HAPPY HALLOWEEN!! ππ»ππ¦π§π§ππΉπ½π·πΈπ§Ή✨
The day we've been waiting for since August is HERE....
Halloween Hop ππ§π‘
Howl-O-Ween
Heads Will Roll/Thriller π΅π§
IT'S HALLOWEEN!!
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I wish I could say I've been having a most SPOOKTACULAR day but...that wouldn't be the truth. I have been very in tune with my costume this year...I've been an ANXIOUS wreck!
This is ME π
Remember when I was having my little melt-down the other day about being embarrassed because I didn't have plans for tonight and I was anxious my employer would invite me to go trick-or-treating with her and her children and I felt prideful about that? Well, it's worse. She threw out the idea that, if I didn't have plans, I could go sit ALONE, in her house and pass out candy while/or hold her newborn while they go out....COULD I BE MORE OF A LOSER OR WHAT!?! I don't want to do either of those things but I didn't know what to say in the moment so I was just kinda like "Oh yeah....maybe....if I don't go to this free haunted house that I know of" which I already KNOW I can't actually go to because I have no one to go with!!π I didn't want to feel this paranoid and ANXIOUS today but here I am! I also started my period last night and the side-effects are really affecting me.
I've tried to not let her generous "offer" bother me but it has. All day. All I can think about in the back of my mind as I try to enjoy Halloween music and shows is how I will confront tonight. I just wanna have FUN on a holiday I LOVE!
Here's another thing...this is officially the last year I'll be doing my Halloween Music Challenge. Not that anyone will care or miss it, since no one is out there following along. Maybe I will. To be honest, I've struggled with it this year. I don't feel the same joy I used to when writing and sharing these posts anymore. I feel so lonely and childish and wish I was normal and could celebrate Halloween the way I really want to; with a significant other; with children of my own or with friends. But this is my reality. Being home alone with my parents and single aunt (my future basically) and possibly holding someone else's baby so they can go out and enjoy the night. ππ
I've tried convincing myself that I decide how my night will go, based on my attitude. But I feel so upset it seems impossible to change it! I'm also stressing with all the dinner prep I put on myself. I enjoy preparing festive food but I am an overwhelmed and anxious chef. π©π¬ Hence why my Halloween costume is so fitting. I'll update how the rest of my evening goes later.
TIME FOR THE MUSIC! ππ
Song(s): Exercise the Demons, Halloween Hop, Howl-O-Ween & Thriller/Heads Will Roll
Artist(s): LVCRFT & Glee
I wouldn't be me, or ending this EIGHT year holiday tradition off properly without a MULTITUDE of songs, including a final nod to the Halloween anthem THRILLER! π§
Exercise the Demons πͺπ
I attempted to do a "Halloween work out/dance" to this song this morning π I won't allow myself to be ashamed about it because it was FUN! ππ
Another work-out/dance I did today TWICE because I loved the song so much! And it was a really successful work-out I must say! I wish I'd been doing it all month long! I love a "themed" work-out π¦π
It's perfect πππ»π
Been waiting months to post this! If it's Thriller related in any way, it's here! π§π
Off with your head
D-dance-dance-dance 'til you're dead
O-off-off-off with your head
D-dance-dance-dance 'til you're dead
O-off-off-off with your head
It's close to midnight
And something evil's lurking in the dark
Under the moonlight
You see a sight that almost stops your heart
You try to scream
But terror takes the sound before you make it
(Heads will roll, Heads will roll)
You start to freeze
As horror looks you right between the eyes
You're paralyzed
'Cause this is thriller, thriller night
And no one's gonna save you from the beast about to strike
You know it's thriller, thriller night
You're fighting for your life inside a killer thriller tonight
Off with your head
D-dance-dance-dance 'til you're dead
O-off-off-off with your head
D-dance-dance-dance 'til you're dead
(Thriller tonight)
You hear the door slam
And realize there's nowhere left to run
You feel the cold hand
And wonder if you'll ever see the sun
You close your eyes
And hope that this is just imagination
(Heads will roll, heads will roll)
But all the while
You hear the creature creepin' up behind
You're out of time
'Cause this is thriller, thriller night
There ain't no second chance against the thing with forty eyes, girl
Thriller, thriller night
You're fighting for your life inside a killer, thriller tonight
Off with your head
D-dance-dance-dance 'til you're dead
O-off-off-off with your head
D-dance-dance-dance 'til you're dead
(Thriller tonight)
Darkness falls across the land
The midnight hour is close at hand
Creatures crawl in search of blood
To terrorize y'awl's neighborhood
And though you fight to stay alive (Off with your head)
Your body starts to shiver (Dance 'til you're dead)
For no mere mortal can resist (Heads will roll, Heads will roll)
The evil of the thriller (Heads will roll on the floor)
'Cause this is thriller, thriller night
Girl, I can thrill you more than any ghost could ever dare try
Thriller, thriller night
So let me hold you tight and share a killer, thriller, ow!
Off with your head
D-dance-dance-dance 'til you're dead
O-off-off-off with your head
D-dance-dance-dance 'til you're dead
O-off-off-off with your head
*UPDATE: Well...I had nothing to worry about after all. Figures. She never came. Ugh! I let her one suggestion ruin most of my day and had me sitting around anxiously all evening! I'm so SICK of always doing this to myself! Always being afraid and uptight and anxious and allowing my emotions to get the best of me!
My Halloween Day 2024 ππ»πΈ
- Slept in because of cramps...
- Watched the Agatha All Along finale while eating my breakfast of Pumpkin Spice Cheerios out of my Halloween mug
- Went on quite a nice, crisp Halloween walk with my dog. I noticed snow in the mountaintops but it was sunny down below and it felt like the perfect merging of the holidays a la Nightmare Before Christmas style! ππ
- "Dance" work-out to my songs from above π
- Showered and got in my costume
- Ate lunch and watched the Addams Family Halloween episode from the classic 60's television show
- Prepared "brain jell-o" for part of my Halloween-themed dinner π§
- Dawdled around being moody and anxious
- Started working on dinner which was a Dinner in a Pumpkin dish so I got to gut another pumpkin (after carving last night)!
- Dinner: Wild Rice/Sausage mixture baked inside a pumpkin, breadsticks, "brain" jell-o and Pumpkin Eggnog, yum!
- Sat around while very few trick-or-treaters stopped by
- Watched the animated Disney Legend of Sleepy Hollow because it's a classic π
- Watched a "scary" movie with my dad...Willard π I'd already seen it but my dad hadn't so we decided to watch it. He thought it was silly π Which granted it is, but it still has a little creepiness to it...anyway, it was on brand with my theme of watching older Halloween movies this season. Ate lots of Halloween candy since we had so few trick-or-treaters....more candy for me! π«π¬
- Didn't watch Thriller tonight (the first time in 9 years!! π) because I watched it last night after carving pumpkins at my sister and brother-in-law's apartment. I really wanted to watch it with my brother-in-law because he had somehow never seen it, or at least didn't remember it, and they had other plans tonight so....yeah.
- Watched part of the Nightmare Before Christmas in bed enjoying some of the last of my Halloween cereal that I love eating this time of year because I am a child ππ» And when the period calls...it makes you do things π
I'm sorta disappointed with how this special holiday went, mainly due to my attitude (and feeling "blah" thanks to the joys of being a woman...π although I have to say, I had a FANTASTIC month celebrating spooky season! I don't want to discount that! I read lots of festive books and watched lots and lots of classic horror).
This is a sad way to end a tradition that I came to love so much. π I can't say if I'll miss it or not because right now in this moment, I'm just feeling....disappointed. I hate to see things come to an end but it makes me a little sad to see how stuck I've been for so long. I'm hoping to be in a much happier mental state next year. And you never know, I may be back like a ghost haunting this small corner of the internet again some day! π» Until then....thanks for the years of music and memories! π§‘π€ It was fun while it lasted. But I'm old now and need to move on with my life and start acting my age a little more. "Parting is such sweet sorrow." π’ππ₯ But all good things must come to an end. So for one, final Halloween adieu....
HAPPY HOWL-O-WEEN TO ALL YOU MONSTERS, GHOULS, GOBLINS & WITCHES!! STAY FREAKY!!
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