One Month to the Day

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It's been exactly one month,

One month to the day. The absolute worst day of my life.

I haven't had much time to dwell on things since I had an upsetting experience yesterday and I've been venting about it all day. I don't want to talk about it here though.

I can't believe it's been a month. A month without my little puppy dog. I still have days and moments where I don't feel it's real. I still think I can hear him during the night. Or a scratch at the door. I still haven't been able to bring myself to delete his medication reminders on my phone. They're always popping up. It still doesn't feel like he's really gone. It sucks. I don't know what to do. My life feels pointless and meaningless without him. He was my world.

I miss his touch. His presence. I miss his smell and his kisses. I miss everything about him. 

I pray that he's happy and healthy and peaceful. I pray that he is watching over me and waiting for me. I could really use a cuddle right now! I'm not feeling well and I have a million other emotions swirling around in my heart and mind (stress, anxiety, guilt, embarrassment, anger, frustration, sadness). What I would give to hold him to me one last time. To feel his kisses. 

I still shed a tear (or sometimes have a full on melt down) every single day. This pain will never really fade. The dog of my life and my heart. Dogs are one of God's most beautiful and perfect creations. They are the physical representation of God's love on earth. And mine was the best there ever was or ever will be. My perfect gift from God. I was so lucky to have him! 🤍🖤

Never Dreamed You'd Leave In Summer

I never dreamed you'd leave in summer. I thought the cold would leave by summer; but my quiet nights will be spent alone. I never dreamed you'd leave in summer; but now I find my love has gone away. Why didn't you stay?


Wildflowers

You belong among the wildflowers...You belong somewhere you feel free. You belong among the wildflowers. You belong somewhere close to me. Far away from your trouble and worries. You belong somewhere you feel free.

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