I'll Be Seeing You

Song: I'll Be Seeing You

Artist: Simone Boseman

You get a bonus post today because I did something that was big and very hard for me that I have to address....

I went on my first, intentional solo walk for the first time in almost two years. Perhaps even longer than that when you take into account the fact that I never went on a walk alone before my sweet puppy passed. We always went together. The reason this is a big deal is because I have not been able to bring myself to go on a walk since I laid my boy to rest coming up on two years this July. I would start crying just thinking about it. But, the past few weeks have been mentally and emotionally intense for me and I have needed to get out of my house and just walk. Walk out my feelings that are trapped inside. Get some fresh air. The weather was finally decent enough today. I carried my puppy's collar, an old "clean up" bag I found in the pocket of one of my coats and the ziploc that holds some of his fur with me. I had to have some "pieces" of him as it still feels like a betrayal somehow. To walk down the old trails and paths we always walked together. I felt a peace with me as I left. I know my dog wanted me to do this. And that he was right there walking beside me, wagging his little tail, stopping to sniff at his favorite spots 😌 Gosh I miss how things used to be! I miss him so, so much!! It still hurts. A lot. 💔 To remember he really is gone. For the rest of this life. I've needed him so much lately! 

I know you were with me as I walked along our old trails! 🖤🤍 It was a beautiful day! You would have loved it!

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This song is how I felt as I walked the trails and paths I used to walk daily with my best friend. I know I'll never walk alone but man, I wish he was still here to walk beside me! 😭🖤🤍💔 This version, that the late Chadwick Boseman's wife, Simone, performed in his memory, is the most emotional version I have been able to find that properly conveys the sadness and longing I feel when it comes to missing my boy!! 😢

I'll be seeing you in all the old, familiar places

That this heart of mine embraces all day through

In that small cafe, the park across the way

The children's carousel, the chestnut tree, the wishing well

I'll be seeing you in ev'ry lovely summer's day

In everything that's light and gay

I'll always think of you that way

I'll find you in the morning sun and when the night is new

I'll be looking at the moon but I'll be seeing you