Music is my Therapy

Song: Dreams of a Better Day Artist: Kurt Bestor performed by Judd Maher   Please ;)   This song is from an old "feel good" movie from the 90's called The Buttercream Gang . My family and I watched this film on Sunday. It's horrendously cheesy yes, but the message is beautiful.   This song has really stood out to me. I've been listening/singing it a lot. I don't know why. I'm going through a hard time with self-acceptance and just loving myself. I wish I could be a kid again. I liked who I was back then. I felt good about myself. Why did I have to go and grow up? And get insecure? Also, it makes me think of my brother. He's going through a really hard time. I hope he can find his way back. To true peace, joy and happiness.   "Bring back those rains and wash my cares away. Then dry my eyes with the sunlight. And on that star only one small wish I pray, bring me home again."   "Won't you please tell me where t...

Saturday, March 14, 2015   HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE WONDERFUL, AMAZING, ONE-AND-ONLY TAYLOR HANSON!!!   I honestly CAN NOT believe he is 30-freaking-2 years old! He was the sweetest, most adorable 14 year old boy who ever lived!   So cute then and still so cute now :) He has aged beautifully!   Enjoy Taylor's montage of songs throughout the years!   I <3 this soooo much!! So cute!! Thinking of You - 3 Car Garage (1996) Starts at minute mark 4:43   Thinking of You - Middle of Nowhere (1997)   Love this live version :)   Save Me - This Time Around (2001)   LOVE the crowds reaction to this! He's still got it ;) (2011)   Believe - Underneath (2004)   This is too good to leave out! BEAUTIFUL!! I personally like this one better than the album version   Georgia - The Walk (2007)   Kiss Me When You Come Home - Shout it Out (2010) ...

Song: I Whistle A Happy Tune (Whenever I Feel Afraid) Artist: Rodger & Hammerstein's The King and I   I was an extremely anxious and shy child (haven't really grown out of that yet). I remember one time when I was getting upset about something (in large part due to my anxiety) my dad told me to sing this song to myself. Tuesday, I was having one of those days. It was over a very small and seemingly simple task but for some reason it was filling me with a lot of anxiety. It's embarrassing really how small the task was. Most people wouldn't even bat an eye at it. But to me, it was consuming my thoughts. I couldn't focus. And I couldn't calm down. As the time drew nearer for me to do this anxiety-inducing task I started singing this song over and over again to myself. I felt better each time I sang. It helped calm my nerves. I felt peace. I've always liked the movie The King and I and this song has always held a special place in my heart. It...

Song: Yearbook Artist: Hanson   There was a recent suicide that happened at the high school two of my siblings attend. My sister (who is a Senior) knew the boy. This has been the 3rd or 4th suicide this school year! Even though I did not personally know this young man or really anything about him it's been affecting me a lot. It's so, so terribly sad! My heart hurts for him and especially for his family. The way my sister described this boy was someone who always had a smile on his face, was kind to everyone he met. He would say "hello" and ask how my sister was every day their Sophomore year because he sat in front of her in one of their classes. She didn't even know him that well, but still she noticed that he was a kind person. It's scary that someone who seemed like "they had it all" were silently suffering. Suffering so tremendously that they didn't think it was worth it anymore. What was going on behind closed doors and when he was a...

Song: A Song to Sing Artist: Hanson   Good-bye old me. Good-bye all the things I imagine and wish that I was. Good-bye living in that imaginary world, living in my head. Good-bye to wild wishes, dreams and fantasies that will never be reality because I can't change the past no matter how much I wish I could. Good-bye past. You are the past and that is where you shall remain.....in the past. Good-bye obsessively thinking about people on a daily basis, trying to dissect exactly what it is they think of me. Good-bye judgmental, self-loathing, worst enemy, critical me. You are no longer welcome in my life. You are mean and cruel. You are nasty and you are unwanted. Good-bye to the security blanket that I have wrapped myself so tightly in these past few years. You are fake. A waste of my time. And energy. You aren't worth the hurt and pain I feel when I realize you aren't real and you never were and never will be. So I'm letting you go. And I'm setting myse...