Same Mistake

Song: Same Mistake

Artist: James Blunt

 

"I'm not calling for a second chance, I'm screaming at the top of my voice! Give me reason, but don't give me choice. 'Cause I'll just make the same mistake again."

 

No matter what I do I can't stop making the same mistakes! I can't re-train, re-focus my brain to STOP! It's a vicious, constant, daily battle. I wish I could just simply let everything go and LIVE! Relax. Breathe. And not be swept up in my fears that lead me to act out irrationally and behave in the ways that I despise and then find myself back at the beginning. I'm sick of living like this! I'm sick of always starting over again. Of always making the same mistakes. Every day.

 

This song is giving me a voice. A voice to my frustration and confusion.

 

 

Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.
Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars beneath my feet.
Remember rights that I did wrong, so here I go.

Hello, hello. There is no place I cannot go.
My mind is muddy but my heart is heavy. Does it show?
I lose the track that loses me, so here I go.

And so I sent some men to fight, and one came back at dead of night.
Said he'd seen my enemy. Said he looked just like me,
So I set out to cut myself and here I go.

I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.

And maybe someday we will meet, and maybe talk and not just speak.
Don't buy the promises 'cause, there are no promises I keep.
And my reflection troubles me, so here I go.

I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake,

I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
'Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.

(Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.
Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars.
Look at the stars fall down.
And wonder where did I go wrong.)

 

 

 

*DISCLAIMER: I am NOT suicidal nor do I cut myself (as one line in this song implies). But the majority of the song is fitting for my current doubts and frustrations with myself. Music is a way I express myself and my emotions since I am horrible at communicating them with my own words.*