Change

I can't bring myself to post a Halloween inspired tune today. That's going to have to wait for tomorrow.

My heart is full of love and repentance. As you may know, if you've been following my blog for the past several years, General Conference Sunday always falls during the first week of October. I just finished listening to the final session of the October 2022 conference. Love for our dear Prophet, President Russell M. Nelson fills my heart to over-flowing. I pray for him. I love him and I felt his love today, especially as his voice broke with emotion during his final remarks. I am filled with love and a renewed commitment to follow my Savior. To honor Him and remember Him always. He is the Good Shepherd who knows each of His sheep by name, including myself. As the Lamb of God, He willingly gave His life for us, His beloved sheep. 

For the past week I have felt swallowed up in a pit of guilt and deep shame for my past and my mistakes. As I cried out for forgiveness just moments ago, I felt a warm and enveloping peace fill my heart and soul. A blanket of comfort that seems to tell me "your sins are forgiven. Go and sin no more." I know I will continue to make mistakes and fall short but I have a burning desire to do and be better! To put in the spiritual work to strengthen my testimony and know my Savior. Learn of Him and feel His love for me. I need Him.

The Spirit is too strong and my heart is too full to share anything but this song:

Song: Tears On His Feet

Artist: Nashville Tribute Band feat. Cardin Lopez

I was down on my knees feeling so weak and helpless not 10 minutes ago. As I felt the sweet peace of forgiveness come over me, the words of this song came to my mind. I am grateful for my Savior and His Atonement on my behalf. I am so grateful that the Savior suffered all, so He might succor all. I am recommitting my heart and my life to Him. He is the only way I can ever find true peace and healing. I have been so broken for so long. I am grateful for the testimonies that were shared today. They have strengthened my own and I am ready to change. 

I heard he’d be here tonight

I had but little to give but I had to try

As I approached the courtyard leading to where they dined

My heart was racing and I was terrified 

And I tried to speak

But all I did was weep

Tears on His feet

I dried His skin with my hair, it’s all I had

My sins were scarlet in this room and I heard the gasps

I had some ointment, the last that I owned in my hand

And I bowed myself as low as I could and kissed him

And I tried to speak

But all I did was weep

Tears on His feet

Let them say what they say

Let them judge who they may

But I felt the world and all its weight

Lift as he said

Thy sins are forgiven

Thy sins are forgiven

My sins are forgiven

My sin are forgiven

And I tried to speak

But all I did was weep

Tears on His feet