Scared of the Moon
Song: Scared of the Moon
Artist: Michael Jackson
Guys. I just discovered another, new MJ song!! Just when I think I've heard EVERYTHING there's more!!!
This song is beautiful. This song is sad. This song resonates with me.
This song is slightly deceiving. When you first start listening to it, and hear the beautiful piano introduction, and then MJ's soft, delicate voice begins singing, it almost sounds like a lullaby. But, the lyrics? Man. Those are intense. And I have been having a really difficult time. It has been an awful week for me. So the intensity of these lyrics really struck a chord with me. The dark is something a lot of people are afraid of. The moon is a light that shines in the dark and typically brings people light and comfort. So it seems odd and even a little confusing when it says "scared of the moon." To be scared of something most people find beautiful, wonderful and comforting. Now, I don't know what the message or true intent of this song is, but I interpreted it in this personal way: I am scared of a lot of things that people usually find great joy and comfort in. One of those things is human relationships. I am afraid of people. Social anxiety. I've talked about it a lot. I can't see myself ever having friends or having a romantic relationship with anyone because I'm afraid of getting close to someone. I'm honestly, not even as close to my own family as I would like to be. There is a lot I keep from them. I see my younger siblings having these amazing relationships with friends and my 18 year old brother even has a serious girlfriend right now! I literally cannot even comprehend how to feel comfortable with people!!! Like, when I think about dating or something like that I panic! I truly, in my heart believe no one could like me enough to want to be with me. I don't know why, but my brain is hardwired that way. And it makes me so, so sad! And so depressed. You don't know how many times I have wished for my life to end or that I didn't exist.
Anyway, that's one example of a "moon" I'm scared of. Normal, healthy, fun, loving relationships. Those "scare" me. I feel incapable of getting to know someone on a deep and personal level. I don't have a relationship like that with a single soul on this planet. Not my parents, my siblings, no one. Everything is surface level. Because it truly scares me.
"There's nothing wrong, don't be bothered they said. It's just childish fantasies turning your head. No need to worry, it's really too soon. But there she lies shivering scared of the moon." - This part of the song rings true for me. So many people truly do not understand me or my anxiety and depression. I was told (and super recently as in the past month) that I use my anxiety as a crutch. That comment pissed me off and hurt me so badly. It sucks that I can't communicate effectively enough to let them know just how bad my anxiety really is and how hard I do try and yet come up short every.time.
Anyway, all of that was me trying to give a brief explanation of why this song resonates with me so strongly, especially right now.
Alone she lies waiting
Surrounded by gloom
Invaded by shadows
Painting the room
The light from the window
Cuts through the air
And pins the child lying there
Scared of the moon
She pulls up the covers
And shivers in fright
She hides from the color
That rides on the night
The light through the window
That lights up the sky
And causes her mournful cry
Scared of the moon
There's nothing wrong
Don't be bothered they said
It's just childish fantasies turning your head
No need to worry
It's really too soon
But there she lies shivering
Scared of the moon
Scared of the moon
Scared of the moon
Scared of the moon
Scared of the moon
The years go by swiftly
And soon childhood ends
But life is still fearful
When evening descends
The fear of the child
Still intrudes the night
Returning on beams of light
Scared of the moon
The feeling of terror
She felt as a youth
Has turned from a fantasy
Into the truth
The moon is the enemy
Twisting her soul
And taking its fearful toll
Scared of the moon
But now there are others who sit in a room
And wait for the sunlight to brighten their gloom
Together they gather
Their lunacy shared
But knowing just why they're scared
Scared of the moon
Scared of the moon
Scared of the moon
Scared of the moon
Scared of the moon
Artist: Michael Jackson
Guys. I just discovered another, new MJ song!! Just when I think I've heard EVERYTHING there's more!!!
This song is beautiful. This song is sad. This song resonates with me.
This song is slightly deceiving. When you first start listening to it, and hear the beautiful piano introduction, and then MJ's soft, delicate voice begins singing, it almost sounds like a lullaby. But, the lyrics? Man. Those are intense. And I have been having a really difficult time. It has been an awful week for me. So the intensity of these lyrics really struck a chord with me. The dark is something a lot of people are afraid of. The moon is a light that shines in the dark and typically brings people light and comfort. So it seems odd and even a little confusing when it says "scared of the moon." To be scared of something most people find beautiful, wonderful and comforting. Now, I don't know what the message or true intent of this song is, but I interpreted it in this personal way: I am scared of a lot of things that people usually find great joy and comfort in. One of those things is human relationships. I am afraid of people. Social anxiety. I've talked about it a lot. I can't see myself ever having friends or having a romantic relationship with anyone because I'm afraid of getting close to someone. I'm honestly, not even as close to my own family as I would like to be. There is a lot I keep from them. I see my younger siblings having these amazing relationships with friends and my 18 year old brother even has a serious girlfriend right now! I literally cannot even comprehend how to feel comfortable with people!!! Like, when I think about dating or something like that I panic! I truly, in my heart believe no one could like me enough to want to be with me. I don't know why, but my brain is hardwired that way. And it makes me so, so sad! And so depressed. You don't know how many times I have wished for my life to end or that I didn't exist.
Anyway, that's one example of a "moon" I'm scared of. Normal, healthy, fun, loving relationships. Those "scare" me. I feel incapable of getting to know someone on a deep and personal level. I don't have a relationship like that with a single soul on this planet. Not my parents, my siblings, no one. Everything is surface level. Because it truly scares me.
"There's nothing wrong, don't be bothered they said. It's just childish fantasies turning your head. No need to worry, it's really too soon. But there she lies shivering scared of the moon." - This part of the song rings true for me. So many people truly do not understand me or my anxiety and depression. I was told (and super recently as in the past month) that I use my anxiety as a crutch. That comment pissed me off and hurt me so badly. It sucks that I can't communicate effectively enough to let them know just how bad my anxiety really is and how hard I do try and yet come up short every.time.
Anyway, all of that was me trying to give a brief explanation of why this song resonates with me so strongly, especially right now.
Alone she lies waiting
Surrounded by gloom
Invaded by shadows
Painting the room
The light from the window
Cuts through the air
And pins the child lying there
Scared of the moon
She pulls up the covers
And shivers in fright
She hides from the color
That rides on the night
The light through the window
That lights up the sky
And causes her mournful cry
Scared of the moon
There's nothing wrong
Don't be bothered they said
It's just childish fantasies turning your head
No need to worry
It's really too soon
But there she lies shivering
Scared of the moon
Scared of the moon
Scared of the moon
Scared of the moon
Scared of the moon
The years go by swiftly
And soon childhood ends
But life is still fearful
When evening descends
The fear of the child
Still intrudes the night
Returning on beams of light
Scared of the moon
The feeling of terror
She felt as a youth
Has turned from a fantasy
Into the truth
The moon is the enemy
Twisting her soul
And taking its fearful toll
Scared of the moon
But now there are others who sit in a room
And wait for the sunlight to brighten their gloom
Together they gather
Their lunacy shared
But knowing just why they're scared
Scared of the moon
Scared of the moon
Scared of the moon
Scared of the moon
Scared of the moon
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