Month of Love Songs Challenge Day 20
Song(s): Time to Say Good-Bye & Rollercoaster
Artist(s): Celtic Women & Jonas Brothers
These are the type of love songs that mean the most to me these days. Love and gratitude for family. 💗🙏 The most important love in my life.
Today has been bittersweet. 💔🤍
We dropped my sweet, amazing, inspiring baby brother off at the airport. He is leaving on a two-year service mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. It was so hard and so emotional saying good-bye. Giving him that final hug and trying to speak the words that were in my heart through my tears. 😭 I love him so much and I'm so proud of him!! He is so brave! I know he's doing the right thing and I want to support him (and I do!) but man! I'm going to miss that kid!! He is truly one of my best friends, along with all of siblings. I've bragged about him here before. 💗 There aren't enough words to describe how I feel about him. I am so thankful for the years of memories and the time I've had with not only him but all of my siblings. They are everything to me!! I will defend them with my life! Even if we don't all see eye to eye and argue and don't always get along we are a close knit, loyal family! You mess with one of us, you best watch yo back! You've pissed off all of us!
This isn't the first time one of my siblings have left to serve the Lord.* It's always so difficult to let them go but we get through it. And they come back stronger than ever! It just hits a little different this time with this brother being the baby of the family. He has always just been so easy to get along with. He's so genuinely good. He makes you feel so special and loved. He has always been there, willing to do anything; go on a walk, go to the store, watch a show, etc. I love and appreciate him so much, especially everything he's done and been for me personally. Ugh! This is hard! I miss him so much and he's only been gone a few hours!! 😭😭
As difficult as these last few days have been, the Lord has truly helped me. He has comforted me when I have felt sickeningly depressed. I have actually felt much better than I thought I would today. Of course I'm sad and I cried a lot but, it hasn't been as bad as I was dreading.
I dedicate these two songs to my sweet brother.
Time To Say Good-Bye
This first song actually makes me really, really sad but the sentiment is appropriate. I don't mean this to sound like I wanted him to leave, but there has been a sense of relief. The waiting around, knowing that it was coming was actually more painful than it feels now. Ripping the band-aid off so to speak. The time has come and I'm still in shock that we did it. We dropped him off and said good-bye. Like, this isn't just dropping him off at college and we'll see him in a couple weeks or during the summer type of good-bye; it's a "we-won't-see-him-for-two-whole-years" kind of good-bye. Yeah, it hits different. It's hard. But here we are. There always comes that awful moment when you know it's time...and that moment came today.
When I am alone I sit and dream
And when I dream the words are missing
Yes, I know that in a room so full of light
That all the lights are missing
But I don't see you with me, with me
Close up the windows, bring the sun to my room
Through the door you've opened
Close, inside of me the light you see
That you met in the darkness
Time to say goodbye
Horizons are never far
Would I have to find them alone
Without true light of my own?
With you I will go
On ships over seas
That I now know
No, they don't exist anymore
It's time to say goodbye
When you were so far away
I sat alone and dreamt of the horizon
Then I knew that you were here with me, with me
Building bridges over land and sea
Shine a blinding light for you and me
To see, for us to be
Time to say goodbye
Horizons are never far
Would I have to find them alone
Without true light of my own?
With you I will go
On ships over seas
That I now know
No, they don't exist anymore
Without true light of my own
With you I will go
On ships over seas
That I now know
No, they don't exist anymore
Without true light of my own
With you I will go
You with me
Rollercoaster
This song is beautiful and the lyrics make me think of the years' worth of memories shared with my brother! I would re-live it all, there's not much I would change! I love thinking back to all the soccer and basketball games I got to watch him play, the birthdays celebrated, the card games we played, the trips and outings we went on, the walks and bike rides. It hasn't always been easy, but having my family by my side to support me and lift me up has made it all worth it. It's made my life worth living. Sometimes it's hard for me to feel that or remember that, but it's true. I never want to get off this "rollercoaster" I've spent my life riding with my brother and siblings by my side. But, here we are. I guess everything eventually comes to an end. But that doesn't mean there won't be new rides to try and experience together. 💕
Nights, flying down the 10, nearly 2 AM
Happiness begins
Days lifted in a haze, we weren't just a phase
We weren't just pretend (Just pretend)
I remember low lows and high highs
We threw our hands up, palms out to the skies
It was fun when we were young and now we're older
Those days when we were broke in California
We were up-and-down and barely made it over
But I'd go back and ride that roller coaster
It was fun when we were young and now we're older
Those days that are the worst, they seem to glow now
We were up-and-down and barely made it over
But I'd go back and ride that roller coaster with you
Woo-ooh-ooh, woo-ooh
Woo-ooh-ooh (Oh, oh)
But I'd come back and ride that roller coaster
Faith led me to the clouds, reaching for the ground
'Cause life was upside down
Now everything has changed, we found better days
But I still hear the sound
I remember low lows and high highs
We threw our hands up, palms out to the skies
It was fun when we were young and now we're older
Those days when we were broke in California
We were up-and-down and barely made it over
But I'd go back and ride that roller coaster
It was fun when we were young and now we're older (Oh)
Those days that are the worst, they seem to glow now (Yeah)
We were up-and-down and barely made it over
But I'd go back and ride that roller coaster with you
Woo-ooh-ooh (Yeah, with you)
Woo-ooh (With you, with you)
Woo-ooh-ooh (Oh, oh)
But I'd come back and ride that roller coaster
It was fun when we were young and now we're older (Oh)
Those days that are the worst, they seem to glow now (Yeah)
We were up-and-down and barely made it over
But I'd go back and ride that roller coaster
Nights, flying down the 10, nearly 2 AM
Happiness begins
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BABY BRO!! MORE THAN YOU COULD POSSIBLY BEGIN TO UNDERSTAND!
THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE AND LOVING ME UNCONDITIONALLY!
I MISS YOU SO MUCH ALREADY BUT I AM SO, SO PROUD OF YOU AND CAN'T WAIT TO HERE ABOUT ALL OF THE AMAZING EXPEREINCES YOU WILL HAVE AND THE LIVES YOU WILL CHANGE!
YOU HAVE TRULY CHANGED AND MADE MINE BETTER!!💓💗
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