I Will Remember You & It Must Have Been Love

Song(s): I Will Remember You & It Must Have Been Love

Artist(s): Sarah McLachlan & Roxette

Tuesday. 

That was the day. 

Every Tuesday for 5 years I spent in the company of "my little girl." Wow, those were some fun and memorable times! We would play games, watch shows (one of her first loves was Sesame Street, especially Elmo. He's my favorite now because of her 😊), go on walks to the park, when she used to take naps (or "quiet times") I would spend that time eating lunch, watching TV and/or working on my church lessons, I used to teach her church lessons because she couldn't go to church (due to a medical condition). When she got a little older, I started planning themed parties and activities, especially around the holidays. We read the entire Junie B. Jones book series together. I remember walking her to school and picking her up, we made banana bread, created music videos, played with her the same game over and over with her Princess toys (she loved it!). I used to read to her when she would eat her meals because she took so long! We would play "restaurant" where I was her waitress and would take her order 😌 Our summer's (after I stopped watching her year long) were always packed with activities from swimming pools, sprinklers, bike rides, picnics, visits to the library, to full-themed days (complete with games, crafts & snacks), outings to get snow cones, ice cream and check out new parks; all these memories come flooding back to my mind. 

Especially on Tuesdays. 

My last Tuesdays spent with her aren't quite as happy and memorable. She found me "cringey" "annoying" and "childish." She didn't want to do the things I planned anymore. She didn't want to work on crafts or go on biking adventures. She played video games. And would roll her eyes at me. And get mad at me when I told her she needed to take a break. 😑💔 I try not to think about those days... because the good times definitely out weigh the bad!

Today is Tuesday. The last Tuesday I'm going to allow myself to remember. To feel sad. To wish to go back. Tuesdays are forever changed for me as they will always remind me of that time in my life. And her. 

My first song, I Will Remember You, is a tribute to all those happy Tuesdays of the past. To the good times and the happy memories! 😄 I cherish those days! I'll always remember them and remember her; her excitement and joy and enthusiasm! I hope she remembers, even if just vaguely. Just a little. I hope she'll always remember me, even when she's grey and old. And I hope she'll remember me with love. Because I will always, always remember her.

I will remember you

Will you remember me?

Don't let your life pass you by

Weep not for the memories

Remember the good times that we had?

I let them slip away from us when things got bad

How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun

Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one

I will remember you

Will you remember me?

Don't let your life pass you by

Weep not for the memories

I'm so tired but I can't sleep

Standin' on the edge of something much too deep

It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word

We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard

But I will remember you

Will you remember me?

Don't let your life pass you by

Weep not for the memories

I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to lose

Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose

Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night

You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you

Will you remember me?

Don't let your life pass you by

Weep not for the memories

And I will remember you

Will you remember me?

Don't let your life pass you by

Weep not for the memories

Weep not for the memories

This second song is my "sad song." Feeling sad about how my last few Tuesdays went with her. Today is the last Tuesday I'm allowing myself to feel sad, mad and bitter about what happened last summer. Then it's time to accept it and move on. I really do love her! She will always hold a special place in my heart! I hope to maintain a relationship with her; at least just to keep in touch and see how she is from time to time. That doesn't necessarily mean I have to "babysit" her, but still see her and maybe chat with her. Hopefully she's had some time to forgive me. To remember that I'm not all that bad. That we had a lot of good times together and that we are bonded forever by love. 💞 Because we really did love each other - once (in the most innocent and familial way possible... nobody better be getting any creepy ideas here! She's like my little sister or niece!).

(It must have been love but it's over now)

Lay a whisper on my pillow

Leave the winter on the ground

I wake up lonely, there's air of silence

In the bedroom and all around

Touch me now, I close my eyes and dream away

It must have been love but it's over now

It must have been good but I lost it somehow

It must have been love but it's over now

From the moment we touched, 'til the time had run out

Make-believing we're together

That I'm sheltered by your heart

But in and outside I've turned to water

Like a teardrop in your palm

And it's a hard winter's day, I dream away

It must have been love but it's over now

It was all that I wanted, now I'm living without

It must have been love but it's over now

It's where the water flows, it's where the wind blows

It must have been love but it's over now

It must have been good but I lost it somehow

It must have been love but it's over now

From the moment we touched, 'til the time had run out

Yeah, it must have been love but it's over now

It was all that I wanted, now I'm living without

It must have been love but it's over now

It's where the water flows, it's where the wind blows

(Must have been love but it's over now)

(Must have been love but it's over now)