Waving Through A Window

Song: Waving Through A Window

Artist: From, Dear Evan Hansen

 

I'M BACK!! Looks like I took a little bit longer of a break than I originally planned .... but my vacation was actually extended by a day and then I took the weekend off just to relax with my family while we were all together. I had an AMAZING vacation at the happiest place on earth: DISNEYLAND!! It was truly magical! I am so grateful for the opportunity I had to go and be with my family for probably the last time :( That makes me sad to think about. But everything is changing and everyone is growing up so .... anyway, it's been really, really hard getting back to real life. I'm really sad to be back. I didn't want it to end, I want to go back!! #majordisneylandwithdrawls

 

My sister introduced me to this brilliant song while on our trip. Needless to say, I'm OBSESSED! Not only because it's a great song but this is one of the the most relateable songs I have ever heard. New theme song of my life for sure. This song is from a new Broadway musical called Dear Evan Hansen that is about a boy with SOCIAL ANXIETY and depression. I have to see this someday! I mean, it's a musical based on mental health issues, the very two that I suffer from! It's a musical shedding light upon the reality and seriousness and pain of mental health issues. When I was first diagnosed with SA years ago, it seemed so taboo. No one seemed to even know what it was. I remember feeling so embarrassed and sad and angry that I had this problem. It seemed like such a big deal and I didn't want anyone to know about it, not even my siblings and extended family members. These past few years though it seems there has been more information about anxiety disorders and people are becoming more aware and understanding.

 

This song describes the thoughts and feelings of someone suffering from crippling social anxiety perfectly. You feel trapped. You feel invisible. So invisible and unnoticed and forgotten that you begin wanting it to stay that way (give them no reason to stare). But deep down, in your heart of hearts you don't. You want to be seen. You want to be noticed. The chorus is just .... there are too many feels happening right now!! I'm going to do another post later this week (probably tomorrow) breaking down this song and explaining my thoughts and how I interpret each part .... because each part of this song is truly so me and so relateable I just HAVE to! If anyone wants to understand me, listen to this song. Read the lyrics. And you'll get a glimpse into what it's like to be me. To live and feel the way I do every. single. day.

 

 

I've learned to slam on the brake
Before I even turn the key
Before I make the mistake
Before I lead with the worst of me
Give them no reason to stare
No slipping up if you slip away
So I've got nothing to share
No, I got nothing to say

Step out, step out of the sun
If you keep getting burned
Step out, step out of the sun
Because you've learned, because you've learned

On the outside always looking in
Will I ever be more than I've always been?
'Cause I'm tap, tap, tapping on the glass
I'm waving through a window
I try to speak, but nobody can hear
So I wait around for an answer to appear
While I'm watch, watch, watching people pass
I'm waving through a window
Oh, can anybody see, is anybody waving
Back at me?

We start with stars in our eyes
We start believing that we belong
But every sun doesn't rise
And no one tells you where you went wrong

Step out, step out of the sun
If you keep getting burned
Step out, step out of the sun
Because you've learned, because you've learned

On the outside always looking in
Will I ever be more than I've always been?
'Cause I'm tap, tap, tapping on the glass
Waving through a window
I try to speak, but nobody can hear
So I wait around for an answer to appear
While I'm watch, watch, watching people pass
Waving through a window
Oh, can anybody see, is anybody waving?

When you're falling in a forest and there's nobody around
Do you ever really crash, or even make a sound?
When you're falling in a forest and there's nobody around
Do you ever really crash, or even make a sound?
When you're falling in a forest and there's nobody around
Do you ever really crash, or even make a sound?
When you're falling in a forest and there's nobody around
Do you ever really crash, or even make a sound?
Did I even make a sound?
Did I even make a sound?
It's like I never made a sound?
Will I ever make a sound?

On the outside always looking in
Will I ever be more than I've always been
'Cause I'm tap, tap, tapping on the glass
Waving through a window
I try to speak
But nobody can hear
So I wait around for an answer to appear
While I'm watch, watch, watching people pass
Waving through a window
Can anybody see, is anybody waving back at me?
Oooh, is anybody waving
Waving, waving, whoa-oh, whoa-oh-oh-oh