Music is my Therapy

This Memorial Day has been hard. I've been spending the day listening to my playlist and thinking about my dog. 💔 I miss him so much. I keep thinking about how, a year ago, he was here. We were still going out on our walks together. I miss everything about him; from his smell, to his "sounds", his touch, his company, his love. I've also been tending my neighbors dog which seems to have made all of this even more difficult. The smell of her dog food reminds me of my dog. I'm taking her on walks down all the same trails and paths and routes me and my dog went down for years. Passing by all of the places he would stop to explore and mark his territory. I find myself in a horrible mood each time I come home after checking in. It just makes me sad my dog's not here. I'm also freaking out because it's almost been a year since my dog was ... well, you know. How? How has it been that long? It feels like just yesterday.... The weather has been stormy the las...

Song: We Belong Together 💓 Artist: Taylor Hanson I can see the empty in your eye The world has come to push you down again Your peace of mind is like a long-lost friend It's hard to breathe. You count your beating heart Another inch away from falling apart Alone in darkness and you're lost again Now you wonder why the world's closing in 'Cause we belong together You've been holding up the world alone Going the distance has been taking its toll You don't think that you can rise again The waves keep coming, and it's not even fair All of this living has been taking your life Doesn't feel like there's an end in sight But don't forget we're still alive tonight And I won't let you go without a fight 'Cause we belong together If you're feeling lost Because you fell off course If you call my name I'm never far away On the mountain top You feel your brave heart drop If you call my name I'm never far away 'Cause we belong tog...

I can't believe it! I don't know how this happened so quickly but my baby brother just graduated from High School today!! 💓😭  Ugh! This is wild! Isn't he still only like 10?? How is he 18 and graduating!? My brother is seriously the sweetest, kindest, funniest, happiest, just all around greatest young man you will ever meet! He's special. The caboose of our family. We wouldn't be complete without him. He's definitely my parents favorite child 😉 and it's easy to see why. He's always happy and relaxed. He's willing to help out and participate in whatever's going on. He's loving and tender, always has a hug for his mama. He treats all the women in his life with the utmost love and respect! He's just good. There need to be more young men like him. I'm totally flexing that I have the coolest little brother, haha. But it's true! He and I have a very sweet and special bond. A couple months ago, due to busy schedules I hadn't seen...

I don't have much to say because I just want to cry. In a little less than two weeks there have been two mass shootings in the United States. I'm sick. I'm afraid. I'm upset. But I'm mostly just so sad. This isn't fair and it isn't right. Those children didn't deserve this. Those people in Buffalo didn't deserve this. And what makes all of this even more disturbing is that both of the shooters were 18 year old boys. 18 years old. That's the same age as my youngest brother. It's too young. What is happening to our youth that leads them to this? Where is this hate and violence coming from? I've always wanted to defend the second amendment of the Constitution and the right to bear arms but there needs to be changes. I know it won't stop people from obtaining guns, but we can at least make it more difficult can't we? Harder to get hold of a deadly weapon? I don't know what the right thing to do is. I don't know the right a...

LET'S GOOOOOO!!!   ❤️💚💙🙌👊😝 HAPPY RELEASE DAY!! ❤️💚💙 I'm about to listen to Hanson's Red Green Blue  album for the very first time! I'm so excited I can hardly stand it! We're getting this par- TAY started with.... TAYLOR'S RED 🔴  Child At Heart - I've heard this song at least hundred times since it's release back in February , but I have to start at the very beginning with the very first song! This song is wonderful so it's not really a problem for me 😁  "You can just breathe, you are no mistake." 💓😭👊 🔴  Child At Heart (Demo) - That was so adorable! 😍 It's basically Taylor playing the guitar and making up the lyrics as he goes (so they're not exactly the lyrics that ended up on the final product). It was such a sweet nod to the inspiration of this song, his little boy.  “This song was born on a day where I was pondering the many challenges of coming of age and growing up (I have kids from 19- to one-year-old). ...

I just applied for a job!  I really doubt I'll get it since my resume is pretty dang pathetic and I  don't have any experience in the field, but here's to positive thinking! 🤞🤞 My cover letter was pretty good....I think. I was so nervous to submit. This is my first time ever submitting an official resume and applying for really any job. All of my other "jobs" came by word of mouth and people just immediately hired me on the spot. I feel super insecure about my inexperience with working a real job at almost 30 years old but it is what it is. I have no one to blame but myself.  The job I applied for is a remote/work from home position that I would really love, at least for the time being. I just need to start making money or I'm gonna be screwed! I'm starting to low-key panic. I would love to have a job that allowed me to travel. Unfortunately, I just found out after the fact that they're technically not hiring yet so it may be a while before I hear ba...