Music is my Therapy

Song: Dear Fear Artist: Mat & Savanna Shaw Wow. What a way to spend New Years Eve. I've been alone for the past two days straight, locked away in my room aka my depression, guzzling down junk food and spending waaaaay too much time looking at my screen. Both of my parents are sick and all of my other siblings have lives; friends, relationships, work, mission, family, etc. This is the way I'm ringing in the new year? Alone? Sick from eating so much chocolate? Seems fitting. I guess it's better than last year where I had to fifth wheel my parents and sister and her BF. Everyone kissing all around me as I stood there solitary and alone, my eyes glued to the TV watching other people kiss and celebrate.  I want to start the New Year right but I feel so disgusting, sad and lonely. I don't feel motivated or happy. I feel numb. I feel angry. And sad. And exhausted. If this is all my life will amount to, babysitting other peoples kids and being the leftover child, I don...

I had to share my "Apple Music Replay" because it's too funny/fitting for the year I had 😂  You listened to 30,284 minutes of music. Top Artists  1,023 total artists 1. NF (4,723 minutes) 2. Michael Jackson (1,382) 3. Pentatonix (1,267) 4. Josh Groban (1,200) 5. Hanson (1,015) 6. Jack Johnson (990) 7. Taylor Swift (956) 8. The Goo Goo Dolls (931) 9. Ed Sheeran (684) 10. Mat & Savanna Shaw (638) 11. The Jacksons (610) 12. Matt Maher (322) 13. Jackson 5 (317) 14. Matthew Morrison (255) 15. Sidewalk Prophets (245) Top Songs  3,263 total songs 1. HOPE - NF (81 plays) 2. HAPPY - NF (65 plays) 3. Face It - NF  (53 plays) 4. Wake Up - NF (45 plays) 5. MISTAKE - NF (44 plays) 6. WHY - NF (44 plays) 7. PANDEMONIUM - NF (43 plays) 8. Life Goes On - Ed Sheeran (41 plays) 9. I'll Keep On (feat. Jeremiah Carlson) - NF (38 plays) 10. CLOUDS - NF (36 plays) 11. No Excuses - NF (33 plays) 12. Human Nature - MJ, the Musical (33 plays) 13. You Can't Win - MJ, the Musical (...

Song(s): At Christmas & Spending Christmas Together Artist(s): Hanson & Mat & Savanna Shaw MERRY CHRISTMAS 2023 ! ! ! 🎄🎅🤶🎁🍪🌟 I had such a sweet, fun, entertaining, memorable day (with the exception of snow 😫 No "white Christmas" for me this year 😔)! So grateful I got this last "somewhat normal" Christmas with my family before everything changes next year...things have been changing for a while now but still. Next year it's going to be another BIG change. And who knows how many more will occur along the way. Hopefully there will be a change for myself too. We shall see what the new year brings. I'm feeling a little sad ending this special day. Last night was so much fun as my non-married siblings gathered together in my bedroom and talked and laughed and listened to Christmas music by the light of my Christmas tree until midnight, Christmas day! I loved it so much!! 💓 I know how special that was and that it most likely will never ha...

Song: A Christmas Eve Song, Merry Christmas (To the One I Used to Know) & Little Toy Trains Artist: Peter Breinholt, Kelly Clarkson & Pentatonix  I'm literally in SHOCK that it's CHRISTMAS EVE ! ! 🤯 It doesn't even feel like we had a December! How can it be CHRISTMAS DAY tomorrow!?!  I've got three songs to share tonight. I hope you enjoy them all, there seems to be a song here to fit every mood and feeling you may be experiencing on this very special night! A Christmas Eve Song Honestly...I don't really know this song. I went by the title, haha. I think I listened to it once and thought it sounded nice for tonight. I don't know. I'm excited to give it another listen and hope it fills me with feelings of anticipation and magic as I go to sleep and hopefully awake to a beautiful white Christmas day!! 🤞🙏 No lyrics available Merry Christmas (To the One I Used to Know) This song is for anyone feeling a little sad this Christmas. I actually cri...

Song(s): Far, Far Away on Judea's Plains & Once in Royal David's City Artists: Tabernacle Choir & Orchestra at Temple Square Feeling a little...weird about some news I received today. It's nothing serious or scary. Well, it's kinda serious but not in a "bad way." Not really. I mean, selfishly it is. More sad than bad. Anyway, I've just been thrown a loop but I'm trying not to let it bother me right now and enjoy celebrating one more "normal" Christmas...even tho even that's not feeling super normal right now.  Choosing songs to help me focus on the Savior because I'm starting to get overwhelmed and upset. No matter what happens, this part of Christmas will never change.  Far, far away on Judea’s plains, Shepherds of old heard the joyous strains: Glory to God, Glory to God, Glory to God in the highest; Peace on earth, goodwill to men; Peace on earth, goodwill to men! Sweet are these strains of redeeming love, Message of mercy ...

Song: Love Is Christmas Artist: Mat & Savanna Shaw My posts will probably be short and sweet, like this song, these next few days as I focus on spending time with family celebrating the holidays. The lyrics of this song are meaningful and relatable to how I feel about my family and Christmas. 💗 Grateful for the fun party we had tonight, enjoying one anotehr's company, eating good food, playing games and decorating cookies. Especially grateful for my sweet mother who worked for days to plan and prepare such a memorable evening. She embodies the Spirit of Christmas through her desire to have her family all together and the selfless service she provides. I am so blessed. 🙏 I don’t care if the house is packed, Or the strings of light are broken. I don’t care if the gifts are wrapped, Or there’s nothing here to open. Love is not a toy, and no paper will conceal it. Love is simply joy that I’m home. I don’t care if the carpet's stained; we've got food upon our table. I do...

Song: He Shall Reign Forevermore Artist: Matt Maher Not gonna lie, it's late and I need to get a song up and this is one option I had saved so I'm goin' with it! Nothin' fancy, no story behind why or how I discovered the song or what it means to me. I just thought it was a cool song with a good message, especially for Christmas and it's Matt Maher. All good enough reasons for me!  In the bleak midwinter, all creation grown For a world in darkness, frozen like a stone Light is breaking, in a stable for a throne If I were a wise man, I would travel far If I were a shepherd, I would do my part Poor as I am, I will give to Him my heart And He shall reign forevermore, forevermore And He shall reign forevermore, forevermore Unto us a child is born The king of kings, the lord of lords And He shall reign forevermore, forevermore Here within the manger lies The one who builds the starry skies This baby born for sacrifice Christ, our Messiah To our hopes and to our fears Th...