Fast Car

Song: Fast Car

Artist: Tracy Chapman

 

Even though the lyrics are a little sad, I really love this song right now. Also, my life is a little sad right now so it's fitting. I first heard this song a few weeks ago in the car. I liked it. Then I heard it two days ago in the car with my sister and we both really liked it. I was shocked when I found out it was a woman singing! I thought it was a middle-aged white man. Then I find out it's an African-American WOMAN!

 

But really, this song has been stuck in my head. I'm really struggling again. With life. With my depression. With my anxiety. I'm feeling those old familiar feelings of worthlessness, nothingness, sadness, regret, shame, jealousy, numbness and most of all fear. I truly wish I had "ticket to anywhere." Anywhere but here. I wish I could find someone to run away with. I need a fresh start. I need to start life again. I feel so stuck and so useless. My life feels so wasted and old.

 

"You got a fast car.....is it fast enough so you can fly away? You gotta make a decision. Leave tonight or live and die this way."

 

You got a fast car

I want a ticket to anywhere

Maybe we make a deal

Maybe together we can get somewhere
Any place is better

Starting from zero got nothing to lose
Maybe we'll make something
Me myself I got nothing to prove

 

You got a fast car

I got a plan to get us out of here

I been working at the convenience store

Managed to save just a little bit of money

Won't have to drive too far

Just 'cross the border and into the city

You and I can both get jobs

And finally see what it means to be living

See my old man's got a problem

He live with the bottle that's the way it is

He says his body's too old for working

His body's too young to look like his

My mama went off and left him

She wanted more from life than he could give

I said somebody's got to take care of him

So I quit school and that's what I did

You got a fast car

Is it fast enough so we can fly away?

We gotta make a decision
Leave tonight or live and die this way

 

So remember when we were driving driving in your car
Speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

You got a fast car

We go cruising, entertain ourselves

You still ain't got a job

And I work in a market as a checkout girl

I know things will get better

You'll find work and I'll get promoted

We'll move out of the shelter

Buy a bigger house and live in the suburbs

So remember when we were driving driving in your car
Speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

You got a fast car

I got a job that pays all our bills

You stay out drinking late at the bar

See more of your friends than you do of your kids

I'd always hoped for better

Thought maybe together you and me find it

I got no plans I ain't going nowhere

So take your fast car and keep on driving

So remember when we were driving driving in your car
Speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

 

You got a fast car
Is it fast enough so you can fly away?
You gotta make a decision
Leave tonight or live and die this way