31 on the 31st

Song(s): I Know, Bad Thoughts & Mercy

Artist: Rachel Platten

These songs hit deep. Very personal and relatable for me; been listening non-stop.

I Know

God this is embarrassing

I'm crying on a Saturday night

I can't believe I'm back here, two days ago the world was alright

This winters been forever, does it feel like someone’s stretching out time?

My head is such a mess right now, I feel like I'm losin' my mind

There's just so much that I don't know right now

But I know, I know, I know

The storms will come and go

And though I feel alone

This too shall pass, I know

I know, I know, I know

There are no highs without the lows

And though my heart feels broken

This too shall pass, I know

I shouldn't doubt myself, it's obvious what this is about

My fear is like a river, and honestly, I'm scared I will drown

I'm sick of all this crying, isn't there a time when my tears run out? Ooh, ooh

My friends think I'm courageous, but that's crazy 'cause I'm so full of doubt

There's just so much that I don't know right now

But I know, I know, I know

The storms will come and go

And though I feel alone

This too shall pass, I know

I know, I know, I know

There are no highs without the lows

And though my heart feels broken

This too shall pass, I know

Ooh, ooh, ooh, oh

Ooh, ooh, ooh, oh

Come on and deliver me, deliver me, deliver me

Yeah, come on and deliver me

This pain won’t last, this too shall pass, I know

Come on and deliver me, deliver me, come on, deliver me

Come on and deliver me

This pain won’t last, this too shall pass, I know

Mm-mm, mm-mm, mm-mm

This too shall pass, I know

Bad Thoughts

Breathe in

Breathe out

Can someone tell me I'm not going crazy?

The thoughts in my head make me hate me

Maybe I'm too far from saving

Can someone check that the room isn't spinning?

Seems like the oxygen's thinnin'

The monsters in my head keep winnin'

I'm bigger than the bad thoughts

I'm better than the way they make me feel

I won't let the bad thoughts (Mm-mm) take the wheel

I'm bigger than the bad thoughts

I'm brighter than the light they tryna steal

Ooh, so why do they feel so real?

Breathe in

Breathe out

Sometimes I don't like the cards that I'm handed

Life can feel too hard to manage

I'm proud of myself for just standing

When the lights feel too real that the door shuts on reasons

Voice in my heads preys on my biggest weakness

I count my breaths, "One, two, three, four"

I'm bigger than the bad thoughts

I'm better than the way they make me feel

I won't let the bad thoughts (Mm-mm) take the wheel

I'm bigger than the bad thoughts

I'm brighter than the light they tryna steal

Ooh, but why do they feel so real

When I know they're not real?

Breathe in

Breathe out

Just 'cause I think something don't make it true

I've been here before, but I've gotten through

Maybe not now, but I'll be okay soon

Maybe not now, but I'll be okay soon

I'm bigger than the bad thoughts

I'm brighter than the light they tryna steal

I won't let the bad thoughts (Mm-mm) take the wheel

I'm bigger than the lonely nights

I'm brighter than the light they tryna steal

Ooh, so why do they feel so real?

I know they're not real

Bad thoughts aren't real

I'ma be alright, I'ma be alright

I'ma be alright, I'ma be alright

I'ma be alright, I'ma be alright

I'ma be alright, I'ma be alright

I'ma be, I'ma be alright, I'ma be alright

I'ma be alright, I'ma be alright

I'ma be alright, I'ma be alright

I'ma be alright, I'ma be alright

I'ma be alright, I'ma be alright

I'ma be alright, I'ma be alright

I'ma be alright, I'ma be alright

I'ma be alright, I'ma be alright

Mercy

There's dirt in my nails

From scraping the walls

And I thought I hit bottom

So why am I still falling?

I know who I am

I didn't forget

But I just need relief

And I won't give up yet

But God, this is all feeling so hard

Why am I lost out in the dark?

And why am I struggling just to keep standing?

Tears won't stop coming and I don't understand them

Maybe it's true that I'm getting stronger

But this really hurts me, I'm crying, ooh, mercy

I'm crying, ooh, oh, mercy

I'm too hard on myself

I never let myself fail

But then my body screams help

And my mind wants to bail

I just wanna be real

Stop pretending I'm good

And feel what I feel

Not what I think should

But, oh, God, this is all feeling so hard

Why am I lost out in the dark?

And why did you leave me all alone

Facing the worst pain that I've known?

And maybe it's true that I'm getting strongеr

But this really hurts me, crying, ooh, mercy (Mеrcy)

I'm crying, ooh, oh, mercy (Mercy)

Oh, yeah

Come on, love me now

Come on, love me now

Come on, love me now

Love me now, love me now

Come on and help me out

Come on and help me out

Come on and help me out, help me out

Ooh

I'm crying mercy, oh

On my knees, mercy

Oh, mercy

Ooh, oh, mercy (Mercy)

Yeah, come on, mercy, love

Come on, love me now

Come on, love me now

Come on, love me now

Love me now, crying mercy

Help me, mercy (Come on and help me out)

(Come on and help me out)

(Come on and help me out)

Ooh, mercy