This Is Me

Song: This Is Me

Artist: Faith Hill

 

It was so wonderful posting beautiful, praise-worthy songs of my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ last week. Each of those songs are so special to me. I love Easter!

 

I listened to this song today and it resonated with me. I've decided I'm going to try to go back to working on my goal of posting every single day. I know I've missed a lot of days at this point but it's a new week. I'm going to try to be consistent again. Also, April has been a notoriously "small" month here on my blog. In the last 3 years of Music is my Therapy I have posted a total of 9 times, last year posting ONCE. I need to show April some love and post some tunes!

 

 

Yeah I have my addictions

I keep my share of secrets
And things you'll never see

Mmm I get selfish and defensive
And pay too much attention to my insecurities

I'm just like everybody else

I try to love Jesus and myself

I don't know what you believe
What you think of what you see
But this is a part of me yeah
Of what I do and who I am
All of my impurities oh
Are right here on my sleeve
This is me
This is me

Yes my heart breaks for the homeless

I worry about my parents

And all my bills are late

Yeah I, I'm dealing with the changes
This complicated strangeness
 Of seeing life this way

Hey yeah I

I'm just like everybody else

I try, Lord I try to love Jesus and myself, yeah yeah

I don't know what you believe
What you think of what you see
But this is a part of me yeah
Of what I do and who I am
All of my impurities
Are right here on my sleeve
This is me, yeah
This is me
Woah, woah, woah, yeah yeah, yeah

I laugh at silly movies

Tear up when I see babies

And I'm stubborn as a stone

Yeah I

I critisize my body

I wonder if I'm ready to ever be alone

Oh I

I'm just like everybody else

I cry yes I cry just like everybody else yeah yeah yeah

I don't know what you believe
What you think of what you see
But this is a part of me
Of what I do and who I am
All of my impurities
Are right here on my sleeve
This is me
Oh, This is me

Oh, This is me, yeah

Ohhhhh

I'm gonna celebrate it

I'm gonna celebrate it

Don't be afraid who you are

Celebrate who you are

What you do, what you feel, what you see, who you are

Celebrate, celebrate

Yeah, This is me

I'm not afraid, I'm not ashamed

This is me

The very last paragraph is somewhere I want to get to in my life. For the past several .... weeks, maybe even months now, the phrase "I hate myself" has gone through my mind way too often. I'm beginning to really believe it too. I think about my past. My mistakes. The times I've lost my temper. Didn't follow through with something. Slept in. Procrastinated, etc. I'm so angry with myself all of the time. I haven't accepted who I am. Ever. I'm angry that I have social anxiety. I'm angry that I have depression. I don't like who I am. I'm boring, moody and a late, late bloomer .... still in the process of blooming. I feel like I'm getting "too old" to have a good life. I have too many missed opportunities that I can never have back. Anyway. I'm rambling. But I want to get to a point where I can accept and love myself. Where I can "celebrate" who I am. And that I will stop being "afraid" of who and what I can become. I want to love myself.