Music is my Therapy

HAPPY MARTIN LUTHER KING JR. DAY!! This quote reminds me of the sweet song  In Our Small Way   by Michael Jackson :) "I may be poor, but I am somebody. I may be young, but I am somebody. I may be small, but I am somebody. I may make a mistake, but I am somebody. I am black, brown, white I speak a different language, but I must be respected, protected, never rejected. I am somebody." I've been reading a small biography on the life of Martin Luther King Jr. and have been absolutely inspired by this incredible man! He endured terrible persecution and injustice as he fought for the most basic rights of human decency. This time period in American history has always been fascinating to me. I remember watching the movie  Ruby Bridges   as a very young girl and feeling horrified by the way people treated a child. I couldn't comprehend the fact that grown men and women were screaming at, threatening and actually trying to hurt this little g...

Song: Lifeline Artist: Papa Roach I wrote some sort of twisted poem just now. It's a poem written by all the years of depression and anxiety I have lived through up to this point in my life. I'm sorry I can't start this year off on a light, positive, happy note. Because I feel dead and hollow and drained inside. Here is what I wrote: I feel like I killed myself. I feel like I have been killing myself for the past 14 years. 14 years ago I was 13. I wasn't brave enough. Strong enough. I stopped trying. I gave up. I left. And the slow, quiet death began. I isolated myself from the world. From everyone. I became a shadow; silent, barely visible, only showing up every once in a while. Then gone. Every year I failed myself a little bit more. I failed everyone and anyone who believed in me. Every year I fed the monster. The monster I was born with. The monster who lives inside of me. I feel like I've finally reached my ultimate breaking point. The mo...

Song: We Can Be Together Forever Someday Artist: Michael McLean Today was a sad day :( Several of my family members have left. The holidays are coming to an end. It's been such a fun Christmas, surrounded by family. We were almost all together again (minus my little bro who is still out on his mission). We got to talk to him via Skype Christmas Day so for about one hour, everyone , me and all my siblings, our parents and our new nephew/grandson were all together! It was special. Since my family is growing and changing so much, I know this was really and truly a special and unique time for us. Next year, my younger sister will be gone on a mission (even though my current missionary brother will be back) and my married sister, brother-in-law and nephew will be with the other side of their family. I don't know if we will really ever experience another Christmas all together again. And who knows when the next kid will get married (my guess is my missionary brother) and be bringi...

Song: Silent Night Artist: Josh Groban Today we celebrate the birth of the Savior! This is what Christmas  is all about! For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. (John 3:16) For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counselor, The mighty God, The everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace. (Isaiah 9:6) And she brought forth her firstborn son, and wrapped him in swaddling clothes, and laid him in a manger; because there was no room for them in the inn. (Luke 2:7) For, behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people....For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord.....And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God, and saying, Glory to God in the highest, and...

Song: Candlelight Carol Artist: Tabernacle Choir at Temple Square M E R R Y C H R I S T M A S ! ! I've had another wonderful Christmas! It didn't end up being a "white" Christmas (the first time in years ) and although I was bummed and super disappointed about it, I still had a great day exchanging gifts with family, eating delicious food and visiting loved ones. I wish everyone could be as blessed as I am. I truly hope to keep the spirit of Christmas with me all through the year! Also, I have been planning on posting this song since last Christmas on Christmas day! I thought it was so beautiful and tender after hearing it during church. So, Merry Christmas! How do you capture the wind on the water? How do you count all the stars in the sky? How do you measure the love of a mother Or how can you write down a baby's first cry? Candlelight, angel light, firelight and star-glow Shine on his cradle till breaking of dawn Silent night, holy night, all...

Song: O Holy Night Artist: Celine Dion For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counsellor, The mighty God, The everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace. ( Isaiah 9:6 & 2 Nephi 19:6 ) Of the increase of his government and peace there shall be no end, upon the throne of David, and upon his kingdom, to order it, and to establish it with judgment and with justice from henceforth even for ever. The zeal of the Lord of hosts will perform this. ( Isaiah 9:7 & 2 Nephi 19:7 ) O Holy night, the stars are brightly shining It is the night of our dear Savior's birth Long lay the world in sin and error pining 'Til He appeared and the soul felt its worth A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn Fall on your knees O hear the angel voices O night divine! O night when Christ was born O night divine! O night, O nigh...

Song: The Night Before Christmas Artist: Amy Grant M E R R Y C H R I S T M A S E V E ! ! ! It's the most beautiful, magical, wonderful time of the year! I am so thankful to be spending another Christmas with my family! I am so grateful for how blessed my family and I truly are. I am grateful we get to be all together and exchange gifts and eat good food, watch our favorite Christmas movies, put together puzzles, etc. I feel so very blessed and fortunate. This song just seems appropriate for this Christmas Eve ;) Not only because of the wonderful  message but also because it actually is the night before Christmas! Children carry through the streets A brightly painted star Angels gather 'round the hearth Strumming on guitars And men of great renown and faith Say prayers on boulevards It's the night before Christmas But you don't have to be an angel To sing harmony You don't have to be a child To love the mystery And you don't have to be a...