Grateful For Music Challenge Day 3

Song: Autumn Leaves 🍁

Artist: Nat King Cole

I had an early morning doctors appointment today. The world was just beginning to wake up and I witnessed a gorgeous pink sunrise. It's always so beautiful to watch the world go from dark grey of the fading night to the brilliant golden sun burst of the coming day. It feels new, alive and fresh. 

I also noticed leaves! 🍂 So many leaves in so many different colors. Some a brilliant, golden yellow, some a bright flaming red and others brown, crinkly and dry. Piles of leaves on the grass, covering the sidewalks, littering yards and some still clinging to the branches. 

November is a month of death. Not only because of the Mexican holiday Día de los Muertos, but also because of these fallen leaves. The trees will soon be bare and winter will be here. All plant life will die. I know in only a few months time spring will breathe new life into the trees, grass and flowers. But as of now, nature is "dying." It's not a sad death necessarily but an ending of an old year preparing for a new. 2021 grows weary and will soon fade into the past with 2020, 2019, 2018, etc. and be but a distant memory.

These were some of my early morning thoughts as I looked out my window. The song title is fitting, as this is the time of year where the leaves are falling more rapidly from their branches to the ground, in their various colored shades. This song has a very melancholy feel to it. It matches the way I have been feeling the past couple of days. I am still mourning the loss of my dog. With the colder weather, I feel colder inside. I reflected on my dog a lot yesterday, looking through pictures and remembering all the moments I spent with him. I thought about him as I drove home today and passed by the trails and sidewalks we used to walk. We would be out walking right now if he were still here. Enjoying the colder weather, crunching through the leaves, Christmas music in my ears. 

As the year mourns it's coming end with the loss of "life" I too mourn. Mourn for the one thing that made me feel alive and happy to be alive. I mourn our comfortable routine and the daily reassurance that, no matter what I did that day, how badly I failed or how productive I was, at the end of the day I had my little buddy to cuddle with. He would shower me with kisses and let me know he loved me simply for being me. That we had each other and that was enough. I mourn for the loss of the most perfect life that ever lived. And the most perfect love I have ever felt. 💔

The falling leaves drift by the window

The autumn leaves of red and gold

I see your lips, the summer kisses

The sun-burned hands I used to hold

Since you went away the days grow long

And soon I'll hear old winter's song

But I miss you most of all my darling

When autumn leaves start to fall

Since you went away the days grow long

And soon I'll hear old winter's song

But I miss you most of all my darling

When autumn leaves start to fall