Lord Remind Me (that You see me in my lowest moments 🙏🤍)

Song: Lord Remind Me

Artist: Jon & Valerie Guerra

If this songs sounds familiar it's because I shared it during my 28 on the 28th posts two (!!) years ago.

Today was bad. I was bad. I was selfish. I gave in. I gave up. I feel so ashamed. It's the same old story. I'm sick and tired of repeating it. And I'm sure you're sick and tired of hearing it. "We get it, you're life sucks! Shut up about it already!" I know I don't deserve pity or even words of encouragement right now. You can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped. You can lead a camel to water, but you can't make it drink. That's me. I'm the camel. And I keep refusing the water even though I'm so thirsty and keep telling everyone I'm thirsty. THEN DRINK!!

As I was sitting here feeling sorry for myself my mind went to a scene from The Chosen (can you tell this show has had a significant impact on me?). It's about the apostle Nathanael (before he met Christ). In this scene, his life isn't panning out how he thought it would, although he had been faithful, and he cries out to God, hoping to receive an answer to his prayers. All he gets in return however, is silence, which makes him ask, "Do not hide you're face from me in the day of my distress. Incline your ear to me. Answer me speedily in the day that I call. No? Do not hide your face from me! Do you see me!? Do you see me?"  

This scene brought to mind so many different times in my own life where I was Nathanael. Crying out "Do you see me!? Do you care!?" It's exactly how I've been feeling today. I feel my prayers are falling on deaf ears. I haven't received any help, any answer to my prayers despite my best efforts. The silence that follows his pleas are deafening and something I feel happens to me so often when I'm on my knees begging God to see me. Answer me. Help me.

And then Nathanael meets Jesus. And again, this show, this actor, delivers the most powerful, moving, beautiful reply to Nathanael's earlier cries: "When you were in your lowest moment, and you were alone, I did not turn my face from you. I saw you." 

Gets me every time! 😭🙏 And then when Nathanael realizes who Jesus is and Jesus says, "There it is." It's so beautiful! It's like Christ is saying "I see you. And I see that you finally recognize me. I'm really here. I always have been." 💓 God is there. He's always there. We just have to see Him. We have to look for Him. I have to learn how to recognize when and how He is communicating with me. There's a lot I need to work on. But I know He's there. I know He doesn't really ever abandon me or doesn't hear my prayers.

I needed this reminder today. Here's to "seeing God" the way He sees me. And remembering that He has "not turned His face from me" but does, indeed see me. 🙏

This song helps me think about my Savior and the true meaning of Christmas, even in the midst of darkness and troubles, in the world and in my mind.

When children play on Christmas day and snow is flung

When I feel I haven't had a friend since I was young

And I'm feeling tired of myself and everyone

Lord remind me

Lord remind me

That the shepherds heard the angels break

He silence in the field

That the Wise men found a baby and

They could not help but kneel

That the one who heard our weeping

Became a child in manger sleeping

Lord remind me

Cause it's Christmas and I want to remember

When I hear the news and hear another war has begun

And I wonder if God's on the side of either one

I hear bullet nail or handcuff he bore all of them

And in the light my heart's as dark as anyone's

Lord remind me

Lord remind me

That the shepherds heard the angels break

The silence in the field

That the Wise men found a baby and

They could not help but kneel

That the one who heard our weeping

Became a child in manger sleeping

Lord remind me

Cause it's Christmas and I want to remember

Tell me how he loves me

Tell me how he wants me

Tell me the story like I've never heard before

And I'll sing it, like the angels singing

With my whole heart sing it

To him who's worth a thousand songs and more

Glory in the highest

Glory in the lowest

Glory that shines 

When nothing seems to shine at all

Glory in the highest

Glory in the lowest

Glory Emmanuel

Glory in the highest

Glory in the lowest

Glory Emmanuel

Emmanuel

Lord remind me

Lord remind me

That the paralytic rose and stood up

Proud on his own feet

That the thief who hung beside you is with you now

And waits for me

That the cry of faith so simple

Is the greatest song in heaven's hymnal

Lord remind me

Cause it's Christmas and I want to remember

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

GOD BLESS YOU!