Music is my Therapy

Song: Reaching For the Sky Artist: Hanson From Hanson's upcoming NEW album String Theory . I know you can't hear the whole song in this video but from what I can hear, it sounds BEAUTIFUL . And like it's going to be a HUGE inspiration for me and for where I am in my life. I believe it has the potential to really help transform and change me the same way Strong Enough To Break did. I can not WAIT to get my hands on this album and listen to this song in it's entirety! And to listen to the album as a whole. What an incredibly brave and innovative idea from Hanson; to add an entire Symphony Orchestra to their songs and tell a story through their music. I've always known Hanson had powerful, deep songs that hold so much meaning. Through String Theory we all get to go on a beautiful journey with Hanson. It's such an amazing concept. These brothers never cease to amaze me with their creativity and their courage to push the limits and do things " they've ne...

Song: September Artist: Earth, Wind & Fire Posting this song, on this day has become a bit of an annual tradition here :0) (see:  2016 , 2017 ). Come on now, how can you not listen/jam to this song on this day of all days!? A must! ENJOY! Do you remember the 21st night of September? Love was changing the minds of pretenders While chasing the clouds away Our hearts were ringing In the key that our souls were singing. As we danced in the night, Remember how the stars stole the night away Ba de ya - say do you remember Ba de ya - dancing in September Ba de ya - never was a cloudy day Ba duda, ba duda, ba duda, badu Ba duda, badu, ba duda, badu Ba duda, badu, ba duda My thoughts are with you Holding hands with your heart to see you Only blue talk and love, Remember how we knew love was here to stay Now December found the love we shared in September. Only blue talk and love, Remember the true love we share today Ba de ya - say do you remember Ba...

HAPPY 26TH BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! If you know me at all, by reading any of my past birthday posts, you know how much of a Scrooge I usually am about my birthday. I hate that I have to keep getting older and I hate that I'm not where I want to be in my life and I hate having attention on me. This year has been different though. Sure, I still experienced some of the negative feelings about my impending birthday. But, once my birthday actually rolled around (and since I happened to still be awake at midnight I was able to ring in my new year! Alone. In bed...) I had a feeling I haven't felt or experienced in years. I felt excited about my birthday! I felt happy and excited about my age! Even though I'm not where I would have hoped to be at this age, I feel like I'm at a good place. 26 seems like a good age to me for some reason. I just feel at peace about it. I'm actually really excited about this new chapter in my life! I just know 26 is going to be a GREAT year for ...

Song: If n' I Was God Artist: Michael Jackson I feel really, really, really defeated, stressed, angry, depressed and just plain awful right now. I hate feeling like this. But unfortunately, it's pretty much the only way I know how to live. How to  feel.  Did you know I'm actually terrified right now because  I don't think I love anyone?  I don't believe I truly know what love is. What it feels like.  How  to love. I just feel angry  all of the time.  I feel so angry at everyone! Everyone is just  annoying.  I don't ever want to be around anyone ever. I don't know what to say when I'm around people. They always embarrass me or say something stupid. I feel  awful  that I feel this way, but ....  I do.  I just do, and I don't know what to do about it! It's a terrifying realtiy. Ever since I was a little girl, I have  always  wanted to get married right away and have children. I was that little girl wh...

Song: Sparkle Artist: RADWIMPS This song is from the film Your Name . It's an anime movie. My brother loves anime! We watched it with him a few weeks ago. It was....interesting. There is definitely a big plot-twist near the end! Even though it's not really my type of movie, it was fun to watch it with my brother and sister. I've actually really been enjoying this song today. I've listened to it several times. It's rather long, but I love some of the lyrics. They seem applicable to me somehow. The song grows on you and.....I don't know. There's just something about it that makes me keep coming back and listening to it again and again. Maybe someday I'll figure out why. The beginning is really beautiful; from the piano to the words, it's just....magical! The chorus is really beautiful too! Caught in a never-ending game Seems like the world's still trying to tame me If that's the way, I will obey Beautifully struggle every day Shou...

Song: Happy Artist: Michael Jackson HAPPY SEPTEMBER!! As of right now, I'm feeling quite hopeful and optimistic about having a good month. That doesn't mean it won't be filled with bad days, hard conversations and probably lots of tears but, each of those parts are necessary for me to get to where I ultimately want and need to be. Happy.  I actually just listened to this song for the first time ever on my walk yesterday. It immediately made my heart feel happy and brought a peace that was desperately needed. The day before yesterday was a really hard, really bad day. I was at one of the lowest points on my roller-coaster of mental health. I was so sad, so angry, so lonely, so miserable. I felt stuck and abandoned. This song, warmed my heart. It made me feel light, after a night of feeling so heavy I was drowning in a black lake of misery. It brought me back into the sun. It was a light in the darkness of my life. One of the reasons this song struck me with such em...