Lone Wolf 🐺 & Monster Mash 🧟

Song(s): Lone Wolf & Monster Mash

Artist(s): Egzod & Wasiu & The Misfits & John Cafiero

I can't believe Halloween is this week!! 🎃👻💀🧛🧟

I'm excited but at the same time, can't help but feel a little....sad and anxious and embarrassed. I don't really have plans. Since I really only have my family as my only social companions, and all my siblings are in relationships and will be spending Halloween with their significant others, I'm left on my own this year. 😔 I mean, I have my parents, but it's just not the same without my siblings. I just feel sad and foolish. And embarrassed. For example, I'm really dreading for when my employer, who knows I LOVE Halloween, will inevitably ask me what my plans are and I'll be too embarrassed to tell her the truth...and she will be stopping by my house with her children to trick-or-treat and then probably ask if I want to walk around the neighborhood with them (like she did last year) which I kind of have considered but ultimately feel a little too bashful and prideful to do so....maybe I can convince my parents to take me to this free haunted house I know of and drop me off so I can walk through it, in the almost $50 costume I bought (even though I knew I had no plans so don't ask me why I still bought myself a brand new costume! 🤦 I should have just re-worn something...because the reality is I LOVE dressing up! But what's the point of doing so when you have nothing to do and nowhere to go...). I am a child. I am an inconvenience. I still have to be driven places because I'm so anxious and fearful about driving. People feel sorry for me because I have no friends or social life or children/husband to spend the holidays with. 

That extremely LOOOOONG rant explains my first song choice of the day. I've been going back and forth with the idea of embracing the fact that I'm single and choosing to thrive in it, living my life for ME...and feeling sad, jealous and insecure that I'm the only one left....the only single one in my family now. So the song, Lone Wolf, really spoke to me. And I guess I'm sorta using it as an anthem to make me feel confident...? Lame. So, so lame and embarrassing and pathetic!! 😫😭 The truth is, I battle between wanting to be alone and not wanting to be alone. It's the fear and anxiety that keep me stuck in my loneliness and feeds this idea that I actually desire the loneliness. I need help. 

I do have to apologize in advance for some of the icky, sexual lyrics....I HATE them but since they aren't swear words I can't really find a "clean version" to block them out....so just try to close your ears to them and only listen to the chorus as much as possible, hahaha. And sorry for the actual swear words, again, I couldn't find a clean version! These lyrics are definitely not my favorite, besides the chorus...I'm sorry! I debated posting this but...I just really like the overall vibe of the song, hahaha 😅 I guess it's a guilty pleasure song for me. It's just very big, theatrical and cool and, as I mentioned in waaaay too many words...I relate to the sentiment "Lone Wolf." I imagine when people see me walking my dog or walking to work, or really doing anything out and about in public, people think to themselves "There goes the lone wolf" and I'm trying to embrace that and empower myself and make myself feel like an independent, bad-A** 😅🐺 Yeeeeaaahhh....at least that's what I'm telling myself....also...I heard this song at a fan convention being used during a cosplay event (NERD ALERT! 🚨🤓😂) so idk what this song is actually from! But I thought it was cool and gave me all the Halloween vibes! 

If you scared baby don’t look

Cuz here comes the lone wolf

Scared best you don’t look

Cuz here comes the lone wolf

Howl at the moonlight

The beast come you soon die

I've been killed left for dead now I’m back for they head

My revenge it is tonight

Been down for count and counted out

Was blocked and found a counter route

If you scared baby don’t look

Cuz here comes the lone wolf

Cuz here comes the lone wolf

Cuz here comes the lone wolf

No I don’t need no help or anybody else, Imma do it on my own (Yeah)

Cuz when I tried to ask near everybody laughed, had me feeling all alone (Yeah)

But truly now I’m grateful, cuz all of that hate fueled me into zone (Yeah)

Now I will never stop I’m coming for the top, I deserve the thrown (Yeah)

I’m just being fierce and being feared

Cut right through your flesh the truth can pierce

Drown 'em in they blood I flood the pier

Must apply the pressure to my peers (Yeah, Yeah, Yeah)

Suddenly they love me I’m revered (Yeah, Yeah, Yeah)

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Sheep got all the wool up in their ears

They must not have heard the wolf is here

Howl at the moonlight

The beast come you soon die

I've been killed left for dead now I’m back for they head

My revenge it is tonight

Been down for count and counted out

Was blocked and found a counter route

If you scared baby don’t look

Cuz here comes the lone wolf

Cuz here comes the lone wolf

Cuz here comes the lone wolf

Mess with me be careful, turn into a werewolf, hunt you late at night (Yeah)

All the doubters they're shook, they won't even dare look me straight into my eye (Yeah)

I've been moving solo, friendships that's a no-no, you can step aside (yeah)

I unleash the evils, I be going beast mode, bitch you won't survive (Yeah)

If you scared baby don’t look

Cuz here comes the lone wolf

Scared best you don’t look

Cuz here comes the lone wolf

Whew. OK, word vomit much?? I need to get over myself and stop feeling sorry for myself, that's what's pathetic! 🙄 Yes, my life hasn't panned out the way I hoped it would. And yes, it's my own, dang fault and I need to own that! But I also need to learn to accept my past and EMBRACE who I am! That was one of the goals I set for myself on my birthday! To accept and EMBRACE ME, ALL of me! Exactly as I am, my likes, interests, quirks, passions and the things that bring me JOY! And Halloween, dressing up, cooking an entire themed dinner that takes me all day to prepare and is consumed in a 10 minutes, (family-friendly) haunted houses, MAKES ME HAPPY! 

And listening to Halloween-themed music makes me happy so I have chosen a new cover of a classic Halloween hit to end this therapy-session induced post on and lighten the mood! PLEASE ENJOY!! Let that ghoul inside loose and MONSTER MASH from now until HALLOWEEN to your hearts content doing allllll the things that make you feel ALIVE HAPPY AND FREE!! 😀🖤🧟

Hahahahahaha oooooooh

Good Evening

I was working in the lab late one night

When my eyes beheld an eerie sight

For my monster from his slab began to rise

And suddenly to my surprise

He did the monster mash

It was a graveyard smash

It caught on in a flash

He did the monster mash

From my laboratory in the castle east

To the master bedroom where the vampires feast

The ghouls all came from their humble abodes

To get a jolt from my electrodes

They did the monster mash

It was a graveyard smash

It caught on in a flash

They did the monster mash

The zombies were having fun

The party had just begun

The guests included The Wolf Man

Dracula and his son

The scene was rockin', all were digging the sounds

Igor on chains, backed by his baying hounds

The coffin-bangers were about to arrive

With their vocal group, "The Crypt-Kicker Five"

They played the monster mash

It was a graveyard smash

It caught on in a flash

They played the monster mash

Out from his coffin, Drac's voice did ring

Seems he was troubled by just one thing

He opened the lid and shook his fist

And said, "Whatever happened to my Transylvania twist?"

It's now the monster mash

And it's a graveyard smash

It's caught on in a flash

It's now the monster mash

Everything's cool, Drac's a part of the band

And my monster mash is the hit of the land

For you, the living, this mash was meant too

When you get to my door, tell them Only sent you

Then you can monster mash

And do my graveyard smash

You'll catch on in a flash

Then you can monster mash

MONSTER MASH AT A PARTY SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE OR ON YOUR OWN, WHO CARES!? IT'S MY TIME OF YEAR AND I'M GOING TO EMBRACE IT...."LONE WOLF" AND ALL!! 🐺🧟