Grateful For Music Challenge Day 4

Song: Talking to the Moon

Artist: Bruno Mars

Another song I find myself relating to my feelings and overall mental state with the passing of my sweet puppy. 

I'm going to my second session of therapy today. I'm feeling anxious. I hate focusing so much on myself and having to be honest, open and vulnerable. I'm not proud of the kind of person I am and having to admit that to someone, let alone a complete stranger, know about all my flaws and shortcomings is scary. I've also been so emotional the past several months, I'm worried I'm going to break down sobbing. I know that reaction is probably quite normal under the circumstances but I absolutely LOATH crying; especially in front of other people. My face turns bright red and every part of my face that already has any natural redness to it in general (my lips and, as of right now, my adult acne I can't seem to get rid of) are accentuated in the most unflattering way. I also get really snotty (TMI 😬) and I can't get myself under control. I'm like a waterfall, once I start I can't stop! And it's not like a cute little sniffle or anything like that; I can't even speak with the intensity of my tears. I think it's from bottling things up and keeping them to myself for so long that when someone finally starts to break down the walls, it's an explosion of all that pent up pain, anger and sadness. 

Anyway. I find this song to be so beautiful and so sad. It comforts me but also makes me cry. Everyone needs a good song they can cry to every once in a while (as long as one is BY THEMSELVES and can really go all ugly cry without an audience...).

I know you're somewhere out there

Somewhere far away

I want you back

I want you back

My neighbors think I'm crazy

But they don't understand

You're all I had

You're all I had

At night when the stars light up my room

I sit by myself talking to the moon

Tryna get to you

In hopes you're on the other side talking to me too

Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon?

I'm feeling like I'm famous

The talk of the town

They say I've gone mad

Yeah, I've gone mad

But they don't know what I know

'Cause when the sun goes down

Someone's talking back

Yeah, they're talking back

At night when the stars light up my room

I sit by myself talking to the moon

Tryna get to you

In hopes you're on the other side talking to me too

Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon?

Do you ever hear me calling?

'Cause every night I'm talking to the moon

Still tryna get to you

In hopes you're on the other side talking to me too

Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon?

I know you're somewhere out there

Somewhere far away