, stay in bed 'Cause I've been feelin' down and blue and it's cloudy in my head Instead of going out to some restaurant, I'll stay home in bed I'll be loving you, that's what I wanna do I'll be loving you, that's what I wanna do Hello, midnight lover, you're the one I adore And I'll be thinking of ya 'til th...

Song: Greatest Love of All  Artist: Whitney Houston A powerful self-love song! 👊💜 Something I'm in desperate need of.  I believe the children are our future Teach them well and let them lead the way Show them all the beauty they possess inside Give them a sense of pride to make it easier Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be Everybody's searching for a hero People need someone to look up to I never found anyone who fulfilled my needs A lonely place to be And so I learned to depend on me I decided long ago Never to walk in anyone's shadows If I fail, if I succeed At least I'll live as I believe No matter what they take from me They can't take away my dignity Because the greatest love of all Is happening to me I found the greatest love of all Inside of me The greatest love of all Is easy to achieve Learning to love yourself It is the greatest love of all I believe the children are our future Teach them well and let them lead the way Show them...

Song: Conversations in the Dark Artist: John Legend  This song is super adorable and sweet. I love the lyrics and the sentiment of the song: I love you for you, flaws and all. 💕 John Legend is another one of those dudes who knows how to convey his love & emotions with some really excellent songwriting 👌 Talk Let's have conversations in the dark World is sleeping, I'm awake with you With you Watch Movies that we've both already seen I ain't even looking at the screen, it's true I got my eyes on you And you say that you're not worthy You get hung up on your flaws Well, in my eyes, you are perfect As you are I won't ever try to change you, change you I will always want the same you, same you Swear on everything I pray to That I won't break your heart I'll be there when you get lonely, lonely Keep the secrets that you told me, told me And your love is all you owe me And I won't break your heart On Sunday mornings we sleep in 'til noon Wel...

Song: You Get Me Artist: Michelle Branch I thought of this song last night and decided to share it today. Hahaha, this song makes me laugh! 😂 I heard it for the first time waaaay back in 2003 in the movie What A Girl Wants  and loved it (I was so disappointed it didn't make the soundtrack!). It's a throwback song kinda day 🤷 Michelle Branch is my 2000's queen! Her music is so random and even though I don't know a ton of her stuff the songs I do know were my jams! 😆 She's got that good girl, sweet yet angsty vibe going on. I could relate. Still looking for the man who will "get me." Because I'm.... a lot. So I'm a little left of center I'm a little out of tune Some say I'm paranormal So I just bend their spoon Who wants to be ordinary In a crazy, mixed-up world I don't care what they're saying As long as I'm your girl Hey, you are on my side And they, they just roll their eyes You get me When nobody understands You come and t...

Song: Callin' Baton Rouge Artist: Garth Brooks I learned some interesting things about Mardi Gras and "Fat Tuesday" today . I love learning about stuff like this! I wish I was better prepared and had gotten or made a King Cake for today. I saw one in a bakery last weekend. I worked today and was exhausted by the time I got home (I also wasn't aware it was Mardi Gras!) but I definitely "indulged" for "Fat Tuesday": Pizza for dinner with soda and chocolates. 😋 Tomorrow is Ash Wednesday and I will be cutting out soda, juice, hot chocolate, anything that isn't water. I'm also saving treats and desserts for the weekends soooo yeah. Had to indulge a little bit tonight 😉 I chose this fun song in celebration of Mardi Gras which often take place in New Orleans, Louisiana but is also celebrated in places like Baton Rouge! When I read that, I immediately thought of this song! It's super catchy and upbeat and a ton of fun! Just like a big Mardi ...

Song(s): Time to Say Good-Bye & Rollercoaster Artist(s): Celtic Women & Jonas Brothers These are the type of love songs that mean the most to me these days. Love and gratitude for family. 💗🙏 The most important love in my life.  Today has been bittersweet. 💔🤍 We dropped my sweet, amazing, inspiring baby brother off at the airport. He is leaving on a two-year service mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. It was so hard and so emotional saying good-bye. Giving him that final hug and trying to speak the words that were in my heart through my tears. 😭 I love him so much and I'm so proud of him!! He is so brave! I know he's doing the right thing and I want to support him (and I do!) but man! I'm going to miss that kid!! He is truly one of my best friends, along with all of siblings. I've bragged about him here before . 💗 There aren't enough words to describe how I feel about him. I am so thankful for the years of memories and the ti...

Song: Take Me Home Artist: Pentatonix Feeling extremely emotional today. Tomorrow, my sweet baby brother is headed off on his two-year church service mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I can't believe it's happening, it's come so fast and feels so surreal. I keep wanting to break down in tears every time I look at him but I'm trying my best to hold it together. I'm so grateful for these past two months to soak up as much time with him as possible. I'm usually really insecure about the fact that I live at home with my parents still (and always have) but in times like these, I'm grateful. I'm grateful for that time where my relationship with my brother has become so strong. We have always been extremely close. I have watched him grow up and have been able to experience so many milestones with him. He has been my best buddy and such a light in my life. I can't believe I won't see him for two whole years, he's just alway...

Song: Iris Artist: Colbie Caillat Last night went pretty well for the most part. But tomorrow is when the real anxiety begins. This song means so much to me and holds a lot of meaning for me personally. The lyrics are vulnerably beautiful. This slowed-down cover from Colbie Caillat makes the song feel even more intimate and emotional.  I hope to find someone someday that I can open up to and actually want them "to know who I am." Because I don't think there's a single soul in the entire world who truly knows me. I'm a very private person, even among my own family. But recently, I've been feeling like I'm constantly on the verge of a panic attack. I crave a human connection. I feel like I'm about to burst, I just want to spill my heart out to someone who won't judge me but will listen to me and hold me and tell me they love me anyway. I want it to be a man who is genuinely good and kind and patient and accepting. Who will try to understand but ev...

Song(s): Be My Eyes & It's Different Now Artist: Pentatonix  Two songs that I am dreaming and wishing could be my reality today. 😖 We have a big family party tonight where my singleness and loneliness is going to be on  FULL display and to say I'm dreading it, is an understatement. And then the same thing - only tripled - is happening again on Sunday. My current plans are to hide out in my room rather than face the humiliation. We'll see how that works out. Be My Eyes This song is all about having someone see you for who you really are and can help you do the same. When you get hung up on your flaws and insecurities, the person who loves you and really sees you can help open your eyes to who you are inside. This could also come from a non-romantic relationship, but today the way I'm listening to it, I picture it being from a sweet, romantic perspective. It's what I dream of. On a side note: these lyrics are spot on! I love them! Little white horses on caro...

Song(s): Your Body Is A Wonderland, Dreaming With A Broken Heart & Shot In The Dark Artist: John Mayer Three songs I have been enjoying lately from the talented John Mayer!  Your Body Is A Wonderland This song is cute and sexy! 😘 The melody is super catchy and the lyrics are fun. It's a 10/10 for me! We got the afternoon You got this room for two One thing I've left to do Discover me Discovering you One mile to every inch of Your skin like porcelain One pair of candy lips and Your bubblegum tongue And if you want love We'll make it Swim in a deep sea Of blankets Take all your big plans And break 'em This is bound to be a while Your body is a wonderland Your body is a wonder (I'll use my hands) Your body is a wonderland Something 'bout the way the hair falls in your face I love the shape you take when crawling towards the pillowcase You tell me where to go and though I might leave to find it I'll never let your head hit the bed without my hand behind ...

Song: Song for the Lonely Artist: Cher I was looking up songs for single people the day before Valentines' Day and this one was on the list. I don't really like Cher's voice but I kinda liked this song, hahaha. It's suuuuper cheesy but, going along with my "newfound" optimistic out-look on someday finding love in my life, I decided I need some type of power-pop, hopeful anthem to remind me I'm not alone and to keep trying...even if it is a little cringe, lol 😁💪 Here's to an optimistic and hopeful future! Thanks for having my back Cher! 😆👊 When you're standing on the edge of nowhere There's only one way up So your heart's got to go there Through the darkest night See the light shine bright When hero's fall, in love or war They live forever This is a song - for the lonely Can you hear me tonight? For the broken hearted, battle scarred I'll be by your side And this is a song - for the lonely When your dreams won't come true C...