Music is my Therapy

Song: He Prepares A Way Artist: Angie Killian & Blake Gillette As always....I'm in need of a re-set. And Sundays always feel like a good day to do so. Heard this song performed at church today. It was beautiful. I need to get back to the basics. I need to read my scriptures and put more time and thought into my prayers. I need to exercise faith and follow the example of Jesus Christ and keep the covenants I have made with Him more fully and honestly. I need to trust in His word and promises. He led Lehi and Sariah  To the promised land He gave light to Jared’s brother With His outstretched hand He heard and answered Enos Shielded Samuel on the wall Freed Amulek and Alma When He made their prison fall He prepares a way When we follow Him I’ll walk with faith And trust His light within My star in the sky My compass, my guide He prepares a way For me He gave power and protection To Abinadi Nurtured Helaman’s two-thousand At their mothers’ side He lifted Alma’s burdens Aided Abish

Song: Beautiful Lie Artist: Goo Goo Dolls I really....dislike myself.  I know that's dark and heavy way to start off today's post but I'm so extremely disappointed in who I am. From the way I look, think, act and a myriad of other reasons I just feel so incredibly ashamed. And trust me, it's deserved. I'm not being "too hard on myself." I'm actually a brat. I'm actually selfish and judgmental and prideful. Welp. I don't know why I wrote all of that just now. But, here we are.  This song came out clear back in February and I have yet to listen to it! So that's what we're going to do today! I have to be honest, the word LIE in the title is what made me pick this song because....I told a small lie the other day and it's been haunting me all week and made me sick with dread and anxiety all day yesterday and today. It really was pretty "innocent" but a lie is a lie and I don't know why I did it. It was fueled by anxiety

Song: Gold Can Turn To Sand Artist: Josh Groban It's time to FINALLY feature some JOSH GROBAN around here during HIS time of year! I totally don't remember this song at all but I remember that I'm pretty sure I liked it because it's on my playlist and....yeah, I do remember liking it when I first listened to it last year. I just can't remember anything about it 😅 So we shall see how I feel after giving it another listen this year! Can you tell I'm being lazy and tired and just went to my Josh Groban playlist, perused it real quick and chose something?? Because that's exactly what happened! When I left I was leaving with a brother Him and me, all we had was one another We were young, it was springtime And our dreams of gold were grand Oh, Kristina, gold can turn to sand Down that long, blazing trail I walked beside him He grew weak, and he leaned on me to guide him Though I doubted our future in that godforsaken land Oh, Kristina, gold can turn to sand S

Song: What Was I Made For? Artist: The Hound + The Fox Not feeling super inspired today....it's been a weird day and I just feel anxious. I know it's because I've been stressing and eating too much sugar. And it's because I keep telling little white lies because I'm so insecure with who I am. 😬😖 And now those "little white lies" are messing with me and causing me to panic. It's nothing crazy but....still. I don't know why I do it.  Also, my post-anything-I-get-excited-for-once-its-come-and-gone-depression is verrrrry real. I think I need help, this can't be healthy. I really enjoy and relate to the sentiment of this song and love this cover version. I used to float, now I just fall down I used to know, but I'm not sure now What I was made for What was I made for? Takin' a drive, I was an ideal Looked so alive, turns out I'm not real Just somethin' you paid for What was I made for? 'Cause I, I I don't know how to feel B

Song: I Wanna Go Back Artist: Eddie Money One week ago today, I was rocking out at my first of two back to back Hanson concerts! 💓 I have the post-Hanson-concert blues and miss them so much, hahaha 😭 Why do I have to be that fan?? 🤦 Kinda embarrassed, but it's who I am! Music is "my thing." It's my therapy. It's all I have. Last week was magical and perfect in every way. This week...my own personal Hell begins. I know that was quite a dramatic turn, I'll get to it later. I'm trying not to be depressed about it but I haven't been able to stop thinking/stressing and getting pissed over the situation. This song captures my feelings about last week ✨ PERFECTLY ✨  "I WANNA GO BACK!! AND DO IT ALL OVER ! " 🙌😭 I was listening to the radio I heard a song reminded me of long ago Back then I thought that things were never gonna change It used to be that I never had to feel the pain I know now that things will never be the same, no I wanna go ba

Song: Hard Fought Hallelujah  Artist: Brandon Lake I'm not feeling super inspired musically at the moment. Perhaps it's due to the fact that I'm starving after a long day of work (long, but really good day 🙏), or the fact that I'm still experiencing major withdrawals from my Hanson concerts 😭 Why do they have to be so good?? Like, it would help if they were not just as good live (if better) or maybe didn't have the most perfect setlists, covers, voices and gave it their ALL every single time that your left with a permanent grin on your face, floating on a cloud in a state of utter euphoria...that might help 😉 I guess I'll settle with the fact that my favorite band is actually the very BEST so I'm just going to have to deal until the next time I get to see them live (or at least hear them perform via livestream....🎄🙏🤞). This song popped up on my youtube feed the other day (how many times have I referenced finding songs via youtube?? I guess I spen