Grateful For Music Challenge Day 27

Song: Family

Artist: Zach Gill & Jack Johnson

I'm grateful for my family. 💗 

I know I've been a downer these past couple of days and have allowed my jealous insecurities to rule my life, but at the end of the day, I'm so grateful for my big, loud, crazy, beautiful family! I still struggle with the fact that so much has and is and always will continue to change. I still miss the "old days" and how things were all of the time. But I'm grateful that I get to still spend time with my siblings and parents and that we all love and accept each other. I'm grateful that I'm so close to my family. It makes me sad to think of the future when everyone will really be "grown up" with families of their own and being together won't be as much of a priority as it is now (I see this with my own parents and their siblings). I fear I'm going to be old and single and won't want to be an inconvenience to my siblings and their families so I'll end up spending the holidays alone sometimes. I don't really know if that will happen, I can't see the future, but it is a great concern of mine as I remain the same year after year and everyone else grows and changes.

This fun song came to mind this evening as I worked on some Thanksgiving food prep and talked and laughed and spent time with my family this evening. I'm looking forward to tomorrow and am hoping I will truly be able to be 100% present. That I will engage in meaningful conversations and not get lost in my thoughts and daydreams. That I won't stress over the fact that I'm single. That I won't disappear into my mind. That I can be helpful with the food prep and clean up, participate joyfully in games without an overly competitive spirit 😉 and laugh out loud with abandonment! Which is easy to do when surrounded by my siblings, they are truly my best (and only) friends! I'm so lucky and grateful to have them! 

I also hope I can have patience with a certain family member I have been struggling with for the past couple of years. I pray for grace and love towards them. 🙏 I do love them but a lot has happened with this particular person that has made me a little bitter and I don't want to feel this way anymore. I don't want to blame them anymore. It's not right or fair to them. 

Here's to family! 

She was feeling yuletide-burn

Cause her family was wearing on her nerves

She was tired of fighting and feeling frustrated

Finding it hard to relate to those of whom she was related

You know we all sometimes, say things we don't mean

But that don't mean that we're not still family

Generation to generation it gets passed on

And then one day, those who would passing well they passed on

Pulling back the covers, her heart will start to shudder when she realizes how deep it all went

Trying to forgive what was said, but was never really meant

Well you know we all sometimes, say things we don't mean

But that don't mean we're not still family

Pull out of the shadows and find out that eventually

It's all bad, it's all good baby can't you see

That we all, well we all, well we all are still family

I was there from the moment that you were born

And I've loved you since I heard your first cries

And I know we won't always be getting along

But I promise you that I will always try

You know we all sometimes, say things we don't mean

But that don't mean that we're not still family

You know we all sometimes, say things we don't mean

But that don't mean that we're not still family

You know we all sometimes, say things we don't mean

But that don't mean that we're not still family