Music is my Therapy

Song(s): Houdini & Leave Me Alone Artist(s): Magnolia Park & NF I have been in a bad mental state for days. I'm finally getting over it, but it's been a lot and taken a major toll. The guilt and self-loathing I have been struggling with has been out of control! I can't get my thoughts to quiet, they are constantly screaming at me, telling me how awful I am and what a failure and loser I am. I'm stressed to the point of EXPLODING!  💥🤯 These two songs capture how my mental state has been perfectly. They're also kinda like anthems for my past week! This thumbnail tho ! 😱 I'm scared... Cut ties of my old life Shed my light by the bedside Holding guilt like a deadlight I'm too far gone on one side Got a heavy feeling in my chest Fix a grave where I can rest Don't save me now Don't save me now Illusions in command The faintest sleight of hand Madness Madness My battle never ends Madness Madness You are my only friend Don't save me now Don...

Song: The Bells of Notre Dame Artist: From, Disney's The Hunchback of Notre Dame For being a cartoon movie made for kids, The Hunchback of Notre Dame is quite disturbing and sinister. But it's got beautiful music! This song feels the most "Halloween" because of the line "Who is the MONSTER and who is the man?" 👹 This song is beautiful, chilling, eerie and haunting. Olim Olim deus accelere Hoc saeculum splendidum Accelere fiat venire olim Ah-ah-ah Ah-ah-ah Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah Ah-ah-ah Ah-ah-ah Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah Morning in Paris, the city awakes To the bells of Notre Dame The fisherman fishes, the bakerman bakes To the bells of Notre Dame To the big bells as loud as the thunder To the little bells soft as a psalm And some say the soul of the city's The toll of the bells The bells of Notre Dame Listen, they're beautiful, no? So many colours of sound, so many changing moods Because you know, they don't ring all by themselves They don't? No, sil...

Song(s): Abracadabra & Black Magic Woman Artist(s): Steve Miller Band & Fleetwood Mac It's getting to that point in the month where I start stressing about all the things I still want to do, watch, bake, listen to, etc. but have so little time and feel like every day is flying by and I'm not embracing it and experiencing it to the fullest! 😰 I love this time of year so much but the older I get and as the years swiftly pass, the more I realize the things I want to do and experience are best enjoyed with a significant other and/or children. And since I don't have any of those...I feel incredibly left out and like I can't experience/enjoy the things I want to. All of my siblings have grown up and moved on and are doing those kinds of things with their partners/families. My parents are so great and try to do things with me but...it's not the same. I feel sad. I've missed out on so much. I feel too old to do some of the things I want to do. It sucks. I...

Song: Blood on the Dance Floor x Dangerous (White Panda Mash-Up) Artist: Michael Jackson It's time to welcome back the KING OF HALLOWEEN for his annual HALLOWEEN SONG TRIBUTE POST MIIIIICHAEL JAAAAAACKSOOOOONNNN ! ! ! 👑🎃🧟 Every year man! I love that there are so many songs and videos of Michael's that work for this time of year! He's simply the G.O.A.T! 👑🐐 This mash-up of MJ hits is CRAZY AWESOME ! I ADORE it! Here's all the songs featured in this awesome mash-up: Blood on the Dance Floor , Dangerous , This Place Hotel , Ghosts / Is It Scary & Leave Me Alone THE KING  HAS RISEN ! !  🧟  ALL HAIL OUR KING OF HALLOWEEN ! !   👑🎃🧟🙇

Song(s): Reaper, Ghost 2 U, Feel Something & Breathing Artist: Magnolia Park I've been in my feels today....it's been a bad day. I'm disgusted and ashamed with myself. I feel so empty inside while at the same time feel all the things...all the bad, sad, overwhelming, angry, hurtful things. So this style and type of music is fitting. It feels right.  Reaper   💀 This one s C r E a M s Halloween the most! 💀 I used to walk alone at night Till the Reaper took my light I feel it crawling in my skin Embrace the dark and let him in Till the reaper comes Till the reaper comes Till the reaper comes Till the reaper comes I'm not afraid of the Dark Tired of falling apart Though I can see him I don't fear the reaper I'm not afraid of the dark Take my soul, can't take my spark Though I can see him I don't fear the reaper Now I'm walking by his side Pull the plug and take my life Haunted sounds I can't ignore Shut the curtains and lock the door Till t...

Song: Wicked Women Artist: The Hound + The Fox I read a book about the Salem Witch Trials today ( horrifying stuff!) and then watched the latest episode of  Agatha All Along ... I'm also reading another "Halloween" book (finished The Dark Descent of Elizabeth Frankenstein last week...I really enjoyed it! It was perfectly dark and creepy and had so many twists; it definitely kept me on the edge of my seat!) called The Spellbook of Katrina Van Tassel which is a re-telling of The Legend of Sleepy Hollow... it's got some major "witch vibes" going on...so as you might have gathered, I'm feeling a bit "witchy" tonight 🧹😉 I recently listened to this original song from youtube couple The Hound + The Fox and knew it was perfect for Halloween, especially perfect for today, all things considered! It's witch season baby!  Made from a star  Born from a flame  Given her father’s name  Forced to be tame Magic within  Told that her power is sin  No w...

Song: Creepin' Artist: Metro Boomin, The Weekend & 21 Savage Because of the song title...that's all I got for today! 🤷 Somebody said they saw you The person you were kissing wasn't me And I would never ask you I just kept it to myself I don't wanna know If you're playin' me, keep it on the low 'Cause my heart can't take it anymore And if you creepin', please don't let it show Oh, baby, I don't wanna know I think about it when I hold you When lookin' in your eyes, I can't believe And I don't need to know the truth Baby, keep it to yourself I don't wanna know If you're playin' me, keep it on the low 'Cause my heart can't take it anymore And if you creepin', please don't let it show Oh, baby, I don't wanna know Did he touch you better than me? (Touch you better than me) Did he watch you fall asleep? (Watch you fall asleep) Did you show him all those things that you used to do to me? If you'r...