Hanson Month 2019 Day 27
Song: Young & Dumb
Artist: Hanson, Animal Instincts - 2018 Member EP
I just listened to my Animal Instincts EP again. I had been extremely disappointed in the Hanson Day 2018 live stream concert and then never really could get into the new music when I got it last year. I don't know why. In Color (the 2017 Member EP) is by far my favorite "members EP" to date. That could be due to the fact that I went to Hanson Day that year so I got to hear all of the new songs performed live for the first time in person, but it still remains my favorite to this day even after listening to all of the members only music throughout the month. So I guess I was comparing Animal Instincts a little too hard/unfairly with that one. Whatever the reason, I am just not as familiar with the songs.
But after giving it another listen today, I actually like it a lot more than I ever have before. I am highlighting this particular song because it has always been my favorite. The message is meaningful and for some reason, as I was focusing on the lyrics, it made me emotional .... and not in a necessarily good way. It's nothing against the song!! The song is amazing (hence why I'm posting it) but it just hit me square in the teeth and made me feel extreme guilt and sadness about my life and where I am. I feel like I've wasted life. I will never get those years or that time back. Thinking this way stresses me out and makes me feel extremely overwhelmed and anxious. I made myself sick from getting so upset about everything. But at the same time, simultaneously, it gave me a small spark of motivation. To change. To be "surrounded by the possibilities." To "fight for my life."
I'm sorry. I know this post is a little all over the place and a bit of a downer. But that's the power of music. It has the ability to make you think and change. I definitely feel this song should have been included on String Theory. It fits the story and narrative perfectly.
I pursued happiness
A tapestry of fluorescent bliss
But I'm dying on the vine
Don't recognize the view from here
A poor reflection in the rearview mirror
Of my own design
Every day is moving faster
Wanna hide from the disaster
But I'm a prisoner of my time
I'd rather be young and dumb
Surrounded by the possibility
Don't want to be old and numb
Wanna tell myself a lie I can believe
I wanna be young and dumb
I tried living in the ivory tower
Held down three jobs at ten an hour
Just to get into the door
Been a hero and a deadbeat
A pencil pusher and a piece of meat
Wish I could forget what I know
And when my eyes are clear
I see good intentions are a cheap veneer
For every evil justified
I'd rather be young and dumb
Surrounded by the possibility
Don't want to be old and numb
Wanna tell myself a lie
Wanna tell myself
I'd rather be young
And dumb
It's hard enough
To know it's not enough to know better
If these aching bones
And these jagged stones go together
Well I'd rather be young
Ashes to ashes
We all end up in a casket
Guess I'm fighting for my life
I'd rather be young and dumb
Surrounded by the possibility
Don't want to be old and numb
Wanna tell myself a lie
Wanna tell myself
I'd rather be young and dumb
Artist: Hanson, Animal Instincts - 2018 Member EP
I just listened to my Animal Instincts EP again. I had been extremely disappointed in the Hanson Day 2018 live stream concert and then never really could get into the new music when I got it last year. I don't know why. In Color (the 2017 Member EP) is by far my favorite "members EP" to date. That could be due to the fact that I went to Hanson Day that year so I got to hear all of the new songs performed live for the first time in person, but it still remains my favorite to this day even after listening to all of the members only music throughout the month. So I guess I was comparing Animal Instincts a little too hard/unfairly with that one. Whatever the reason, I am just not as familiar with the songs.
But after giving it another listen today, I actually like it a lot more than I ever have before. I am highlighting this particular song because it has always been my favorite. The message is meaningful and for some reason, as I was focusing on the lyrics, it made me emotional .... and not in a necessarily good way. It's nothing against the song!! The song is amazing (hence why I'm posting it) but it just hit me square in the teeth and made me feel extreme guilt and sadness about my life and where I am. I feel like I've wasted life. I will never get those years or that time back. Thinking this way stresses me out and makes me feel extremely overwhelmed and anxious. I made myself sick from getting so upset about everything. But at the same time, simultaneously, it gave me a small spark of motivation. To change. To be "surrounded by the possibilities." To "fight for my life."
I'm sorry. I know this post is a little all over the place and a bit of a downer. But that's the power of music. It has the ability to make you think and change. I definitely feel this song should have been included on String Theory. It fits the story and narrative perfectly.
I pursued happiness
A tapestry of fluorescent bliss
But I'm dying on the vine
Don't recognize the view from here
A poor reflection in the rearview mirror
Of my own design
Every day is moving faster
Wanna hide from the disaster
But I'm a prisoner of my time
I'd rather be young and dumb
Surrounded by the possibility
Don't want to be old and numb
Wanna tell myself a lie I can believe
I wanna be young and dumb
I tried living in the ivory tower
Held down three jobs at ten an hour
Just to get into the door
Been a hero and a deadbeat
A pencil pusher and a piece of meat
Wish I could forget what I know
And when my eyes are clear
I see good intentions are a cheap veneer
For every evil justified
I'd rather be young and dumb
Surrounded by the possibility
Don't want to be old and numb
Wanna tell myself a lie
Wanna tell myself
I'd rather be young
And dumb
It's hard enough
To know it's not enough to know better
If these aching bones
And these jagged stones go together
Well I'd rather be young
Ashes to ashes
We all end up in a casket
Guess I'm fighting for my life
I'd rather be young and dumb
Surrounded by the possibility
Don't want to be old and numb
Wanna tell myself a lie
Wanna tell myself
I'd rather be young and dumb
The highlight of Hanson Day 2018
BTTI 2019
HAPPY HANSON MONTH!
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