Music is my Therapy

Song: Scared of the Moon Artist: Michael Jackson Guys. I just discovered another, new MJ song!! Just when I think I've heard EVERYTHING there's more!!!  This song is beautiful. This song is sad. This song resonates with me. This song is slightly deceiving. When you first start listening to it, and hear the beautiful piano introduction, and then MJ's soft, delicate voice begins singing, it almost sounds like a lullaby. But, the lyrics? Man. Those are intense. And I have been having a really difficult time. It has been an awful week for me. So the intensity of these lyrics really struck a chord with me. The dark is something a lot of people are afraid of. The moon is a light that shines in the dark and typically brings people light and comfort. So it seems odd and even a little confusing when it says " scared of the moon." To be scared of something most people find beautiful, wonderful and comforting. Now, I don't know what the message or true intent of...

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY AND I'LL CRY IF I WANT TO!  Honestly, I haven't really felt one way or the other about this birthday. Usually, I dread my birthday (especially as I age and yet remain the same year after year with no change or progress). Last year I felt really optimistic and excited and positive about my birthday. I truly believed 26 would be some amazing, life changing year for me. It wasn't. Obviously. This year, my birthday kind of snuck up on me. There has been a lot going on the past several weeks so I never really had time to lament or get myself pumped or anything. It just .... happened. It's just ..... here. It's been a good day. I feel loved as usual and grateful for my family. But other than the fact that people are giving me gifts and we are eating cake and ice cream, it just feels like any other day. I honestly just feel numb towards any kind of feeling or emotion. It's weird and kind of sad. But, those two words could perfectly sum up the ...

Song: God Only Knows Artist: For King & Country feat. Dolly Parton Heeeeeeey...... It's been quite some time, huh? Wednesday May 30, 2019 was one of the worst days of my life. I thought I was losing my best friend, my sweet little puppy dog. He seemed to be slowly slipping away right before my eyes. The beginning of that week had been business as usual and everything had seemed fine. We went on our regular walk and he ate his food without any problems. Two days later he could barely stand up, refused food or water and could hardly move. My family gathered together to say our good-byes. To hold and kiss and pet him for the last time. We truly believed this was the end. I am getting choked up just going back to that day as I type this! Without going into details, and to make a very long, dramatic, heart-wrenching, painful story short: through the grace and mercy of God my puppy's life was saved!! My prayers were answered in every way. I had to exercise faith like I n...