2 years 🖤🤍💔🕊🐾🌈🦋
How has it been 2 entire years??
It doesn't feel real. It doesn't feel right.
I still miss you more than words can express. I still think about you daily. You are always on my mind and in my heart. I wear my necklace with your name proudly. I've gotten better talking about you with others; reminiscing on sweet stories and memories. I've been walking down our old trails a lot this summer. I've seen lots and lots of butterflies this summer too! 🦋 Thank you for sending those beautiful, happy reminders that you're walking right beside me. I feel your sweet presence.
It still hurts to say goodbye (as I'm still saying good-bye and always will. You should be here, where you belong) but your love was worth it. Worth every tear and heartbreak. I would do it all over if I could, life with you. I was happiest when I was with you. I am SO PROUD to have been part of your life! And to have you as the BIGGEST and BEST part of mine! How lucky am I to have had you for so long. I will always remember you and love you and miss you for the rest of my life! 🖤🤍💔
July 31st will always be a hard day for me. It was the absolute WORST day of my life two years ago. I will never forget that day, it was surreal. It didn't feel real. I can remember the pain that burst from my shattered heart all day long from the moment I woke up and realized I had fallen asleep on our last night together and to see you sleeping so peacefully when it had been so hard for you to do so. It helped ease a little of the pain. I remember taking a picture of you curled up on your favorite bed and sobbed knowing it was the last time you'd lay there next to me. The way I wailed in the car calling for you to come back. How I sat outside in the middle of the night my body racked with sobs. How I hated being in our bedroom because you weren't there. I couldn't bring myself to touch your food and water bowls. I couldn't throw away the homemade dog treats I'd made to help you take your medicine a little easier, you LOVED them! They worked like a charm.
As hard as July 31st will always be, I also want it to be a day of remembrance of the best and most special dog that ever lived! I want to celebrate your life and love every day, but especially on big days, like this one. Your life was perfect. YOU are PERFECT. Still. I know I'll see you again! I have to! 🤍
This song is dedicated to you today because it's still how I feel when I think of you. When I look at the empty spot where your food and water dishes sat for so long. When I walk down our old trails, sidewalks and paths. When I catch a whiff of your very distinct smell. When I hear the jingling of a dog collar. When I roll the windows down and feel the wind in my hair. You are everywhere I go and in everything, always. 🤍✨
"This song is about losing someone, feeling like every time you go out you expect to just bump into them, and everything just reminds me of them and the things you did together. You sorta have to take yourself out of reality sometimes to numb the pain of loss, but certain things just bring you right back into it. Blue... is all I feel. And I guess music helps heal, so I'm dancing with my eyes closed to try to get through it." - Ed Sheeran. Beautifully said 💓🙏 I whole-heartedly agree. It's why my boy was the first thing to come to mind when I listened to this song. 💔
I know it's a bad idea
But how can I help myself?
Been inside for most this year
And I thought a few drinks, they might help
It's been a while, my dear
Dealing with the cards life dealt
I'm still holding back these tears
While my friends are somewhere else
I pictured this year a little bit different
When it hit February
I step in the bar, it hit me so hard
Oh, how can it be this heavy?
Every song reminds me you're gone
And I feel the lump form in my throat
'Cause I'm here alone
Just dancing with my eyes closed
'Cause everywhere I look I still see you
And time is moving so slow
And I don't know what else that I can do
So I'll keep dancing with my
Eye-eye-eye-eyes
Eye-eye-eye-eyes closed
Eye-eye-eye-eyes
So I'll keep dancing with my
Delusion is here again
And I think you'll come home soon
A word brings me right back in
Then it's only me that's in this room
I guess I could just pretend
The colours are more than blue
But I lost more than my friend
I can't help but missing you
I pictured this month a little bit different
No one is ever ready
And when it unfolds, you get in a hole
Oh, how can it be this heavy?
Everything changes, nothing's the same
Except the truth is now you're gone
And life just goes on
So I'm dancing with my eyes closed
'Cause everywhere I look I still see you
And time is moving so slow
And I don't know what else that I can do
So I'll keep dancing with my
Eye-eye-eye-eyes
Eye-eye-eye-eyes closed
Eye-eye-eye-eyes
So I'll keep dancing with my
Eye-eye-eye-eyes
Eye-eye-eye-eyes closed
Eye-eye-eye-eyes
Oh, I keep dancing with my
They're shutting the bar
They're cleaning the floor
And everyone is already home
But I'm on my own
Still dancing with my eyes closed
'Cause everywhere I look I still see you
Time is moving so slow
And I don't know what else that I can do
So I'll keep dancing with my
Eye-eye-eye-eyes
Eye-eye-eye-eyes closed
Eye-eye-eye-eyes
Oh, I keep dancing with my
Eye-eye-eye-eyes
Eye-eye-eye-eyes closed
Eye-eye-eye-eyes
Oh, I keep dancing with my
I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS!!!
YOU ARE MY BEST FRIEND AND THAT WILL NEVER CHANGE!!
FLY HIGH MY ANGEL!! RUN FREE!! KEEP CHASING BUTTERFLIES!!
NO LONGER HERE, BUT NEVER FORGOTTEN!!
UNTIL WE'RE TOGETHER AGAIN, I SEND ALL MY LOVE!! ALWAYS.
🖤🤍💔🕊🐾🌈🦋
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