28 on the 28th (April)

Song: My Stress

Artist: NF

Some days, I just wanna leave the negativity in my head

I just want relief from my stress

I just want relief from my stress

Some days, I don't want to see or

Have a bunch of people to impress

I just want relief from my stress

Yeah, I just want relief from my stress

Late nights, starin' out the window doin' 85

Got my state of mind

Yeah, walkin' on that grey line

Hopin' that my stress dies

It's like I hate it but I love it at the same time

Pressure pushin' me from all sides

Insecurities of all kinds

Yeah, I'm a hostage to my own pride

Most important things in life to me are things I know I can't buy

Yeah, hit's me in phases

I'm not in the mood, yeah, to meet another stranger

I'm not in the mood, yeah, to have a conversation

And talk about a bunch of things that I don't feel amazed with

Gettin' too close to me, whoa

Could be dangerous

I don't like the energy, I leave the situation

All this negativity, yeah, I can't get away from

All this negativity, I think I need a break from

I'm thankful but

Some days, I just wanna leave the negativity in my head

I just want relief from my stress

I just want relief from my stress

Some days, I don't want to see or

Have a bunch of people to impress

I just want relief from my stress

Yeah, I just want relief from my stress

Yo, this life got my head spinnin'

Wonder what I'd do if I knew these were my last minutes

Wonder if I had a week to live, would I stay trippin'?

Wastin' every day that I had left tryna sell tickets

Or maybe call my dad, say I love him and laugh with him

Take a couple days and get away from this fast livin'

I don't love my work the way I did

Man, this whole business has got me feelin' jaded

Friends that I had, now they act different

It's all switchin', whoa

Yeah, it's pretty hard to watch things you used to love

Turn to things you wish you forgot

Real moments that make you question the things that you want

Got me growin' mentally, but stressin' me out 'til I drop over the top

Swear I live on a daily basis

I always find a way to find the bad in good situations

It's sad, huh?

Yeah, I live my life on the edge, don't want the meds

I'm just tryna get relief from my stress, you know

Some days, I just wanna leave the negativity in my head

I just want relief from my stress

I just want relief from my stress

Some days, I don't want to see or

Have a bunch of people to impress

I just want relief from my stress

Yeah, I just want relief from my stress

These stress levels are not healthy

I'm waitin' for that call sayin' records are not sellin'

I wonder when this all disappears and they forget me

Will I feel like I found who I was or be more empty

I wonder was I wrong thinkin' this is where God led me

Or did I get involved in somethin' that was too heavy?

I drive until I'm lost and just sit in my car yellin'

My inner critic talks, I'm just hopin' that God helps me

Just stop stressin'

Yeah

Some days (Some days), I just wanna leave the negativity in my head (I just wanna leave it)

I just want relief from my stress (Yeah, I just wanna leave it)

I just want relief from my stress

Some days (Some days), I don't want to see or

Have a bunch of people to impress

I just want relief from my stress

Yeah, I just want relief from my stress

Yeah

Yeah, some days

Yeah, some days

I just wanna leave the-

I just wanna leave the-

Song: Hate Myself

Artist: NF

I don't see you like I should

You look so misunderstood

And I wish I could help

But it's hard when I hate myself

Pray to God with my arms open

If this is it then I feel hopeless

And I wish I could help

But it's hard when I hate myself

Late nights are the worst for me

They bring out the worst in me

Mind running, got me feeling like it hurts to think

If this is all that I wanted, I don't want it

Gotta be more for me

More than core beliefs, and every morning I wake up

And feel like I am not worth it 'cause I'm at war with peace

I go to Hell, walk up to the corpse of me

Look at the body like you ain't nothin' but poor and weak

It's kinda weird, lately I've been feeling like the only way

For me to get away is if I poured a drink

That's more deceit, more defeat

Is this really what I'm born to be?

That's what you get for thinking you're unique

So poor but I'm so wealthy

Need help but you can't help me

What else can the world sell me? Tell me

Lies, I still buy 'em like they're goin' out of stock

But it's not healthy

I don't see you like I should

You look so misunderstood

And I wish I could help

But it's hard when I hate myself

Pray to God with my arms open

If this is it then I feel hopeless

And I wish I could help

But it's hard when I hate myself

Yeah, late nights get the best of me

They know how to get to me

Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me

But I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief

So don't talk to me like you think I'm so successful

What is success when hope has left you?

I am not a spokesman, I'm a broken record

Whose sick of doin' interviews 'cause I hate myself, ah

Come across like it's so easy

But I feel like you don't need me

When I feel like you don't need me

Then I feel like you don't see me

And my life has no meaning, dreaming

Hands out, tryna ask for love

But when I get it I just pass it up

Throw it away and think about it later

Diggin' through the trash for drugs

I wish I could give you what you needed

But I can't I'm scared because

I don't see you like I should

You look so misunderstood

And I wish I could help

But it's hard when I hate myself

Pray to God with my arms open

If this is it then I feel hopeless

And I wish I could help

But it's hard when I hate myself

I walk through the ashes of my passions

Reminiscin' with the baggage in my casket

Get lost in the questions I can't answer

Can't stand who I am but it don't matter

We scream to be free but I stay captured

Knee deep in defeat of my own actions

Feel weak but the peace that I keep lacking

Keeps speaking to me but I can't have it

But I can't have it

Keeps speaking to me but I can't have it

But I can't have it

Keeps speaking to me but I can't have it

I don't see you like I should

You look so misunderstood

And I wish I could help

But it's hard when I hate myself

Pray to God with my arms open

If this is it then I feel hopeless

And I wish I could help

But it's hard when I hate myself

Hate myself

But it's hard when I hate myself

Hate myself

But it's hard when I hate myself

And I hate myself

It's kind of hard when I hate myself

I hate myself

It's hard when I hate myself