Michael in the Bathroom

Song: Michael in the Bathroom
Artist: From, Be More Chill

I literally found this song in the comment section of a Waving Through A Window video on youtube. And I'm so glad I did because it totally describes me. I have vivid memories of a time when I used to use the bathroom as a hiding place. A safe zone. To be away. To panic. I still do sometimes. Some of the lyrics in this song are just ..... perfect. Some are not super appropriate and I don't agree nor condone some of the content (i.e. drinking beer, taking weed, watching porn and being a stoner). But the message of this song is just too perfect for a socially anxious, depressed person like myself to pass by without being affected by it. Also, the last few words of this song are so darn relateable. "All you know about me is my name." That's pretty much all anyone knows about me. Because that's all I allow them to know. And all they seem to care to know.

I am hanging in the bathroom at the biggest party of the fall

I could stay right here or disappear, and nobody'd even notice at all

I'm a creeper in a bathroom 'cause my buddy kinda left me alone

But I'd rather fake pee than stand awkwardly, or pretend to check a text on my phone

Everything felt fine when I was half of a pair

Now through no fault of mine, there's no other half there

Now I'm just Michael in the bathroom, 

Michael in the bathroom, at a party

Forget how long it's been

I'm just Michael in the bathroom, 

Michael in the bathroom at a party

No you can't come in!

I'm waiting it out 'til it's time to leave

And picking at grout as I softly grieve

I'm just Michael who you don't know, Michael flyin' solo, 

Michael in the bathroom by himself

Oh, by himself

I am hiding, but he's out there, just ignoring all our history

Memories get erased, and I'll get replaced, with a newer, cooler version of me

And I hear a drunk girl sing along to Whitney through the door - I wanna dance with somebody!

And my feelings sink, 'cause it makes me think: 

now there's no one to make fun of drunk girls with anymore!

Now it's just Michael in the bathroom, 

Michael in the bathroom at a party

I half regret the beers

Michael in the bathroom, 

Michael in the bathroom at a party

As I choke back the tears

I'll wait as long as I need, until my face is dry

Or I'll just blame it on weed, or something in my eye!

I'm just Michael who you don't know, Michael flyin' solo

Michael in the bathroom by himself!

Knock, knock, knock, knock

They're gonna start to shout soon

Knock, knock, knock, knock

Oh hell yeah, I'll be out soon

Knock, knock, knock, knock

It sucks you left me here alone-

Knock, knock, knock, knock

Here in this teenage battle zone-

Clang, clang, clang, clang

I feel the pressure blowing up-

Bang, bang, bang, bang

My big mistake was showing up-

Splash, splash, splash, splash

I throw some water in my face

And I am in a better place

I go to open up the door

But I can't hear knocking

Anymore

And I can't help but yearn

For a different time

And then I look in the mirror

And the present is clearer

And there's no denying, I'm just-

At a party

Is there a sadder sight than-

*hums*

Michael in the bathroom at a party

This is a heinous night

I wish I stayed at home in bed watching cable porn

Or wish I offed myself instead

Wish I was never born!

I'm just Michael who's a loner

So he must be a stoner

Rides a PT Cruiser

God he's such a loser

Michael flyin' solo

Who you think that you know

Michael in the bathroom by himself

Oh, by himself

Oh, by himself

All you know about me is my name

Awesome party

I'm so glad I came