Will It Be Alright?

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Song: It'll Be Alright
Artist: Cody Francis

Will it though? I can't keep doing this. Day after day. I want to be done. I don't want to be alive anymore. It doesn't get better. It will never get better!!! For 27 years I have endured this torment of my mind. It never ends. I've been on medication. I've gone to therapy. Nothing works for me. I have never been normal. I have never fit in. I'm so pathetic. I hate myself. I hate everyone. My dog is the only reason I'm still here. The only reason. I don't see a future. There is no light at the end of the tunnel. I pray to God that He lets me die in my sleep. I'm not good at living. I feel uncomfortable every, single day. I have failed at everything. I have let everyone down. I have missed out on life. I'm not happy and I don't think I ever will be. I'm done. I want to be done!! PLEASE, let me be done!!

 This song is amazing and feels like it was written for me. I love it a lot.



Oh, my child, I know
You’re hurt and you can’t let go
It’s not your fault and you don’t deserve
All the bad and the hurt

Ooooo

 I know you've tried so hard

 Ooooo

 I know you’ve done your part
It’s not fair
You did your time
How much longer will you suffer in this life
But don’t give up
Just hold on tight
It’ll be alright

 All your life you’ve tried
To be a good man inside
Did everything that you thought you should
Did it seem to do you any good?

Ooooo

 I know you've tried so hard

 Ooooo

 I know you’ve done your part
It’s not fair
You did your time
How much longer will you suffer in this life
But don’t give up
Just hold on tight
It’ll be alright

Ooooo

 I know you've tried so hard

 Ooooo

 I know you’ve done your part
It’s not fair
You did your time
How much longer will you suffer in this life
But don’t give up
Just hold on tight
It’ll be alright



BTW: This is not Covid-19 related.....this is just me in a very dark and depressed head space that I've been in for a long time. I think it's time I go spend some time with Jesus right now (as in, I need to go read my scriptures.....that wasn't suppose to sound suicidal....I don't even know if I'm suicidal....I have thoughts of not wanting to be alive but I don't ever think about actually killing myself so....I don't know)

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